Daybreak

[Fluttering]

From the book "DAYBREAK..."

Joy comes not through effrot but through awareness.

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Joy is simple. Joy is medicine for healing wounds. the potential to tap it is always there, though I am not always able to open myself to that belief. I often convince myself that it will take hours, days, months, years to come out of my darkness, and this becomes a self fullfilling prophesy that takes me back to the feelijngs I had before recovery. Actually, joy can be just around the corner.

As I grow stronger and more balalnced, I become aware that I can look for joy. When I hear a voice telling me life is joyless, I can dispute ti by beginnng a gratitude list. I can look around at the simple things in my life that bring joy, such as my pets, the birds at the bird feeder, a painting on the wall. If I allow it, I will feel the place in my heart where these simple things find meaning, even if the place of bleakness still remains right beside it.
I can be at peace and feel joy today....

[Fluttering]

From Daybreak

I am powerless over alcohol and drugs and I will accept the freedom from guilt & shame this knowledge opffers me..
i am free to heal and recover.

[Fluttering]

DAYBREAK:

I trust realtionships are given to me in part, to help me see myself. When they become painful, I must turn my attention to see what lesson is present.

I choose realtionships today, yet I do not always understand what they can teach me about myself. When they cause pain or turbulence, I want to throw them out. I fear they are going to hurt me.

My past experiences robbed me of the freedom to coneect with my true nature and distorted my sense of realtionships. I felt that to relate meant to be subjugated and over ridden.

As I gain maturity, I see relationships present me iwth opportunities to grow. intimate realtionships especially provoke me to feel the old feelings, but todays challenge is to realize I am not being subjugated. i am freee to speak openly and stand up so my needs are respected. I have an opportunity to see how two people can function in tandem without either being obliterated. I may require a lot of guidance to have a harmonious realtionship, but today I know where to seek help that can provide that guidance.