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Krazyranger112 · 01-11-2007, 10:05 PM

I know my only way to recover is through praying and working sprituality but i feel like why would god want to waste his time with me? I feel like im not good enough or deserve his help has anyone else felt this way? and if so could you give me some advice

**Ann** · 01-12-2007, 03:35 AM

Krazy, I believe that we are all God's children and that he loves us unconditionally, no matter what we have done or how unlovable we feel.

I turned my back on God for many years, and yet with one prayer I knew that he never turned his back on me.

Jesus didn't preach to the saints, he took his message to those who needed it most, people like you and me.

I truly believe that it's as simple as "ask, and you shall receive; knock and the door will open". When we take one step toward God, God takes 100 steps toward us. All we have to do is reach out and ask.

Hugs

Rusty Zipper · 01-12-2007, 04:57 AM

hiya krazy

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but i feel like why would god want to waste his time with me? I feel like im not good enough or deserve his help

...ppfftt, this site is loaded with people that thought the same as you... me included... the world of recovery is just that... recovering from that negative thinking... what worked for me was kicking in that old false pride ... proveing myself and the world... i'm worth it... guit and shame... i used it as a motivation tool... instead of geting sucked dry by it...

what did it... "the powers that be"... not me...

belief, trust and faith...

good wishes krazy........................... xo, rz

indigo · 01-12-2007, 05:46 AM

We are all equal in the eyes of our HP.

indigo

Emmet Wolf · 01-12-2007, 10:45 AM

If he "counted iniquities" -- who could stand?

We're all worth it to God. He meets us more than halfway, and like the Big Book says -- "doesn't make too harsh of terms with those who seek Him"

BrandiK · 01-12-2007, 11:29 AM

As a mother, I would never turn my back on my children. They may make many mistakes, they may make tremdous mistakes ... they may turn their backs to me ... but my children will always be my children. I will always love them.

I have seen the same from my own mother. My sister refuses to even talk to her, and yet, she is always asking about her, if she is ok, and longing for her to return.

My HP is also my parent. My HP would not turn a back to me any more then I would to my children. Even when I thought I wasnt worth loving, my HP called me home.

It's pretty amazing to forgive yourself enough to see that love.

Krazyranger112 · 01-14-2007, 10:16 AM

Thanks everyone for taking the time to reply to my problem

clancy · 01-17-2007, 01:23 PM

I eel the only way to recovery is want it YOURSELF .You are your own HP. We can wonder all we like about god an if he exists, an will he help us but its just unknowable. We will never really know unless the lord appears in his ull glory in front of us and even if that happened nobody would ever believe..noone believes meta physical stuff esp not from addicts, they would say you were stoned/had a fever/were developing schizophrenia.

Handing over problems to god...that seems such a cop out to me... whats going to happen ater you did that..you go on using trusting gods gonna mend you? thats so not gonns happen. I believe only you can mend you. you have too access the higher part of yourself...yoga an meditation is great way to do this.Why not read a ouple of books on it...at least you know you are real(okay this couldv v v be philosphially debated) but its better than belieing in something that might/might not be there. you are theonly person who an help you, just my view, europeans are not as into God as americans though my beliefs like everyones are probably just cultural conditioning....I know, it just seem sensible to trust your self. We are not powerless.we just need to acess our power.

hugs clan

01-11-2007, 10:05 PM	#1 (permalink)
Krazyranger112 Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: layton Utah Posts: 2	My struggle I know my only way to recover is through praying and working sprituality but i feel like why would god want to waste his time with me? I feel like im not good enough or deserve his help has anyone else felt this way? and if so could you give me some advice

01-12-2007, 03:35 AM	#2 (permalink)
Ann Forum Leader Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: By The Lake Posts: 29,802	Krazy, I believe that we are all God's children and that he loves us unconditionally, no matter what we have done or how unlovable we feel. I turned my back on God for many years, and yet with one prayer I knew that he never turned his back on me. Jesus didn't preach to the saints, he took his message to those who needed it most, people like you and me. I truly believe that it's as simple as "ask, and you shall receive; knock and the door will open". When we take one step toward God, God takes 100 steps toward us. All we have to do is reach out and ask. Hugs __________________ Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky. ~Tagore

01-12-2007, 05:46 AM	#4 (permalink)
indigo Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,928	We are all equal in the eyes of our HP. indigo __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

01-12-2007, 11:29 AM	#6 (permalink)
BrandiK Sober and Free Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: bay area CA Posts: 399	As a mother, I would never turn my back on my children. They may make many mistakes, they may make tremdous mistakes ... they may turn their backs to me ... but my children will always be my children. I will always love them. I have seen the same from my own mother. My sister refuses to even talk to her, and yet, she is always asking about her, if she is ok, and longing for her to return. My HP is also my parent. My HP would not turn a back to me any more then I would to my children. Even when I thought I wasnt worth loving, my HP called me home. It's pretty amazing to forgive yourself enough to see that love. __________________ ~Brandi~ "I can't forget I am a sole architect; I build the shadows here ... I built the growling voice I fear" (Poe)

01-17-2007, 01:23 PM	#8 (permalink)
clancy Im Ok - youre OK Join Date: Jan 2002 Location: UK Posts: 250	I eel the only way to recovery is want it YOURSELF .You are your own HP. We can wonder all we like about god an if he exists, an will he help us but its just unknowable. We will never really know unless the lord appears in his ull glory in front of us and even if that happened nobody would ever believe..noone believes meta physical stuff esp not from addicts, they would say you were stoned/had a fever/were developing schizophrenia. Handing over problems to god...that seems such a cop out to me... whats going to happen ater you did that..you go on using trusting gods gonna mend you? thats so not gonns happen. I believe only you can mend you. you have too access the higher part of yourself...yoga an meditation is great way to do this.Why not read a ouple of books on it...at least you know you are real(okay this couldv v v be philosphially debated) but its better than belieing in something that might/might not be there. you are theonly person who an help you, just my view, europeans are not as into God as americans though my beliefs like everyones are probably just cultural conditioning....I know, it just seem sensible to trust your self. We are not powerless.we just need to acess our power. hugs clan __________________ 'It riles them to believe that you perceive the web they weave'

01-12-2007, 10:45 AM	#5 (permalink)
Emmet Wolf Alcoholic and Addict Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Sobersville, a daily reprieve Posts: 14	If he "counted iniquities" -- who could stand? We're all worth it to God. He meets us more than halfway, and like the Big Book says -- "doesn't make too harsh of terms with those who seek Him"

01-14-2007, 10:16 AM	#7 (permalink)
Krazyranger112 Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: layton Utah Posts: 2	Thanks everyone for taking the time to reply to my problem

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