Class of March 2017 Support Thread Part 4
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Join Date: Mar 2017
Location: Northeast, USA
Posts: 275
Hi mighty March Ninjas!
Got 15 days under my belt and slipped. And then a couple more times until now. So feel I needed to post to get myself on better accountability footing.
I feel like I let not only myself down, but my Ninjas peeps, too. You guys are really an inspiration for me because you've gotten so much continuous sober time under your belts and I feel like I just post and say, "pssst, hey there, me again, Day 1 again."
But I guess that's why SR is here, and that I should hold onto the fact that since I joined in March 2017 my drinking days have been reduced by 50 percent. And that I just put 15 continuous days together for the first time in more than a year.
I think it was the lead up to the anniversary of Argus's passing that tripped me up. For me, it's sort of another level of saying goodbye, having gone through four seasons and thinking in each one of the memories at those times. And now, reconciling that he's been gone a whole year, and, well, he's not coming back.
So the anniversary of our farewell to him is now my new sobriety date: June 25, 2018.
Just posting and writing (and crying a bit) helps. I really need to get better at the letting-myself-cry thing. I always feel so much better afterward.
OK, coach, I think I'm ready. Put me back in.
p.s. The Argus avatar has been retired for now. In choosing my new one, I came across something I found when our thread was more active, and it made me laugh! So for now I'm going to be wacky ninja. Hi-ya!
Got 15 days under my belt and slipped. And then a couple more times until now. So feel I needed to post to get myself on better accountability footing.
I feel like I let not only myself down, but my Ninjas peeps, too. You guys are really an inspiration for me because you've gotten so much continuous sober time under your belts and I feel like I just post and say, "pssst, hey there, me again, Day 1 again."
But I guess that's why SR is here, and that I should hold onto the fact that since I joined in March 2017 my drinking days have been reduced by 50 percent. And that I just put 15 continuous days together for the first time in more than a year.
I think it was the lead up to the anniversary of Argus's passing that tripped me up. For me, it's sort of another level of saying goodbye, having gone through four seasons and thinking in each one of the memories at those times. And now, reconciling that he's been gone a whole year, and, well, he's not coming back.
So the anniversary of our farewell to him is now my new sobriety date: June 25, 2018.
Just posting and writing (and crying a bit) helps. I really need to get better at the letting-myself-cry thing. I always feel so much better afterward.
OK, coach, I think I'm ready. Put me back in.
p.s. The Argus avatar has been retired for now. In choosing my new one, I came across something I found when our thread was more active, and it made me laugh! So for now I'm going to be wacky ninja. Hi-ya!
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Join Date: Mar 2017
Location: Northeast, USA
Posts: 275
My new Ninja self needs to learn how to read a calendar. Yesterday was the anniversary of sweet Argus's goodbye, and my new hello to resuming the march. So as corrected:
• June 24, 2018
Going to get some coffee now...
• June 24, 2018
Going to get some coffee now...
Marchia in Aeternum
Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: Georgia
Posts: 11,094
Argi, your class seems to be a quiet one. Why don't you pop in to in March 2013? The people there are phenomenal and have saved my life a couple of times. We're always open to new people. And hey! You're already a Marcher.
Tell em the turtle sent you.
Tell em the turtle sent you.
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Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: LI, NY
Posts: 982
Argi, great job on reaching 15 days! Please commit to 30 this time, post every day and commit to sobriety. If you feel the urge, use your sober arsenal to say NO. Start a thread and ask permission to drink. You can do this!
JimiC (formely JC-NY)
Oh, cute new avatar!
JimiC (formely JC-NY)
Oh, cute new avatar!
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: CT, USA
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Hey Ninjas, it's been a minute as the kids say. Just want to say hi. I'm doing well, coming up on 16 months in a few days. Feeling a little "bleh" every now and then but I'm using that as wake up calls to get my head to prioritize sobriety more and avoid being complacent. I suppose now that I'm not constantly focused on the not drinking, I'm still learning how to live again while juggling a ton of responsibilities. Making "me" time can be difficult. But all in all, I feel so much better and have learned to accept myself and those around me way better than I ever have.
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Originally Posted by BetterIsBetter 
Hey Ninjas, it's been a minute as the kids say. Just want to say hi. I'm doing well, coming up on 16 months in a few days. Feeling a little "bleh" every now and then but I'm using that as wake up calls to get my head to prioritize sobriety more and avoid being complacent. I suppose now that I'm not constantly focused on the not drinking, I'm still learning how to live again while juggling a ton of responsibilities. Making "me" time can be difficult. But all in all, I feel so much better and have learned to accept myself and those around me way better than I ever have.
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Originally Posted by sunshine72
This is so cool we are bringing back our Ninjas! Wow 16 months what an inspiration. I remember when I got to 18 months and then thought I could handle the drink again... Wrong.. here I am at 138 days. But that's o.k. It takes lots of trial and error. I'm happy to see your BIB!
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Originally Posted by JimiC
I was wondering about you BIB, so glad you checked on. I’m very happy for you man, keep rocking sober!
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Originally Posted by sunshine72
... It's a bitch at first girlfriend. Do this with me Argi!!! Check in you wacky Ninja!
I've been in a "few days on, few days off" cycle ever since I slipped after hitting super spectacular sixteen! And it is starting to become more on, which scares me. My 16 days and any other real progress forward was when I just took drinking totally off the table, for pain relief or for "social" drinking (it's hard to believe I ever drank socially...) So it's back to that as my umbrella strategy.
I am going for 30 JimiC, starting today. I'm already planning on how I am going to navigate two upcoming trips in that time, where the pain levels usually ramp up from traveling, accompanied by the anxiety of being with family, both mine and my husband's (one trip each).
trach, I may take you up on that offer to be-bop over to March 2013. My home Ninjas are close to my heart, but I think this time around I'm going to need all the help I can get (and like I said, I'm not much of a forum poster; did Weekenders for a time but as people shifted it didn't seem the right fit for a bit). Maybe try them again too. But first I'll drop on by March 2013 to see if the door's open and will definitely say the turtle sent me!
BiB! Another Ninja drop by! I love our group. 16 months. Wicked.
You guys remain inspirational. sunshine, 138 days is phenom. I will do this with you, if you promise you'll look back on the road and send me a wave, or an air kiss, or even better, a throwing star (heavily wrapped in bubble wrap...)
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It has been quite a while fellow Marchers. I just want to say hello and that I hope you are all are doing well. I just celebrated 2 years on 3/6. AA has truly worked/continues to work for me.
Thinking of you Ninjas and hope that you're well.
Thinking of you Ninjas and hope that you're well.
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