Fly N Buy

The insanity of what we do.......thanks for the reminder.

I quit at 54 - now 57. Before I quit couldn't imagine life without alcohol. Today, just the opposite. Nothing special in those of us who quit - just made a decision and then backed it up with action. That's he rub

Three frogs on a stump - one thought about jumping off. How many still on stump ??

Three

Thinking about it doesn't change anything.

PurpleKnight

My addiction could make anything seem exciting . . . staying up all night, waking up and struggling through work, drinking liquor straight from the bottle, being home alone on Saturday night, no one judging me on what I was drinking . . . sure I was living the rock n' roll lifestyle of my 20s, wasn't I??

The reality was I had an addiction, don't beat yourself up, it's a real thing, but you can get through it and there are many here that want to help you make it!!

Caramel

"Three frogs on a stump - one thought about jumping off. How many still on stump ??

Three

Thinking about it doesn't change anything."

Brilliant.

Thanks, Fly N Buy

uncorked

Yes. I was you. Whenever my husband was out of town or worked late, that was my green light. (As if I needed one....) And I certainly felt shameful, pathetic, remorseful, all the things you mentioned. But just because you feel that way doesn't mean you are that way.

There's really nothing exciting about blacking out and having a hangover the next day.

SummerBee

Please send me some more positive vibes

DolAndel

Thanks for having the courage to reach out here, Lolly. Wishing you the best!

LadyBlue0527

It's not really excitement, what it constitutes is the feeling an addict gets when they know they're going to get their fix. Doesn't matter if it's alcohol, drugs, porn, sex, or whatever the addiction is. That feeling is the euphoria of knowing that the addiction is going to be fed.

You know what Lolly? It's not happiness, not even in the least. I truly hope you work on a recovery plan. I'll never forget the first time that I got excited and happy about something after having been sober for a while. I was pretty overwhelmed and at first questioned the feeling. I felt like a little girl who wanted to giggle and wrap my arms around myself in a hug. At first I thought I was nuts.

Then I got it, for the first time in a long, long time, I was experiencing happiness in its true form. I just hadn't experienced it in so long I didn't remember how good it felt. It also has absolutely nothing to do with the feeling of excitement that you get when you're going to drink. They're two totally different things but you don't see that until you're sober for a while.

It's clean, pure happiness as it's intended to be felt and you can feel the same. You just have to want it and get through the beginning tough times.

You can do this Lolly, you really can.

skipper123

I too get very excited at the thought of having a drinking session. W hat has helped me most of the time is reminding myself how I will feel the next day. Even if the hangover is not too bad the sadness and disgust with myself just kills the urge.

behindblueyes

I still feel a rush of adrenaline hit when I think of drinking. But my rational part of my brain takes over and reminds me I almost died from "just one beer".

Dee74

Actually thinking about this.,..for a long time that adrenaline rush, that anticipation, was what I knew as happiness.

Thats why, I think, it's hard for some of us to give up because those brief little moments define happiness for us.

It wasn't until I got sober that I experienced real happiness again - and was able to put this very poor imitation in its proper perspective.

D

WhiskeyBent

I know exactly how you feel. I was excited after work, race to the store, and race home. My hands were shaking as i opened the first one.