ICanDoBetter

Thanks all for the support and comments this weekend when I was battling the AV. I did read and appreciate it all but didn't respond a whole lot in the midst of it all because quite frankly I wasn't in a pleasant mood about it all :-). Upon some reflection I did want to make sure to acknowledge my appreciAtion to you all :-)

FindingCake

Your thread definitely helped me shut up my AV over the weekend. So while I'm sorry you went through that, thank you for posting about. ☺

Rar

How are you doing now ICanDoBetter?

ICanDoBetter

I'm getting there, as it were. Still not all sunshine and roses but much improved :-)

Behappy1

Your thread helped me ALOT too! Sorry you had to deal with it, but that AV can sure be a bi%$h!

ICanDoBetter

Interestingly I spent several hours having a mental debate that day. I even contacted a friend who moderates with success (long story ).... I said "it would be easier if your just tell me I can moderate - I know you won't but it would be easier." She quickly said, " no way I'd tell you that!"

Mentally I deferred the decision til my yard work was done... I decided I kind of didn't care if I had to start over at day one. I'd just quit posting here though I knew eventually I'd feel guilty for that and have to do the walk of shame (my words - it's how I would feel) and limo back here eventually and explain myself. Then til later as I rolled around in my head how I would explain changing course to my kids. And I couldn't resolve in my head how I could possibly justify it to them ... And that's what kept me from drinking.

Rar

Good job not caving. Those moderation thoughts, turned to action were how I relapsed twice. I'm only on my 13th day. I have to admit that the thought also occurred to me today, as I am struggling somewhat. I'll probably end up going to bed by 8:00. LOL. Hope tomorrow is better (2 weeks). Hang in there ICanDoBetter. I'm rooting for you.

REsoberALITY

Glad to hear you made it through... Wishing you the best and some easier days to come. We can do THIS!