Hopelessness
I slipped so many times I can't count!! get back in a meeting! Kudos on 2 months!! It's not about falling, it's about getting up and moving forward!! It's that first drink that gets us!!
Don't beat yourself up!! Get back in the saddle and keep trying!!
To me it means I cannot control my drinking and that it causes problems in my life. From what I've read so far on this thread you seem to have the same problem, and in a major way. You need to decide for yourself, but can tell you for a fact that you'll regret this binge and the sooner you stop it the better.
Being an alcoholic means that drinking has bad consequences for you, whether it's legal trouble, relationship trouble, or just bad for your health. Best thing is to stop drinking before something really bad happens.
I disagree with the "first few tries" line of thinking. It took me many tries before I was finally able to get sober for good. I got to the point where I wanted to be sober more than I wanted to drink.
I disagree with the "first few tries" line of thinking. It took me many tries before I was finally able to get sober for good. I got to the point where I wanted to be sober more than I wanted to drink.
My life's better and keeps getting when I don't use/drink etc (relationships, work, health, friends, family etc)
And it gets worse - discernibly worse - when I do.
Is the drink helping or hindering you in life right now?
And it gets worse - discernibly worse - when I do.
Is the drink helping or hindering you in life right now?
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I have a lot of great things going on in my life right now, I could connect these to a lot of reasons, but it's all because today I am sober.
When I was drinking, my life was a mess. I had a job where I would miss days off every week, and when I went to work I would be hung over and unable to concentrate on the tasks. I was isolating and just spending weekends at home drinking by myself. I quit the job but I believe if this kept going, they would have fired me sooner and later. I was a terrible employee. My mind was foggy, disoriented, bad memory, and very emotional. I couldnt show up for people I cared about. I couldnt be there emotionally or physically for people. I would make plans to go to a brunch, for example, with people I havent seen in a long time, I would tell them Im coming for sure. But when the time came, I was either drunk, hung over or sleeping. I would get drunk and say embarrassing, private things to people. I would put myself in extremely dangerous situations with strangers. I would be black out drunk not remembering what I did or said the night before. I was constantly in a state of distress, anxiety, shame, guilt, embarrassment. My life was truly a mess.
I was unemployed, unemployable, all I cared about was to drink. Other stuff I believed I care so much about, like my family, significant other, dog, career, job... all of these came second to my drinking. I knew deep down inside that if I didnt drink as much, or if I didnt drink at all, my career and personal relationships would be in a much better state... But I simply could not stop drinking.
Now that everything in my life is so much better, it is because Im sober. Everything I have right now depends on me staying sober. One day at a time.
If, when you honestly want to, you find you can't stop entirely or if when you drink you have little or no control over the amount you take, you could be alcoholic. It is about control and choice.
I reached a point where I had lost control and lost the power of choice. I joined AA took the steps and recovered. We take the steps to recover not the other way around.
How long do you have to get started on the steps? As long as you can stay sober on your own power, which for me was about 3 weeks max.
I reached a point where I had lost control and lost the power of choice. I joined AA took the steps and recovered. We take the steps to recover not the other way around.
How long do you have to get started on the steps? As long as you can stay sober on your own power, which for me was about 3 weeks max.
That is exactly how I felt. I convinced myself that I wasn't SO bad that I needed to get a sponsor and work the program. For six months I put myself through white knuckling even though I was going to meetings. Almost killed me, and I certainly got to the stage I didn't want to live. That all changed with the step work. It helped me address my alcoholic thinking . Please give it a go.
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