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Hi everyone,
I am back... Just asked the admins to merge my "old" account with this so hopefully I will reverse my self-inflicted self annihilation soon.
Still sober
But lots have happened since I signed off here... I will share later.
I am back... Just asked the admins to merge my "old" account with this so hopefully I will reverse my self-inflicted self annihilation soon.
Still sober
But lots have happened since I signed off here... I will share later.
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Join Date: Jul 2016
Location: Colorado
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I'm feeling scarred right now. I had 8 months and relapsed last December. Since then I have only been able to make it about 6 weeks. I was just in the hospital on Tuesday and was close to death, with my electrolytes totally out of balance. I'm a 27 year old and a type 1 diabetic, which does not mix with drinking well at all. I am so scarred that I won't make it to 30. I know I am an alcoholic and am powerless over alcohol. I don't know if I'm one of those types who cannot be honest with themselves or what. I have worked the steps once but am now working with my sponsor on another 4th. I feel like I can't deal with the downs in life like a normal person. I'm having trouble finding serenity right now.
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Originally Posted by Aeellyce 
Hi everyone,
I am back... Just asked the admins to merge my "old" account with this so hopefully I will reverse my self-inflicted self annihilation soon.
Still sober But lots have happened since I signed off here... I will share later.
I am back... Just asked the admins to merge my "old" account with this so hopefully I will reverse my self-inflicted self annihilation soon.
Still sober
But lots have happened since I signed off here... I will share later.Member
Join Date: Jun 2013
Posts: 568
Aellyce, I understand what you are saying about feeling shameful about the relapse. I felt the same way on my last two relapses. When I came back to SoberRecovery everyone was so welcoming and non-judgmental. Hang in there.
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Thanks everyone for the latest comments and welcome-back
I actually don't have anything negative to report on the recovery front since I signed off earlier in the summer and have been doing pretty good. I was quite busy with work and travels and some brand new job opportunity in sight that I need to consider carefully. It would not be changing jobs but adding a second one to what I have already been doing for quite a few years.
Recovery-wise, one thing I have been doing a bit differently is going to quite a lot of meetings: AA, SMART, Refuge Recovery, also during my travels when I can. Engaging in the programs of these to various extent, mixing in combinations that I feel is the most helpful and interesting for me. Also still in therapy but that's sort of like part of my routine these days since I hardly missed a week here and there for about 2.5 years now, still like it a lot.
So the reason why I decided to close my account earlier was exactly the same as sometime 1.5 year ago (but that did not last more than a week). I periodically get overwhelmed and worried about how I can get hooked on online interactions, there are times when I feel it becomes obsessive and excessive. But I tried to looked at it in a different way now and thought that I won't cut myself off from this forum, what is the point really, and I don't have the desire to use it excessively now. This is behind my coming back.
I have been sober since my last report of relapse here a few months back and no change whatsoever in that determination
I actually don't have anything negative to report on the recovery front since I signed off earlier in the summer and have been doing pretty good. I was quite busy with work and travels and some brand new job opportunity in sight that I need to consider carefully. It would not be changing jobs but adding a second one to what I have already been doing for quite a few years.
Recovery-wise, one thing I have been doing a bit differently is going to quite a lot of meetings: AA, SMART, Refuge Recovery, also during my travels when I can. Engaging in the programs of these to various extent, mixing in combinations that I feel is the most helpful and interesting for me. Also still in therapy but that's sort of like part of my routine these days since I hardly missed a week here and there for about 2.5 years now, still like it a lot.
So the reason why I decided to close my account earlier was exactly the same as sometime 1.5 year ago (but that did not last more than a week). I periodically get overwhelmed and worried about how I can get hooked on online interactions, there are times when I feel it becomes obsessive and excessive. But I tried to looked at it in a different way now and thought that I won't cut myself off from this forum, what is the point really, and I don't have the desire to use it excessively now. This is behind my coming back.
I have been sober since my last report of relapse here a few months back and no change whatsoever in that determination
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Originally Posted by courage2
All good news, A! 
--A is because I don't know what to call you anymore -- how many "e"s do you prefer?
--A is because I don't know what to call you anymore -- how many "e"s do you prefer?
It's for novelty. I had to create a new account in order to be able to log in again and decided to minimize creativity to an extra "e" only. Why add and not delete, dunno.
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Great to see you back and to hear you are doing well. I do understand the sentiment behind getting a bit too involved in social media, in general, and needing a break. I'm glad to see it wasn't a permanent break.
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