Forte

Hey everyone,

Detox has been a rough ride so far, I'm finally allowed to have my phone out in the open so I thought I would update.

Today I felt a little light in my life. I am not a Christian but I do believe in God & for the last month we haven't been talking. Today I opened up the dialogue and I just feel a little lighter afterwards. My soul has been damaged as badly as my body this last relapse.

I have been on sedatives to deal with withdrawals but they are starting to reduce tomorrow so I won't consider myself in recovery until I am running on nothing. I have been doing countless head miles in here. My life's worst moments playing on repeat day and night. Things I haven't thought of for years. It's not a fancy place, a lot of homeless drunks and addicts all in a big dorm. I feel like I'm on another planet. I wanted to run at first but I had nowhere to go. That probably saved my bacon..

Sorry for a rambling long post, it's important to me to check in here. I love this place.

Hope all you guys are safe and well

Forte

whathaveidone84

glad your doing well, keep at it!

least

It's good to hear from you. Glad you're doing better. Keep it up, it gets better.

Delilah1

It's great to hear from you Forte!!! I think each of us feels similar when we look back on out past, however, all we can do is learn and continue to move forward on our journey.

I am proud of you for recognizing you needed help, and for following through, that is not easy. Looking forward to seeing you back on SR and hearing how you are doing!

❤️Delilah

sobriiestote

Good to hear from you, how long are you going to be staying in detox for? What is your plan when detox finishes?

I really wish you luck, keep checking in : )

MikeM

Stay strong and keep going!!

Dee74

I'm glad things are getting a little better Forte

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Soberwolf

Glad things are looking up Forte

Anna

You sound like you're doing well, Forte!

Hawkeye13

I'm really glad you checked in and are feeling a bit lighter.
You're climbing out and we are here to support you

SoberinSyracuse

I'd been wondering where you landed and how it was going. Glad to see you're safe, sheltered, and detoxing. Are you working on your plan for when you get out? You'll want a clear idea of where you're going and what you're doing to protect that hard-won sobriety you're earning in detox!

Forte

Thanks for your replies guys n gals, really brightens my days.
The thing is I don't have a plan right now. I'm tired of going on about the negative in my life but I've really been left with nothing after this relapse. I'm thinking of rehab but a part of me just wants to find a job quickly so I can put a roof back over my head then win the love of my life back..

Is this delusional thinking?

I have that iron resolve now that one gets after a disastrous relapse, I never want to drink or use but I know I need to do things differently or chances are it will happen again.

I guess you could say I'm a lost puppy. But I'm alive