Josh90

Hi, I'm Josh, I'm 26 and I have been taking Vicodins for about 8years now. About 15 a day if I have the $. I've been clean of them for 6days today! And I felt great all day, no withdraws, had energy! But then my family member that lives with me told me that they were going to get some, and once I heard that my mind started telling me that I needed it but my body said no if that makes scenes. So at about 8pm I screwed everything up and asked for just 1! And I took it, but it didn't affect me at all which is weird lol so when I go to bed is it day 1 again?? When I wake up, or still say day 6?? I hate these pills so much. I just needl someone to help me and give me tips on how to overcome this Hell! So if your reading this and know what I'm going threw please HELP me thank you

eyeblink

I feel like it is a new day 1 for you despite if you feel the effects or not. That being said though you should still remain proud of those days clean, and build on the momentum you had already built. Don't beat yourself up; just focus on what's best for your recovery.

Also I would pay close attention to what your triggers are and avoid them. If this family member is bad for your recovery then it would be valuable for you to reevaluate the dynamics of your relationship with them.

Josh90

Yea I agree. It's just hard when you have no where else to go.

Mountainmanbob

I have had friends with an intake such as yours -- very hard on the liver -- not to mention being a slave to the addiction.

Congratulations on your clean and sober days.

A much better life awaits you -- coming real soon.

M-Bob

Soberwolf

Welcome Josh

least

If you deliberately took one, then yes, tomorrow is day one. You have to be honest with yourself.

SoberLife90

Welcome to the forum.

Glendora8

Does your family member know that you are trying to quit? You might want to think about moving out. At least you felt good with out the Vic's! You know you are good with out them!

Anna

I think you're very lucky to have had no physical withdrawal symptoms when you were stopping. It sounds like the mental part of the recovery will be harder and I think that's true for most of us. If there is any way to distance yourself from this particular family member, that would be a good idea. You can do this!

eyeblink

I think you're correct! It is very hard, but whats harder is losing out on life due to an addiction. Surely no matter what path you choose it is a difficult one, but this rough patch of detoxing and moving on to long term recover is a temporary challenge (whereas losing out on life can occur indefinitely).

You can stay clean

Dee74

How are you doing Josh?

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PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum Josh!!