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How can you possibly know if inpatient will work for you if you walked out in 2 hours?
You say you're trying hard but most people don't see that as trying at all. Trying hard to most is what Dee described.
Yes, early sobriety is so uncomfortable, but the urges are not impossible to overcome.
I've had tears just rolling down my face I've wanted a drink so bad, but I don't drink. I've clenched my fists and punched my pillow, but I don't drink. Some people do it the smart way, lol, just keep busier, do Something to distract yourself, just don't drink. You need to give it some effort if you want results. It does get easier.
Unfortunately, sobriety can't be bought. Money or not, not everything in life will come so easy. Sure, you can go to a luxurious rehab, a benefit most don't have, but sobriety doesn't cost a dime for those who really want it. There's tons of help out there to make it a bit easier, but at the end of the day it's all on you. It will come from within you.
How bad do you really want it?
You say you're trying hard but most people don't see that as trying at all. Trying hard to most is what Dee described.
Yes, early sobriety is so uncomfortable, but the urges are not impossible to overcome.
I've had tears just rolling down my face I've wanted a drink so bad, but I don't drink. I've clenched my fists and punched my pillow, but I don't drink. Some people do it the smart way, lol, just keep busier, do Something to distract yourself, just don't drink. You need to give it some effort if you want results. It does get easier.
Unfortunately, sobriety can't be bought. Money or not, not everything in life will come so easy. Sure, you can go to a luxurious rehab, a benefit most don't have, but sobriety doesn't cost a dime for those who really want it. There's tons of help out there to make it a bit easier, but at the end of the day it's all on you. It will come from within you.
How bad do you really want it?
Hi Mike, it has all been said.
Since at this moment, you feel pretty well it seems....get back to the Rehab facility, with your own linens and stay.
I bet after 90 days you would be well on your way to a new life.
Don't give up.
Everyone here wants you well.
Since at this moment, you feel pretty well it seems....get back to the Rehab facility, with your own linens and stay.
I bet after 90 days you would be well on your way to a new life.
Don't give up.
Everyone here wants you well.
It didn't upset me.
I've had counseling, been to rehab (it's only out of the question because I leave). Any type of treatment hits me where it hurts and I leave. Now I leave before they can get to the painful part.
I have the opportunity to go anywhere. To get any type of treatment. But I feel that, for the alcoholism, that's not what I need. I need some distance from it and I'll be fine. I think. Otherwise I would need to face my trauma regarding institutions and that's a big one.
I've had counseling, been to rehab (it's only out of the question because I leave). Any type of treatment hits me where it hurts and I leave. Now I leave before they can get to the painful part.
I have the opportunity to go anywhere. To get any type of treatment. But I feel that, for the alcoholism, that's not what I need. I need some distance from it and I'll be fine. I think. Otherwise I would need to face my trauma regarding institutions and that's a big one.
They are forever linked, intricately interwoven, parts of the same whole.
So is living the way you are and continuing to try and suppress the trauma.
One path is toward healing.
The other path is toward insanity or worse.
The choice of paths is yours.
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Mike, you went to your parents house for a period time and its an alcohol free zone. You said the urge to drink was so strong you almost passed out. Would you mind elaborating on that? I'm very curious. You were obviously sober, but were strongly compelled to return home and drink beer, correct? Did you feel any sense of gratitude or appreciation for the fact that you had detoxed your body from alcohol and you felt "good"?
Lastly, I only wish you the best man, I mean that sincerely.
Lastly, I only wish you the best man, I mean that sincerely.
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Mike, I you went to your parents house for a period time and its an alcohol free zone. You said the urge to drink was so strong you almost passed out. Would you mind elaborating on that? I'm very curious. You were obviously sober, but were strongly compelled to return home and drink beer, correct?
Lastly, I only wish you the best man, I mean that sincerely.
Lastly, I only wish you the best man, I mean that sincerely.
So if I miss something, consider the focus I have now.
About the passing out, it was a head rush. An intense feeling of wanting to drink that started in my stomach and rushed up to my head. Turned the lights off momentarily, but I managed to stay conscious. Had it taken a second longer, I would have been on the floor.
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Thanks. Btw, to all, I will only reply here and there. I started drinking yesterday afternoon, didn't sleep but drank, and am still doing it.
So if I miss something, consider the focus I have now.
About the passing out, it was a head rush. An intense feeling of wanting to drink that started in my stomach and rushed up to my head. Turned the lights off momentarily, but I managed to stay conscious. Had it taken a second longer, I would have been on the floor.
So if I miss something, consider the focus I have now.
About the passing out, it was a head rush. An intense feeling of wanting to drink that started in my stomach and rushed up to my head. Turned the lights off momentarily, but I managed to stay conscious. Had it taken a second longer, I would have been on the floor.
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