Still feel a newcomer three years in
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Still feel a newcomer three years in
It's 3 years and 4 days since I managed by some miracle to stop drinking.
I don't often dream or think about having a drink. ..but it scares me that I am probably only one drink away from going back to the nightmare of constantly needing and wanting a drink. It probably a heathy fear. This makes me feel like a newcomer to recovery every day.
Only alcoholics understand the urge to drink that fellow alcoholics have.
My family love our life now iam in recovery , it's changed our world for the better. I wish everyone who suffers from this disease the strength and drive to beat it.
I don't often dream or think about having a drink. ..but it scares me that I am probably only one drink away from going back to the nightmare of constantly needing and wanting a drink. It probably a heathy fear. This makes me feel like a newcomer to recovery every day.
Only alcoholics understand the urge to drink that fellow alcoholics have.
My family love our life now iam in recovery , it's changed our world for the better. I wish everyone who suffers from this disease the strength and drive to beat it.
Hi George
I still feel like a newcomer too - but in the sense of I'm still learning.
I also believe I'm only one drink away from disaster but I also feel that decision gets more and more remote for me with every year.
I might decide to swim in toxic waste, or whack some heroin into my arm, or play chicken with semis on the highway too - all possible decisions but very very unlikely
I have a sense of peace now I have no intention of losing
Congrats on your 3 years
D
I still feel like a newcomer too - but in the sense of I'm still learning.
I also believe I'm only one drink away from disaster but I also feel that decision gets more and more remote for me with every year.
I might decide to swim in toxic waste, or whack some heroin into my arm, or play chicken with semis on the highway too - all possible decisions but very very unlikely
I have a sense of peace now I have no intention of losing
Congrats on your 3 years
D
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I had many day 1's also probably a decades worth. I finally admitted defeat on thinking I was strong enough to control my drinking,....... my health, my family and my soul were on the verge of extinction .
Congrats on three years!
I hope the fear you're describing is more the healthy kind of fear that keeps you aware - versus the struggling kind of fear that means you're finding yourself on edge.
If it's the latter, I wonder what steps you might take to help you settle more deeply into a grounded sobriety. We should not have to live in an anxious worry in recovery. Sounds like that's not where you are - but just in case, I thought I'd mention it.
I feel like the "newcomer for life" perspective is a good one. It's one of the reasons I have yet to really venture off this newcomer's forum and why I relish being with and around newcomers in the rooms. It keeps my head connected squarely to the reality of what my life was when I was drinking and helps keep my from getting off path or becoming susceptible to "just one or two won't hurt" kinds of thinking
I hope the fear you're describing is more the healthy kind of fear that keeps you aware - versus the struggling kind of fear that means you're finding yourself on edge.
If it's the latter, I wonder what steps you might take to help you settle more deeply into a grounded sobriety. We should not have to live in an anxious worry in recovery. Sounds like that's not where you are - but just in case, I thought I'd mention it.
I feel like the "newcomer for life" perspective is a good one. It's one of the reasons I have yet to really venture off this newcomer's forum and why I relish being with and around newcomers in the rooms. It keeps my head connected squarely to the reality of what my life was when I was drinking and helps keep my from getting off path or becoming susceptible to "just one or two won't hurt" kinds of thinking
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