Ramping up the intensity
Ramping up the intensity
Closing on day 12. It's been good, some moments of deep desire to drink, and deeper desire to abstain.
I am a musician, play drums and sing in a Classic Rock cover band. Tomorrow night and Saturday night are my first gigs since being sober. It will be a "ramping up" of the intensity to stay sober. My performances are much better when sober, but that hasn't happened in years. I know this from my practice time at home when I've been sober over the years. I look forward to a solid set of performances this weekend, but playing in the bar will be a challenge for sure. The upside is that my bad player is sober, after getting a OUI recently, so that will definitely help. I will check back in here throughout the weekend. SR has been good for me this time around, I am more determined this time and have been in here everyday, several times in the past 12 days.
At the moment I am sitting in my living room, daughter and her family are here and one of my sons. The guys are watching football and drinking. I am not tempted to join in, but it is different not having the same mindset as them as when I have drank with them. They are not even asking me to drink or tempting me at all. They have seen me at my worst, and it's not pretty.
It's strange, I just feel like going to bed early, much earlier than I used to, and that's good.
I see that it's all up to me, I must protect myself. The thoughts of drinking are ever present, but I am thankful that the desire to be sober continue to prevail thus far. One day at a time.
So, goodnight SR. Thank you all for your participation here, and all the help you have been to me. Happy Thanksgiving!
Introspectator
I am a musician, play drums and sing in a Classic Rock cover band. Tomorrow night and Saturday night are my first gigs since being sober. It will be a "ramping up" of the intensity to stay sober. My performances are much better when sober, but that hasn't happened in years. I know this from my practice time at home when I've been sober over the years. I look forward to a solid set of performances this weekend, but playing in the bar will be a challenge for sure. The upside is that my bad player is sober, after getting a OUI recently, so that will definitely help. I will check back in here throughout the weekend. SR has been good for me this time around, I am more determined this time and have been in here everyday, several times in the past 12 days.
At the moment I am sitting in my living room, daughter and her family are here and one of my sons. The guys are watching football and drinking. I am not tempted to join in, but it is different not having the same mindset as them as when I have drank with them. They are not even asking me to drink or tempting me at all. They have seen me at my worst, and it's not pretty.
It's strange, I just feel like going to bed early, much earlier than I used to, and that's good.
I see that it's all up to me, I must protect myself. The thoughts of drinking are ever present, but I am thankful that the desire to be sober continue to prevail thus far. One day at a time.
So, goodnight SR. Thank you all for your participation here, and all the help you have been to me. Happy Thanksgiving!
Introspectator
Closing on day 12. It's been good, some moments of deep desire to drink, and deeper desire to abstain. I am a musician, play drums and sing in a Classic Rock cover band. Tomorrow night and Saturday night are my first gigs since being sober. It will be a "ramping up" of the intensity to stay sober. My performances are much better when sober, but that hasn't happened in years. I know this from my practice time at home when I've been sober over the years. I look forward to a solid set of performances this weekend, but playing in the bar will be a challenge for sure. The upside is that my bass player is sober, after getting a OUI recently, so that will definitely help. I will check back in here throughout the weekend. SR has been good for me this time around, I am more determined this time and have been in here everyday, several times in the past 12 days. At the moment I am sitting in my living room, daughter and her family are here and one of my sons. The guys are watching football and drinking. I am not tempted to join in, but it is different not having the same mindset as them as when I have drank with them. They are not even asking me to drink or tempting me at all. They have seen me at my worst, and it's not pretty. It's strange, I just feel like going to bed early, much earlier than I used to, and that's good. I see that it's all up to me, I must protect myself. The thoughts of drinking are ever present, but I am thankful that the desire to be sober continue to prevail thus far. One day at a time. So, goodnight SR. Thank you all for your participation here, and all the help you have been to me. Happy Thanksgiving! Introspectator
they have seen me in action and they don't offer me drinks anymore.
Oh - you have reminded me of my old band days.
"Running With The Band"
When I was younger
played in the band
partied much very loud
oh for sure we were out of hand !
Not going to tell you
that I could play
so very good
just fell in with a band
that really could !
Played every rock song
ever written in a book
one little problem
strung out and hooked !
So much talent
turned out to be a shame
all that drinking and using
had spoiled the game !
Our drummer was hot
very cool and meek
back on the stuff
Lost 30 pounds in a week !
Lead guitar player
sounded like Jimi
strung out again
all you can give me !
We were heading down
the wide road
sure to end in hell
I was blessed to live
so as my story to tell !
Yes we were young
had no fear
life can be taken
with drugs and beer !
I was saved from all that
walking with God today
with all that I have gone through
he was with me
all the way !
Bob Bowling 03-21-06
Just checking back, everything went well with the gig and all. Nice performing with a sober mind, much better. Anyway, can't believe I am on day 15...all is well. Do I have thoughts of drink? Of course I'd do, but I have thoughts of how horrific my life is when I drink. Hope your Sunday is a sober one.
Introspectator
Introspectator
HI! Thats exactly what im doing, remembering the Horrific...and i dont want to pick up again. U are doing really good, having to be in a bar. but then U are a musician who plays there. I love Classic Rock and watching live shows! Keep Rockin'!
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