Originally Posted by Megster88

I went! I went! I went! I arrived a half an hour early, so i could find the place without being late. It was at a huge church with a million doors that ofcourse were all locked. I finally found a door that was open. I went in and i couldnt find the room. I went back outside to the parkinglot, looked at my car and almost gave up. I wanted to cry. I was getting so overwhelmed, then i went back inside on my search again. Still couldn't find it. The second time i came outside, there were women outside smoking �� they were waiting on the group. So i followed them inside. I actually sat in the circle, shaking and clamy hands of course. I introduced myself as an alcoholic and everything! I even read! I forgot how to read a few times because of my anxiety lol. I just kept thinking to myself, this is for.me, this is for my kids, idc if i look or sound like an idiot. Its so much easier with all women there, they were crying, and talking about their children, everything i hoped for!! Those poor women really inspired me. They joined AA when it was too late, so to speak. They already lost their children to the system, lost their drivers ********, are in half way houses. I. It showed.me what i have to look forward to if i continue on the path i was taking. Thank you all sooooooo much! Idk if anyone else has felt this, but after the meeting, i was so happy, i kind of felt drunk lol!!! It is like i was high on life. I squished my babies as soon as i walked in the door. Im definitely going back