Tetra

Some of you here know my story.
I have been sober on and off for long periods of time. My parents live in a very rural area and I work in the city during the week and I live with my Grandmother and three of my aunts until I can get a better paid job and I will look for a place of my own.

Two days ago I was informed that they are all going on holiday this Sunday for a week. To say I was surprised is an understatement. The last time I was left alone last summer was very hard for me and I went off the rails. I am reminded of that scene from Friends where Joey moves out of Chandlers place and says he was looking forward to being alone because he would have time to think. He said something like "it turns out that I don't have as many thoughts as you would think".

I said to my Grandmother "what will I do?" She said "mind your job, feed yourself properly, lock the door when you go to bed and don't lose your keys. Do you want me to cook some vegetables and leave them in the freezer for you?" Grandma thinks I'm going to starve!

I had a chat with my dad and my therapist. They feel I am ready for this and the fact that I am trusted again makes my heart sing! I will go to work every day, cook myself nutritious meals, exercise and read my books, meet my friends for coffee, check in on here...

The world is bright and I am ready for it. We all deserve a second chance.

saoutchik

Sounds good to me Tetra. I'm sure you'll be fine

IfYouCanDream

It's great being accountable again.

FreshPage8

Sounds like a great plan - keep positive and stick to the plan. Sounds like you have it all under control. Maybe youve taken comfort in having your family nearby but at the end of the day, the restraint has always and will continue to be yours. Stay strong! Keep it up.

CaseyW

Gaining the trust back of someone you love is an amazing feeling. Congratulations and keep us updated!

OnMyWay7

Have a plan and stick to it - you'll do great

Dee74

Enjoy the time Tetra

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ZaBoozer

Hey Tetra, sounds great. You will be fine. Enjoy the time out.

Marcher13

Everyone does deserve a second chance Tetra, I'm glad you are feeling good about their decisions.

But don't forget the person who really matters here is you. Looking after yourself, going to work, not drinking are all things you need to do for you not to prove yourself to anyone else.

This might be a good time -- the week they are away I mean -- to think about it how things are with you looking after yourself and being accountable only to yourself. Perhaps this is the summer to take a room in a share house and live on your terms? I think you're ready.

saoutchik

Hey Tetra, how are you doing?

hugsandcupcakes

Yes!!! Everyone gets a second chance! Some people even get more! Stay busy and realize that there are so many joys in life besides alcohol! Life doesn't have to be hard or bad, it can be good!! Make yourself a plan and a list of things you can do in case you get bored.

Tetra

I'm pretty good thanks.
I went for a walk, did some laundry and sweeping. Now I'm watching telly and having tea. Work tomorrow.

Anna

That sounds really good, Tetra. You're doing what needs to be done and hopefully enjoying your time to yourself.

Hawkeye13

Hooray for you Tetra--thanks for sharing your update and keep us posted

brynn

Oh tetra! How proud you must feel to be gaining back that trust from your family! I love it and hope you continue to enjoy your peaceful alone time!

Tetra

Ok now I'm a bit scared.
I went upstairs to take a shower and someone was knocking on the front door at almost 10pm at night.
It's not drinking I'm afraid of...It's a murderer.
So much for peaceful alone time...

brynn

If you're scared call a neighbor or a friend. You could even ask the police to drive by just for your own peace of mind.

Tetra

I don't know if they told anyone that they were going away. Perhaps a nosy neighbour saw me in the back yard
I'll have to stop reading scary books...

Dee74

I don't think bad people usually knock

Hope you're enjoying your time Tetra

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