What was the last straw?
There were many.
The last-last straw was having AXH threaten to kill me and the kids and then commit suicide.
That kinda did it for me.
Never looked back. Not for a second. Not for 1/100th of a second. Ever.
The last-last straw was having AXH threaten to kill me and the kids and then commit suicide.
That kinda did it for me.
Never looked back. Not for a second. Not for 1/100th of a second. Ever.
The last straw for me was that the abuse kept escalating until that evening he punched me in the face and I went stumbling down the stairs. Those were high steep stairs and I could have been killed that day. It was like a light bulb went up in my head and all the hopes for a future together I was clinging on left with that punch.
I pressed charges, took a restraining order and went permanent no contact.
I pressed charges, took a restraining order and went permanent no contact.
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The last straw for me was that the abuse kept escalating until that evening he punched me in the face and I went stumbling down the stairs. Those were high steep stairs and I could have been killed that day. It was like a light bulb went up in my head and all the hopes for a future together I was clinging on left with that punch.
I pressed charges, took a restraining order and went permanent no contact.
I pressed charges, took a restraining order and went permanent no contact.
when I've been through it myself I keep making excuses for why it's not so bad.
My thought process simply was, "It's really not _that_ bad. I'm just being over-sensitive," which, of course, is what he was always telling me. Even realizing that I was thinking about suicide didn't *really* make me realize how horrid what he was doing was.
Mine was more of an awakening - a realization that he was never going to change until he wanted to & that I had less than no control over that.
I had a horrible mental flash of what my DD was witnessing in MY behavior & how it was going to shape how she valued herself as an individual as well as in a marriage/partnership. I started to judge my words & actions in relation to her, what was she seeing? hearing? learning?
I did NOT like the thought that she could/would likely imitate my own dysfunction, just like I did with my mother before me (although in different ways, the core was the same).
Has anyone ever seen that old movie from the 90's called Labyrinth? It was a corny musical fantasy piece with David Bowie as the Goblin King & Jennifer Connelly as a young teen trying to rescue her brother from the King before he turns him into a goblin. She keeps getting transfixed with his charm & power & then finally the AHA moment when she wakes up & announces, "You have no POWER over me!" and the fantasy shatters like glass at her words, leaving her standing in her own living room. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=emebPH6ysRU
THAT'S how it felt to have that realization. It just crashed down around me & the fantasy melted away leaving me to really SEE my life.
I had a horrible mental flash of what my DD was witnessing in MY behavior & how it was going to shape how she valued herself as an individual as well as in a marriage/partnership. I started to judge my words & actions in relation to her, what was she seeing? hearing? learning?
I did NOT like the thought that she could/would likely imitate my own dysfunction, just like I did with my mother before me (although in different ways, the core was the same).
Has anyone ever seen that old movie from the 90's called Labyrinth? It was a corny musical fantasy piece with David Bowie as the Goblin King & Jennifer Connelly as a young teen trying to rescue her brother from the King before he turns him into a goblin. She keeps getting transfixed with his charm & power & then finally the AHA moment when she wakes up & announces, "You have no POWER over me!" and the fantasy shatters like glass at her words, leaving her standing in her own living room. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=emebPH6ysRU
THAT'S how it felt to have that realization. It just crashed down around me & the fantasy melted away leaving me to really SEE my life.
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