marie1960

you do believe you deserve better for yourself, tryingtolearn?

Change begins with you , friend.

Accepting responsibility for your own happiness and well being is a good place to start.

Sending you tons of support.

missboots

I remember that! Sounds exactly like behavior my husband would show when drunk, which towards the end was 24/7. The first I realized things were really bad was one day when he was driving us home and I was dreading going into our house. I thought about how I didn't really FEEL anything. No emotions or feelings other than a gloomy sort of foreboding. But it took about a year after that before I was out. And that stuck feeling, like you can't do even the simplest of chores, I shudder remembering that. It is SO hard getting out but the rewards are immediate and bigger every day. Just imagine peace and quiet, no walking on eggshells. Picture your life away from this abusive person and start making small steps. It is sooo worth the difficulty and there are so many here praying for you to get out and claim your life and freedom back.

maia1234

TTL- You sound so tired, just exhausted to live like that.

Honey, take care of yourself. Understand it will NEVER change, doing what you are doing.

I just read this from an A, 15 minutes ago and I will repost:

Fact....alcoholics don't want to change if there are no consequences.

Take care of yourself, this is no way to live!!