And...here comes the weekend.
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And...here comes the weekend.
Alright, my usual routine on a Friday is, after work, to go score some booze and then head to the dealer and score the mighty powder. Up all night cutting lines and washing it down with Bourbon to induce a passing out come down.
I've mentioned before that the justification is always, "Hey it's the weekend." I've always figured that the consequences are minimal, i.e. no job to worry about showing up for the next day. But then Sunday always rolls around and I still feel like I'm in a stupor and I wasted what should have been MY time to enjoy and be productive with chores, errands, hobbies, time with family and friends, etc.
I've got three days. I went to the gym last night and did a light workout, came home and read, and went to sleep early. I slept well and now I feel pretty good and alert. I really do NOT want to use this weekend. I want to keep the momentum going and try to accumulate more good clean time.
Wish me the best.
I've mentioned before that the justification is always, "Hey it's the weekend." I've always figured that the consequences are minimal, i.e. no job to worry about showing up for the next day. But then Sunday always rolls around and I still feel like I'm in a stupor and I wasted what should have been MY time to enjoy and be productive with chores, errands, hobbies, time with family and friends, etc.
I've got three days. I went to the gym last night and did a light workout, came home and read, and went to sleep early. I slept well and now I feel pretty good and alert. I really do NOT want to use this weekend. I want to keep the momentum going and try to accumulate more good clean time.
Wish me the best.
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Originally Posted by JoyDivision 
Alright, my usual routine on a Friday is, after work, to go score some booze and then head to the dealer and score the mighty powder. Up all night cutting lines and washing it down with Bourbon to induce a passing out come down.
I've mentioned before that the justification is always, "Hey it's the weekend." I've always figured that the consequences are minimal, i.e. no job to worry about showing up for the next day. But then Sunday always rolls around and I still feel like I'm in a stupor and I wasted what should have been MY time to enjoy and be productive with chores, errands, hobbies, time with family and friends, etc.
I've got three days. I went to the gym last night and did a light workout, came home and read, and went to sleep early. I slept well and now I feel pretty good and alert. I really do NOT want to use this weekend. I want to keep the momentum going and try to accumulate more good clean time.
Wish me the best.
I've mentioned before that the justification is always, "Hey it's the weekend." I've always figured that the consequences are minimal, i.e. no job to worry about showing up for the next day. But then Sunday always rolls around and I still feel like I'm in a stupor and I wasted what should have been MY time to enjoy and be productive with chores, errands, hobbies, time with family and friends, etc.
I've got three days. I went to the gym last night and did a light workout, came home and read, and went to sleep early. I slept well and now I feel pretty good and alert. I really do NOT want to use this weekend. I want to keep the momentum going and try to accumulate more good clean time.
Wish me the best.
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Originally Posted by JoyDivision
I've mentioned before that the justification is always, "Hey it's the weekend."
Addiction?
What's the reason you are here? To kick this addiction.
Good luck.
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I always use alone too. I'm not even sharing with someone. I just hole up in my house and get wasted. It makes no sense. By the end of the weekend I see all the purposely missed calls and ignored text messages from people with whom I could have probably spent some quality time. I look at the undone laundry, the cluttered house, the never started projects, the unread books, and then always start the week beating myself up over what a waste it all was. That's to say nothing about the money spent as well. So pointless.
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The weekends for me were always a free pass to get drunk and not have to worry about work. But like you said, it's pointless. Life unlived, all the missed opportunities. For what? My world closed in on me and it consisted of four walls and pain.
You can get through it. Check out the weekenders thread. This weekends topic is support and reaching out. Along with fun and lunacy. We are always there and I've made connections with people who have come to know me because I keep coming back.
You can get through it. Check out the weekenders thread. This weekends topic is support and reaching out. Along with fun and lunacy. We are always there and I've made connections with people who have come to know me because I keep coming back.
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Glad your here JD........weekender thread link
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...march-1-a.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...march-1-a.html
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Join Date: Jul 2014
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Yeah, Thursday and Friday are my "peak" times for caving in to my addiction. It's going to be tough. I don't have internet at home; maybe I should go to some coffee joint and mooch off of there wi fi so I can stay on the weekender thread.
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Originally Posted by JoyDivision
I've mentioned before that the justification is always, "Hey it's the weekend." I've always figured that the consequences are minimal, i.e. no job to worry about showing up for the next day.
I cant give you an answer as I have fallen on and off so many times but soon as you break the routine a few times it helps. For me it was getting to a point where I disassociated drinking with the 'justification'.
Good luck
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For me it was all about planning things out beforehand, leaving nothing to chance, activities, support, plenty of SR, change up routines/habits, make Sobriety happen no matter what!!
You can do this!!
You can do this!!
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