Snowbunting's Sobriety Journal
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Location: U.S.A.
Posts: 1,911
Good for you snowbunting!
I love that you are embracing this new chapter in your life as you turn 30. A lot of people place way too much emphasis on the number of years they have existed, when really all that number does is place you in a demographic. I believe that true age is a reflection of our attitude and how we take care of ourselves.
More power to you!
I love that you are embracing this new chapter in your life as you turn 30. A lot of people place way too much emphasis on the number of years they have existed, when really all that number does is place you in a demographic. I believe that true age is a reflection of our attitude and how we take care of ourselves.
More power to you!
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Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: Scotland
Posts: 379
So I'm 30 now, as of yesterday 
Some thoughts have been creeping in, not birthday related. I find myself, sometimes, wishing my life was worth less so that I could drink and not care. Or asking myself if anything around me has really changed since I stopped. Or telling myself that it really doesn't matter what I do.
I don't act on these thoughts, but I think about acting on them, I picture myself in the various stages of giving in and I feel my organs wince at the notion of drunkenness and hangover. I don't do it, but I do think about it. I think about it on days when my husband and I aren't communicating as well as usual and I decide that nobody cares.
Most days, luckily, I don't think about it at all though, other than to feel relieved that I haven't been drinking and can therefore concentrate and take an interest in the things around me and make plans.
I continue to watch some really excellent films. In the last week I've seen Submarine by Richard Ayoade.
Some thoughts have been creeping in, not birthday related. I find myself, sometimes, wishing my life was worth less so that I could drink and not care. Or asking myself if anything around me has really changed since I stopped. Or telling myself that it really doesn't matter what I do.
I don't act on these thoughts, but I think about acting on them, I picture myself in the various stages of giving in and I feel my organs wince at the notion of drunkenness and hangover. I don't do it, but I do think about it. I think about it on days when my husband and I aren't communicating as well as usual and I decide that nobody cares.
Most days, luckily, I don't think about it at all though, other than to feel relieved that I haven't been drinking and can therefore concentrate and take an interest in the things around me and make plans.
I continue to watch some really excellent films. In the last week I've seen Submarine by Richard Ayoade.
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Join Date: Oct 2013
Posts: 11,424
Happy Birthday snowbunting! 
How's the running?
I just rejoined my Crossfit gym to get in great shape for gardening myself.
Seed catalogs are like novels to me.
This year I'm trying fig and banana trees and will bring them in for winter,
so must have big muscles built by August. . .
How's the running?
I just rejoined my Crossfit gym to get in great shape for gardening myself.
Seed catalogs are like novels to me.
This year I'm trying fig and banana trees and will bring them in for winter,
so must have big muscles built by August. . .
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