Went to first AA meeting.....
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: South Carolina
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Went to first AA meeting.....
So, I went to my first meeting yesterday and let me say I was truly scared to death to walk through the door. But, once I was inside and was greeted by many people it was a whole lot easier. I have been rolling the whole concept over in my head after hearing some of the experience of others and of course part of me is saying well you are not that kind of drinker so do you really need to be there. Of course I need to be there since I question every time I drink and dwell on if I will drink or not. Just because I do not drink in the morning or everyday, by the time Wednesday or Thursday comes around I am instantly asking my self do I or don't I buy the wine, and once I do it is four days of buying wine. Sometimes it is only drinking one bottle not bad (ya right) but once the second bottle is opened a whole different person emerges and that is not what I want to see EVER again. So yes I do need to go to the meetings and grasp the reality of my situation so I can be free from this horrible disease. I will once again walk through the doors again today, I know it scares me still but that is a good thing right?:abcj
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Join Date: May 2004
Location: Salina, Ks
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It's a great thing whenever someone takes steps to better themselves.
I drank similarly to you so I get it. After a while, the fear will be gone. I feel weird when I don't go to meetings now. I never thought that would happen!
Welcome to SR! Glad you found us.
I drank similarly to you so I get it. After a while, the fear will be gone. I feel weird when I don't go to meetings now. I never thought that would happen!
Welcome to SR! Glad you found us.
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: northern michigan. not the U.P.
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whats greater: the fear of walkin through the doors or the fear of another drink?
get that same courage ya had when ya went to the 1st one.
whne ya get in there, i highly suggest at least getting a copy of the big book and reading the 1st 164 pages. we help each other stay sober and help others achieve sobriety. we love it when someone comes in wanting help.
alcoholism isnt about how much we drink/drank.
get that same courage ya had when ya went to the 1st one.
whne ya get in there, i highly suggest at least getting a copy of the big book and reading the 1st 164 pages. we help each other stay sober and help others achieve sobriety. we love it when someone comes in wanting help.
alcoholism isnt about how much we drink/drank.
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Join Date: Aug 2012
Location: Clinton, MT
Posts: 255
You did good.
When you attend meetings, try to listen for the similarities and not the differences. I've been to hundreds of meetings through the years and have never heard anyone describe their drinking patterns as matching mine. IOW...it really doesn't matter what you drank, when you drank, how much you drank, etc.
If, when you begin to drink...you lose control over a sane amount to drink......(and only you can answer that one to yourself) then you should probably go to a few more meetings and listen carefully.
All the best.
When you attend meetings, try to listen for the similarities and not the differences. I've been to hundreds of meetings through the years and have never heard anyone describe their drinking patterns as matching mine. IOW...it really doesn't matter what you drank, when you drank, how much you drank, etc.
If, when you begin to drink...you lose control over a sane amount to drink......(and only you can answer that one to yourself) then you should probably go to a few more meetings and listen carefully.
All the best.
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Join Date: Jun 2009
Posts: 1,129
I'm glad you are here. I felt exactly how you feel when I walked through that door. However, I started to feel better and thought that I was too young to be "an alcoholic". It took 20 more years getting beat down by alcohol for me to get back through the doors of AA and follow the simple directions of the program. Don't do what I did!!!
I would say read the Doctor's Opinion if you have a BB and call any numbers you may have gotten at that meeting! They really want to hear from you.
I would say read the Doctor's Opinion if you have a BB and call any numbers you may have gotten at that meeting! They really want to hear from you.
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Join Date: Apr 2009
Location: United Kingdom.
Posts: 3,007
Pleased to hear you are going back to another meeting.
They say if you keep going back you will hear someone with the same story as yourself.It happened to me when I was about 2years sober.
Look forward to hearing your progress.
They say if you keep going back you will hear someone with the same story as yourself.It happened to me when I was about 2years sober.
Look forward to hearing your progress.
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Join Date: Feb 2012
Location: Bridgeton
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You will find the medicine you need at the meetings. And with time, the meetings will be an important part of your recovery and the stepping stones to a better way of living. Wish you well & keep coming back!!
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Join Date: Dec 2011
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Thanks for your post. I am still trying to muster up the confidence to attend a meeting. To be honest, I know that I need to at least try a meeting and I know that I need the support but I'm scared to death. The more I avoid the meetings the more guilty I feel.
Well done!
Well done!
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Join Date: Aug 2012
Location: San Diego
Posts: 611
That's a big step for anyone. I cried through my first meeting and I was terrified. Over the years I've been to hundreds of meetings and the thing that worked for me was getting a sponsor and actually working the steps to the best of my ability. It isn't for everyone but it works for me. I feel a part of something bigger and better than the alcohol. I feel like I have friends and family there. I even relate to other women differently because of AA. Keep going back!
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