I am confused

[Aysha]

Ok heres my confusion. I have to say I am a little scared to post on this forum. I dont know what is proper and whats not. Or who will have a meltdown.
And please keep in mind this is only my opinion.

I am always confused when it comes to HP..and God..And all that stuff.

Ok. I believe in God. I believe the basics of it. He's there..I am blessed. Or I should be dead by now for sure. I do believe in a heaven and hell. I do believe theres more than just our earthly forms.

BUT..I dont pray much. I dont think it holds the power some people believe it does. The bible seems very contradicting to me. Either that or I am not reading it right.
I think you dont need to go to church to believe.
Religion scares me.

I believe whole heartedly in Karma. I have no idea what is is suppose to be or what the technicality of it is.
I just know what goes around comes around.
Pretty much...You get what you give.
No praying and believing in an unseen being to save you.
Its pretty clear cut. Keep your heart and your intentions good and all should be well.

I really dont know how to explain all of this without making this a drawn out thing.

I just dont know what I would classify myself as. Seeing how I believe there is a God but I dont belive in the whole obey him or be damned thing.

This is why I dont go to meetings. It makes it that much more confusing for me. Only because of me tho.

I have had many experiences with Karma to make me a 100% believer in that.

But then again its just common sense. Do good..good things happen. Do bad and of course bad things will happen.'

I just blew a fuse. Sorry for ramblin about nothing. But I ad to egt it out.

[ananda]

It's perfectly ok to post here C. Many of us stuggle with working the 12 steps without a traditional hp. And it works...sent you a pm too.

I have found that working the steps is a process that lead me to understand my version of an hP which is not a "god". I have found others who have helped me in sobriety on this thread and everyone does it different, but we do do it togehter (IMO).

Glad to see you here.:ghug

[Zencat]

I'm inclined to believe whatever healthy path you follow is good. A.A., no A.A., religion, no religion...whatever makes sense to you and helps is good with me too.