 Issues...
Someone from one of my classes came up to me about two weeks ago and said she needed help with something from one of her computer classes (Macromedia Flash to be specific), and I told her that we could meet up sometime. I was pretty happy about it because I've always thought this girl was very beautiful and have always wanted to get together with her. SO, I told her to meet me at a local coffee shop so that I could help her with her stuff.
Well, automatically from the get-go I was thinking that something was a bit off because girls this cute don't usually come to me for help. I mean, granted, geeky things like trying to place an XHTML element positioned relatively inside a nested ID'ed div, yes, but for relationship advice? NO. They just don't. Well, thats what it basically appeared to me as being because after I helped her with her computer issues, we spent almost a half hour to forty-five minutes talking about how her boyfriend cheated on her, how he told her, how she went off on him in the middle of a tavern, and how she's going to try and "work it out" with him now.
After that night of me giving her a therapy session, I went home and thought about things. I was happy I was able to help her by giving various suggestions on how to get on the right path with things (because she was slipping into a depression), and I was happy that I was able to make her feel better (if only for that night by giving her an ear to talk into). The thing I was saddened by though was that here is this girl that I had a small thing for, and once again, it's like I'm not meant to have anyone that is remotely attractive be more than an aquaintence with me.
I'm going to take the advice by someone that visits these forums and just try to go with the flow and possibly build up a friendship with this girl, but it's a truly hard thing to do for me because of her looks and because of my needs as a single male in college. I have caught myself looking at her away messages a couple times today on my AOL instant messanger and it makes me want to delete her off my buddy list because I don't want to feel weird, nor do I want to start some stupid infatuation that the other person isn't even aware of let alone open to. I mean, it isn't like I think about her all day or something, but it IS like I get tired of having gals come around me but never comming with me... See what I'm saying? I guess I'm okay with having this lady as my friend, but once again I simply find myself discouraged and frustrated due to the fact that thats all she is to me...
A friend.
I just want someone to wake up against, and someone to have long conversations with at night, and someone's hand to hold... I know thats un-goddly cheesy and whiny or whatever, but it's the truth, and I know for a fact that I'm not the only that feels this way about stuff like this.
I guess I was just trying to vent here more than receive feedback, but obviously if you think you have some age-old wisdom or simply want to say something, then don't let it hold you back because this kid can always use more IQ! HA!
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10-27-2005, 07:34 PM
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