live without it?

[utopia]

dear people,

ive gone from that place of obsessions and longing for love to now not really wanting it at all. im falling into my inner self and letting my hp guide me as i go. is this another disorder? lol or is this healthy? not greatly bothered either way, feel quite apathetic about love now and think a guy would have to quite remarkably strike a chord with me for me to even give him the time of day. why bother? i dont really care either way and am happy enough by myself. the thought of being alone forever doesnt scare me as it used to. rlsps help us learn and grow but what if im happy in my current state of ignorance and no rlsps? what feelings of security, appreciation and acknowledgement can i not get from God through my family and friends. why isnt it ok to have enough instead of wanting more more more! more money more love etc etc.
being grateful for what i can,, accept how i feel ieven if its shithouse but ask god to help me every step of the way, maybe i will change my view? how do we know whats unhealthy craving from childhood and whats the 'normal' human craving? i dont think anyone can control what they feel love for? i think im just ot used to feeling secure and beautiful and fine with myself without a lover to guide me thru it. sexual desire? human longing? i just dont think i care either way. god guide me, any thoughts?
toby :shysmile:

[Gooch]

im falling into my inner self and letting my hp guide me as i go.

Unfamiliar territory for our kind.

i dont really care either way and am happy enough by myself. the thought of being alone forever doesnt scare me as it used to.

Because when we have developed that relationship with a God of our understanding and maintain it we aren't alone anymore.

what feelings of security, appreciation and acknowledgement can i not get from God through my family and friends. why isnt it ok to have enough instead of wanting more more more! more money more love etc etc.
being grateful for what i can,, accept how i feel ieven if its shithouse but ask god to help me every step of the way, maybe i will change my view?

It becomes more and more natural feeling with practice.... more and more is revealed.

i think im just not used to feeling secure and beautiful and fine with myself without a lover to guide me thru it.

Exactly! we have to experience well being on our own.. total acceptance to get used to it.

Thanks for sharing this post... About 2 years ago I experienced a relationship that forced me to become comfortable with being alone, eliminating my "human cravings" I had some very similar musings, and there weren't too many who understood, including my sponsor.

Trust your higher power, if you have asked you will receive... be aware that it's a process and not an event. Patience with yourself will go a long way.