doing pretty good`

[Sally]

Hi there friends, I usually log on when Iam down in the dumps, but things are going pretty good right now,Althoug I have been fighting off a sickness, flu......what ever it is....it has a hold on me....
Been laying low, completing my tasks.....taking it one day at a time,.
Went and arranged to take co-dependency councelling agian so I can deal with my issues and discuss the possibilty of me reconciling......
I've been keeping my routine at home and the kids seem to be calmer...getting better. Although I find I'm flooded with neighbourhood kids...My middle son, alway's has to be on the go....and Iam exhausted.
It's hard work...but Iam doing it ......Iam thinking handle it as healthly as I can TODAY......Im taking care of myself, my health.....sleep , mental rest, and such...still haven't gone to Alanon.
I just need to find a time slot....and right now I feel that the best time spent is with my children, the've needed me at home.....for seccurity...stability....and I do feel Iam making progress. Time is our friend...that is time well spent.....



thanks for listening
God Bless
regards
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[Gabe]

Good for you Sally.
I enjoy the doing good posts most of all.
Glad to hear there is more light in your life these days.
Peace,
Gabe

[journeygal]

(((((Sally))))))

You sound good! It's good to hear from you. We like it when people check in with good news.

Hugs,
JG

[Sally]

Thanks very much for your replies, I have made some progress, and I still have my issues of course.
Today Iam feeling really lonely....I was talking to my A it's his Birthday.....and all went well, He finished his treatment and sounds great...But I feel kinda lonely today....I am not sure how to explain it.Because there have been Trust issues with my A I have emotionaly detached....and that's where the loneliness comes from I guess....I want to trust and be loved and all that warm fuzzy stuff, Iam just so tired of battling alone....I want so much to have that safe warm place to fall....and I wonder if I'll ever have it..in my A...will I ever mend...I know it is possible and only time will tell.....

[bikewench]

Sally....

I get that feeling of lonliness and sadness as well.

The thing is... I have a mate that I love/live with and a man I met online that I love... and I can still feel lonely.

It sorta feels like I want to be rescued... but of course... that is impossible... cause no one can rescue me from my life but my HP... and sometimes I CHOOSE to not lean on him/her, but look to a human to try to fill that emptyness.

And that quickly brings up a hopeless feeling....

Around and around I go... ; )

I hope your HP blesses you with acceptance of your circumstances... and helps you find a bit of loving time for yourself.

[Sally]

Dear Mountain girl
I've heard people say they can be in a room full of people and still feel alone or lonely.
I can identify the feeling, I've had it alot in my life, I just don't know the cure,.
Wish I did, I realize when we're co-dependant we look for someone to cling onto - to rescue us....but there is also a human need to be loved, touched, ext. and I'm not talking about sex. We all have a need for human contact,. They have even done studies on babie's who have no human bonding, contact ext. and it does have an affect. Could it not be as simple as just really being lonely for human companionship, comfort...ext.
we all know that when you live with an emotionaly unavailable person, we are also neglected in that way.....
could it not be that we ARE lonely....and it's a real LONELY a NORMAL lonely and we are just humane to feel that need .....that there isn't anything deeply and profoundly Wrong with us.....we just need to be loved...and feel loved.....Just my thoughts for today....
Confused.....but hey I feel better....Iam not crazy