New Sobriety, Small Relapse; Relationship Hurricane!

[Salander24]

Hey there everyone,
I'm new to SR and looking forward to this forum as assistance to my recovery. I tried to get sober three years ago, but a year and a half ago, I moved back to NY to take care of my mother. She was ill, so I wanted to be there to care for her, but I quickly realized she would not be recovering. The first six months I took care of her at home, and the last five months and change, I was at the hospital nearly constantly; I mean, everyday, for at least six hours.
Until then, I'd managed to drink only once in a while, but those last five months were hell and I medicated with alcohol to "help" me through. I was still there for her & dealing with everything, but even I knew I was making the wrong choice by drinking. During that year, I somehow became reaquainted with someone I'd previously dated and we struck up a relationship. When my mother passed away in March, I was devastated, though I still had to handle her personal matters, etc. He was there for me in a way I can't describe and was amazing support. I tried to get my drinking "under control" but had a series of bad relapses. Now, we are back in California, I'm piecing my life together, but I had a "small" relapes three days ago.. I accept my responsibility and am doing everything in my power, including higher power, to stay sober, but the relapes did damage to my relationship and he, understandably, is skeptical as to if I can remain sober. The trust was damaged. I could really use a little advise, support, words of wisdom from those that can help? -Thank You.

[wow04]

I know for me, in the beginning, I went to a meeting every day and called my sponser daily. I also had to get active in the program. It was hard at first but I was tired of living the addict life. I had to do it for me and no one else. I think getting with a sponser and working the steps is the best thing you can do.