Owie ...

[barb dwyer]

... I have no news, really.
Just woke up with a goodly amount of pain today.



So I only did things that NEEDED doing...
and took it easy with my nose in a book.

When I left work Sunday morning ...
my ankles looked like they were broken.
I did 'the old lady walk' from the car to the apartment
looked like bad theatre or something.

I'm giving notice there.
That job is making matters much worse.
It feels like the right thing to do.
I felt better in my heart the moment I decided to do it.

Anyone ever done the 'vocational rehab'
thing because of their pain yet?

I think that's the path I'm heading toward.

Hope you all are well (all things sonsidered)
you're in my prayers -

barb

[Anna]

I'm glad you feel good about your decision.

I did the vocational rehab thing. I had to make a decision to go from full-time work to part-time work. I felt really bad at the time, like I was giving up, like I needed to try harder. It was really hard to accept that I couldn't do what most people take for granted. It was the best decision I could have made and I know I am truly blessed to be able to work part-time. It's made a huge difference in the quality of my life.

[scaredykat]

I hope you feel better soon Barb.

For me I did go from Full time to Part time work. Then in 2002 my Doctor didn't want me doing my kind of work at all where it's very repetitious work. He said it would make my condition worse. When I first stopped working I felt so sorry for myself and that's when my drinking really took off. Then i tried for SS Disability with no luck. Now I'm not working at all and just go to AA. It still sucks that I can't work anymore but I'm grateful I'm not drinking over it any more.

Barb

[lizw]

I think this is something I still have a lot of grief about.

When I got sick (18mnths ago) I'd just started running my own business doing something I loved and had learnt to do in recovery. While I still do some of this kinda work, it's only on a casual basis, and from time to time I see or hear adds on the radio/in newspapers in this field and I get upset. I just assumed that was where I'd end up - not sick and at home.

But I am lucky in the sense that I have a part time job (in sales) that is felxible, no pressure and I can pretty much please myself, and I work from home. The guy I work for is pretty good and knows my situation. I do have days where I think if I had to go out to work, I wouldn't be able to make it. And sometimes I just enjoy working because I forget about myself for awhile.

[jazpoppy]

Barb;

I know exactly how you feel with the ankle problems! I have achilles tendonitis in BOTH ankles, and I broke my right ankle so I have arthritis because it was never set right. Also broke my left knee-cap and have back and neck problems. But I have awoken with swollen ankles and puffy feet and had to do the old woman shuffle to the bathroom only to end up spending the day with my feet up on ice. Also had to leave my job do to pain, it required walking around all day, and I'd go home hardly able to move, it wasn't worth it anymore! I wish you luck. I'm going to do the part-time work from home thing. I have an interview tomorrow for a stay-at-home job, I REALLY hope to get it! Hope you feel better soon!

Jaz

[barb dwyer]

thanks {{{{everyone}}}}

I actually tried to work out a budget today -
what's to budget with nothing coming in???

duh.

snow.
it snowed here today.
can you believe it?

no WONDER everything ... hurts.

trust right? this is that trust stuff.

[barb dwyer]

Ok tonight is the big night -
I'm giving notice.

Saturday night will be my last night here for a good ten weeks.
I'm taking a emergency medical leave.

So it's a big step for someone who is also a work freak but it has to be done.

We're supposed to have all this paperwork for them and I say no more.
No more pain.
no more stress.
No more harassment.
No more.

Asking for prrayers.

thanks

barb.

[Dee74]

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