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[roa]

Well I did it...I bought a pack and smoked two cigarettes. You don't have to kick me in the butt, I'm already doing it.

I think one of the problems is that I don't think of myself as a nonsmoker....I think of myself as a smoker that is not smoking...or at least, wasn't.

Will I finish the pack? Probably. I don't know.

Roa

[Webbiecat]

Time to change those perceptions of yourself from a smoker to a non-smoker! I know it's hard, but you can do it!! Don't beat yourself up too badly, it's just a slip.

[rider]

roa, seems you lost the battle on this one, but not the war!!!!

i too think of myself as a smoker who is not smoking. it's only seven days for me, and i do try to banish those thoughts from my head. staying positive is hard when i want to smoke. but i spent so much money on lozenges that i have none left for butts!

like webbiecat said, don't beat yourself up.

linda

[roa]

Thanks to both of you for your words of encouragement. There was no reason to buy the cigarettes....I wasn't especially craving one...I just did it.

[bikewench]

I refuse to define myself by a word.. or have it define my future.. especially one where I see myself hooked up to an oxygen tank.. ;o)


Yes...
tommorrow is another day...
and there is another day after that..
and another...


and a year from now...

and another year from then...



And.. from where I sit today.. one day at a time... I have a good feeling when I look forward.

Cause I know I'm not killing myself anymore one fag at a time.


So.. for me.. it's not about whether I call myself a smoker or not.
It's about whether I'm workin towards the living..
or workin towards the dying.

For me .. there is no sugarcoating.

[indigo]

Start over girlfriend I know just where you are coming from, keep that demon dragster at bay!!!!

hugs Annie

[CAPTAINZING2000]

I'd go thru fire and brimstone for a pack while smoking. If, I'd bought a pack, I'd be smoking it.

I'm not smoking because, I hate to have chains on me today. I hate not being in control.

I didn't quit because of the health concerns as the price. Paying money to suck smoke down my lungs never has seemed to be a good way to invest my hard earned money.

If, you didn't see the thread I'd started according to, it's got the quit dates by the Farmers Almanac. I firmly believe in that.

You have to want to quit though

[roa]

Thanks to all of you for your words of wisdom. Haven't smoked since yesterday.

Roa

[historyteach]

(((Roa)))
I'm sorry I missed this...I was at school, and had no way to get onto the puter.

Now, stop kicking self immediately. It serves no useful purpose. OK?

You had a slip. I can't even begin to tell you how much I want one today, after two miserable days at work. But, I won't. You know why? I'm focused on what I'm giving to myself with my quit.

Roa, what are you giving to yourself with your quit? Can you answer that question in the positive? Honestly?

Come back to the quitters, Roa; you don't have to relapse just because you had a slip. We're all here for you. And remember....
POST BEFORE YOU PUFF!!!

Be well, Roa; you deserve this quit...

Shalom!

[CAPTAINZING2000]

I'm not smoking cause I don't want you all to think I'm a loser. I know, I can stop as long as everyone else on here isn't smoking.

[historyteach]

Chris;
We quitters are never losers --
-- until we stop trying.
I firmly believe that with all my heart and soul!

Shalom!

[Wolfstarr]

Hi ((((Roa))))

Hey, I haven't touched a ciggie in 6 years and I still consider myself a smoker who doesn't smoke. I have never been a non-smoker except for when I was a young kid.
I started at 14.
It happens! I have stopped and started many times. Quit kicking yourself in the butt and congrats for putting 'em down again.

You all inspire me...and you have my utmost respect and support,
Hugs,

[CAPTAINZING2000]

Yeah,

the enticement of looking cool with a smoke. dangling out of our mouths as a teenager

yeah how cool is that????

[roa]

Thanks again to all for the words of encouragement and the hugs were nice too. Okay I stopped kicking myself and am back to nonsmoking! I am a quitter...I am!

Quitting quiets my breathing so the noise doesn't keep me awake anymore.

Quitting saves me bunches of money, I couldn't afford to spend.

Quitting saves me time. The days are longer and less rushed.

Quitting gives me more energy.

Roa

Hey, does "quitting" have two "t"s...it doesn't look right - oh well.

[historyteach]

Glad to hear it, Roa!!!
Look all those great things you're giving to YOU!!!
And you deserve the sleep, the money, the time, the energy, cuz, you are worth it!!!
Keep up the good work. Just for today, you can go without a cigarette....
And I'll join ya!

Shalom!

[roa]

Thanks for the company! Yup, today I can go without a cigarette and I DO deserve to feel better, to have more money and time, too. I AM worth it!

[historyteach]

Ahh, I always liked a positive self image.
It's so dang ... contageous!!!
Ya just helped me Roa. I smiled so big when I just read your post!
Thanks, right back at ya!

Shalom!

[CAPTAINZING2000]

I left the meeting tonight. Everyone was standing outside a smoking. I just smiled and told them it was 22 days for me today. Told everyone see you later and left. There will come a time that smoke will smell bad to me. Right now, it still smells good

[roa]

You doing good, Chris. Even though the smoke smelled good...you didn't tackle anyone and take their cigarette.

I'm back on track, again. Feeling quite positive, hopeful and smokefree.

Roa

[historyteach]

Good to see that you're back on track, Roa!

Oh, Chris, I don't know if I posted this or not, but, while I was in FL, my sister took me to the one bar that is openly fighting the no smoking rule! Oh, man, was it tough! At one point, I took a HUGE inhallation! I wanted one sooo bad...
Smoke cessation counselor said she subconsciosly wanted me to go back to smoking, (although she said she supported me), because it caused HER discomfort when I quit. Our roles were changed. I wasn't a smoking buddy anymore. That created tension in her, so, she set me up to fail.
But, I didn't!

Shalom!

[roa]

What the heck.....she wanted you to fail so she'd have a smoking buddy? Well, I'm glad, for more reasons than one, that you didn't fail!!!!! So there. lol


Roa

[historyteach]

Well, it's all subconscious. And it has to do with our relational roles.
I changed all that with my quit. That creates a tension.
She didn't knowingly set me up to fail; it was below the conscious level and it was to retain what she views as a positive relationship - one without change.
We know that's impossible, but, our subconscious isn't logical,

And if I told her this, she would argue adamently against the idea. She really wants to support me consciously. That reminds me of a saying I heard somewhere...
The mind is a dangerous place to be. Don't go there alone...

And thanks; I'm really glad that you're glad I didn't fail!!!

Shalom!

[roa]

''The mind is a dangerous place to be. Don't go there alone... "





Roa

[historyteach]

I think my counselor would agree with that statement -- at least as far as I'm concerned, lol!

Shalom!