December 27

[angelgirl]

Hi everyone,,

Well, my quit day is the 27th.. I am praying I can do this. I think I am going to need a good kick in the butt,,. I am SO stupid. Not being able to breath should be a big enough kick, shouldn't it..??? I guess I just don't look forward to it.. Yet, sometimes I do.

The other night, I went to bed, I had the most scariest experience of my whole life. I literally could not breathe.. I don't even know if I am spelling it right, will some one please correct me?? I laid in bed, and prayed, I couldn't breathe. My drug and alcohol counselor thinks it my stress that is making me not be able to breathe, but I don't. I know it's my smoking. Stress isn't making me cough up all that crap?? I have coughed up stuff before, but never this much.. Sorry to be so gross, but, I am a bit frightened about it, and i figured that most smokers do cough that up, don't they?

Well, I love you all, and I pray you are all doing well.. I will definitely need a boost..

I called my Wisconsin stop smoking line,. They will just be there for a help line from like 9am -11pm I think it is.. They won;t give me anything, or offer me any assistance, or any classes. But that's ok I guess, I went through classes in treatment a few years ago. I just wish I would have wanted to stop smoking then. I didn't.. I was forced to go..

Gosh, I am sorry, I feel so negative right now, and I am sure it is sounding like that here..

I hope you are all doing well!!
Smelling like roses?? I bet is feels good to smell better, like roses, or perfume, instead of an ashtray, LOL..

Love you all,
Becky

[historyteach]

Becky;
Congratulations on making the commitment to quit on the 27th!
That's a HUGE first step!!!
And boy, do I get you about coughing and not being able to breath. But, be assured, stress can cause that too. When I get panic attacks, which I've been having for the past three days, I feel like someone's strangeling me. It's very hard to breath, then.
Oh, and I remember, coughing; being so sick; strep throat, bronchitis....you name it....and I'd still be puffin away....
Sick puppy, I am. Addict, no way around it.
I'm sorry you're not getting the benefits I'm getting. It's up to the states how they spend the money from the lawsuits. And I'm learning exactly how shameful some of our state politicians are. grrrr....

Anyway, we'll be here for you on the 27...cheering you on. I'm so grateful for all the support I've been given by so many. It's helped me make it through more than once. So, have a wonderful holiday, and know that you CAN do this.

Shalom!

[angelgirl]

Well it came and went, and I am still smoking.. But,, I don't feel defeated..

I just have to pick a new date..

I pick next Tuesday.. I am waiting until my kids go back to school.. They are on break now.. They are fighting, and driving me crazy.. I will not make it 4 hours liek this, let alone a whole day.. So,, I have just choosen a new day.. I am praying that I can do this.. Please,, if you pray,, could you please add me to your prayers.. I am really havingtrouble breathing..

Thank you so much.
Love ya all,
Becky