Slipped

[historyteach]

Well, yesterday, I smoked a pack.
Yep, I slipped. I consider it a slip, not a relapse. I stopped again today. Funny, it's harder today as a result. Must be psychosumatic.
So, what happened? Well, first, I was very rushed for the last day of school. I forgot to put on my patch. Lots of emotion with the last day. I always have a bit of "seperation anxiety" on the last day. And these kids I have had for two years, so, I knnew them better than usual!
Then, new stuff with son - not drastic, he is still clean, (one day did cocaine, ), but, he isn't keeping up with the few bills he has. Met with ex - nuf said there. He was smoking in front of me. I held off for a while. Then, I asked him for one. He gave me the pack. I smoked it.
So, what really happened. Stinkin thinkin. Anxiety. Anger. Emotion and saying to myself - "I don't care!"
Result was :smoker:
Went on a chat at a non smoking site last night - quitnet.com. (Can't chat here - get frozen.) They helped.
So, I quit again today. Like I said, I am looking at it as a slip - not a relapse. I have been down this road before. In the past, if I had one, I would convince myself that I just couldn't quit. And would be right back to two packs a day again. I am not doing that to myself again.
I slipped. I picked myself up again. I won't beat myself up over a slip.
I am learning to be an unsmoker.
How is everyone else doing?
Shalom!

[The Jay Walker]

HT

you got it, just start again, so far things are going well with me, I am switching jobs on monday, I'm sure that will be somewhat stressfull, but I'l try to just take it one craving at a time.

[waywardsister]

Hey teach! You're right, it was a slip and you can recover. You know why it happened, and that's a big part of sucess.

No worries!

I fear I may slip this weekend. I'm spending it with my sister, and she smokes. I have my patches, and hopefully I'll have my willpower too!!!

[historyteach]

Jay;
Thanks for the support.
Switching jobs can be stressful. And stress is always a trigger for me. Even if it is a good switch in jobs, it is stressful. Are you happy about the switch? (I hope so! )
Deep breathing is helpful for me. Also, some meditation. Like Ann, I like to garden too. It keeps me physically and mentally active, so I don't think about it as much.
Wishing you loads of luck in your new job and your new, healthy lifestyle.
Shalom!

[waywardsister]

I smoked on the weekend. Not a full one, but drags here and there of my sister's. Today, I took drags from friends. I don't know how not to do that. I am feeling disappointed in myself but still, I'm trying as best I can.

Jay, how did the job switch go?

[historyteach]

Yea, Jay;
Do you like your new job? What are you doing?
Still using the inhalor? How's the quit doing?
Sister, I may be going out on a limb here, but, I think, for now, you need to stay away from slippery people, places and things. You cannot take a drag if you're not around someone who is smoking, right? Can you enlist their support - ask them not to smoke in front of you? Or stay away temporarily?
I know, I love my cuz's wife; we are great friends. But, she smokes like a chiminey. I am staying away for the time being. But, if I were to be around her now, it would only be a matter of time before I picked up again. And I don't want to.
Just a thought.
But, I hope you both keep the quit!
Shalom!