Day zero

[JasonD207]

Today is my last day smoking that insidious weed full of thousands of toxic chemicals.

I've been struggling lately with following through with my quit attempts, but this is it.

My Grandfather succumbed to lung cancer at this beginning of this year. I had told him on Christmas that I was 23 days smoke free, and I was. He was so proud of me. That quit attempt ultimately ended on day 49... a couple weeks after he passed away.

I have struggled with an intense feeling of guilt ever since then. I started again to address my drinking problem. The stress of not smoking and starting AA was too much for me to bear, and I chose to address my drinking. I started smoking again, and stopped drinking.

Today I am 30 days sober, and it is my Grandfathers birthday. In an effort to restore my Grandfathers pride, I'm not smoking after today. I won't let it get in the way of my sobriety, that's my biggest focus right now. But I am going to put forth as much as I can to break the chains of nicotine addiction alongside staying sober.

I can do both, 24 hours at a time, or shorter if I need to.

[neferkamichael]

So sorry for the lose of your grandfather. My brother passed away October 14th last year of lung cancer too, he was only 56, I'm 57. Thanks for the thread, I have got to give them up to.

[JasonD207]

I relapsed today. I bought a pack while at work today, and smoked like a chimney.

I smoked for a total of 3 hours, feel physically ill, and have reset my quit clock. I'm not proud of it, and I have no excuse.

One weak moment, at a time when I could easily go to the store, and almost 2 days of nicotine withdrawal went out the window.

I've restarted though. Hopefully I'll have learnt whatever is necessary this time to make it stick.

[MaggieMay276]

Originally Posted by neferkamichael

So sorry for the lose of your grandfather. My brother passed away October 14th last year of lung cancer too, he was only 56, I'm 57. Thanks for the thread, I have got to give them up to.

Hi. I am also over 50 and wonder how much damage I have already done. I do not know about where you are but in Australia, cigarettes are VERY expensive. I am planning on putting my cigarette money into a seperate account to inspire myself and, later, reward myself.

[JesseJe]

Hey Jason as long as you keep trying you never fail. Don't let a relapse stop you, don't let anything stop you. Realize this is one of the most important things you will do in your life and that you are strong enough to do it. Always tell yourself this.

Start another habit in it's place. For me yoga did it. It's the thing I go to that keeps me sober and smoke free. I wouldn't want to drink or smoke and have those disgusting things get in the way of how incredible and amazing I feel after and during a yoga class.

Try something like that. Also, diet has a GIGANTIC influence on how much you will crave cigarettes and alcohol. If you focus on eating really really healthy food I swear giving up things that poison your body will be easier.

Best of luck