I am so close to smoking - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Aysha · 04-09-2009, 02:04 PM

I am FIIIIIIEEEENDING!!!!
I had the worst morning ever. I didnt put my patch on until just now cause I had a CT scan and IOP today. I was starving all day. Woke up to screaming and barking. Couldnt have coffee. Didnt get home until about 3.
I just put the patch on. I am hoping this craving will pass. I just want one. Just ONE!!!!

suki44883 · 04-09-2009, 02:08 PM

No.

**Astro** · 04-09-2009, 02:16 PM

This may be true or not for you, but most cravings pass within 3-5 minutes. Do your best to ride them out.

And I have to agree with Suki. No.

Congrats on your new job. You won't show up smelling like an ashtray

Aysha · 04-09-2009, 02:49 PM

This craving has been lasting all day. I think the patch is kicking in. Cause the pit of my stomach isnt craving anymore. Its just my mind so it is calming. And I just tore up a dum dum..Stick and all..LOL
I didnt eat the stick..just chewed the hell out of it.

SelfSeeking · 04-09-2009, 03:14 PM

Don't do it. I smoked a single cigarette last night after a few smokeless days and the sore throat that was on its way out? Now it's an official sore throat sickness. Owie. Keep it up with the dumdums.

***greeteachday*** · 04-09-2009, 07:37 PM

You can get past this...Don't cave now!! Rip open another dumdum...What's your favorite flavor ?

Aysha · 04-09-2009, 09:03 PM

I made it!!!

Dime · 04-09-2009, 09:25 PM

That's fantastic Chi,
Great day for you. Good luck with the job!

KOOKS · 04-09-2009, 11:53 PM

So glad to hear you made it through chiy, good luck in your new job.

Saxony · 04-10-2009, 01:53 AM

Glad you made it through Chi.

We just have to remember all cravings pass as long as we don't smoke, although I know it is hard to believe that at the time.

Kat67 · 04-10-2009, 08:38 AM

Hey Chiynita, I really want to try to stop smoking but I'm scared of the with drawls.
I'm going to talk to my doctor today about the patch but I thought I would come on here and ask you how you like the patch? Dose it help with cravings etc...

**Astro** · 04-10-2009, 10:04 AM

I know this isn't the most inspiring and positive thing to say, but I've gotta be honest, even after 4+ years I still have an occasional craving or urge.

I was vacuuming and dusting the showroom this morning, came in early to do that since we had to lay off our cleaning crew a few months ago. So I'm pushing the vacuum around and this strong craving comes out of nowhere....wouldn't it be nice to have a big dip of Copenhagen snuff in my cheek right now......yyyuuummmmm.

A few minutes passed and the thought totally left my mind. And thinking back on it, that would've tasted really nasty.

My Dad quit smoking almost 50 years ago, and says he still has cravings. Freaky.

KOOKS · 04-10-2009, 11:10 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Astro

I know this isn't the most inspiring and positive thing to say, but I've gotta be honest, even after 4+ years I still have an occasional craving or urge.

I was vacuuming and dusting the showroom this morning, came in early to do that since we had to lay off our cleaning crew a few months ago. So I'm pushing the vacuum around and this strong craving comes out of nowhere....wouldn't it be nice to have a big dip of Copenhagen snuff in my cheek right now......yyyuuummmmm.

A few minutes passed and the thought totally left my mind. And thinking back on it, that would've tasted really nasty.

My Dad quit smoking almost 50 years ago, and says he still has cravings. Freaky.

Better to have the odd craving which is only a feeling than a constant cough, inability to breathe properly, pains in limbs, stink to high heavens and the risk of lung cancer, heart disease and other life threatening illnesses.

**Impurrfect** · 04-10-2009, 11:31 AM

((Kat)) - I'm not ((Trish)), but I'm using the patch and it's help me a lot...about to put one on for the 7th day. I tried to cold turkey, last time, and was really, really irritable. Of course, that time, I also quit only to save money, too...heart just wasn't in it.

I did notice, the other day, when I was away from home, it was time for a new patch and I didn't have one, I got a bit irritable. All was fine when I got home and put on a new patch...could be the patch, could be my mind telling me that..who knows? I just know it has helped me a lot. I got the generic ones from walmart...have to tape them on, as they don't stick as well, but they only cost $16...way cheaper than the cigs.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

SeekSobriety · 04-13-2009, 02:29 PM

Congratulations Chiynita! You took positive action by posting to this board FIRST! ! ! ! ! I am so glad you made it through without picking up a cigarette.

MrsMagoo · 04-13-2009, 02:42 PM

Good job Trish (and Amy)!!! I've tried. I'm still taking the Chantix and I'm WAY down but still smoking. I wish they would make me gag or something. Trish, don't smoke even one. If I would get up in the morning and not smoke one, I think I could go all day but that one in the morning....kinda wakes up the need. I might try not smoking one before I go to bed. I'm down to about 5 a day. Between my husband and I, we are smoking (combined), just under one pack a day. That's way down as he was at least a 2 pack a day guy and I was at a pack a day, maybe more on bad days. I don't know why I'm so scared. I guess I'm scared of failing.

MrsMagoo · 04-13-2009, 02:43 PM

How did the new job go?

Aysha · 04-13-2009, 02:45 PM

New job is good.
Thx for asking.

Aysha · 04-15-2009, 03:14 PM

I have been wanting a cig all day today.
Day off. Tired as hell. Didnt do what I had to do today. Gram is sick. I think I am getting it too.
Arguing with the gram over her bitchin at me all the time for things she should be telling my cousin..not me.
og is driving me crazy and pissing me off with the crapping in the house and pulling the cat crap out of the box. I dont want to give her away. But I am this close. I cant handle it anymore. She chewed through her leash.
I have to go to court tonight and ask for an extension on ym ticket. My license is going to be suspended after today anyway from a DMV fine I cant pay.
My satellite was shut off yesterday. Who knows how long before internet and phone go down. I have to have my car insurance post marked by Fri or I am losing that too. I dont have enough for that.
I want a dam cigarette.
But through all that whining and bitchin..I still havent brought myself to go get one.
Just one is all I want. And I havent even tried to get it.
I guess I am going to want all I want..But I am not going to get it.
Ok..End rant.

Dime · 04-15-2009, 04:01 PM

Your Awesome Chiynita
I laughed when I read your post because I thought about my experiences with visiting pets/cat boxes and dog poop. It was so bad I didn't dare walk bare foot in the house, especially when it was dark.

I just scrambled money to pay my car insurance before it was canceled today and figured out how to pay a month at a time. My satellite TV has been gone for 9 months and the free digital converter boxes are just fine. It don't have any tickets though and I guess I will drive careful.

I guess I will drive extra careful because I don't want to add the "talking to the judge" thing to my list right now.

But you know what, we are sober, we don't smoke and we will be fine! We're just being qualified for a very important position that our higher power has planned for us. Such a training program, I can't wait for my promotion!!

**Astro** · 04-15-2009, 04:15 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by chiynita

I want a dam cigarette.

No.

Quote:

Originally Posted by chiynita

But through all that whining and bitchin..I still havent brought myself to go get one.

Good job!

Quote:

Originally Posted by chiynita

Just one is all I want. And I havent even tried to get it. I guess I am going to want all I want..But I am not going to get it.
Ok..End rant.

Ya done now?

Dime's right, you are awesome, and funny too!

CoDieNOmore · 04-15-2009, 04:44 PM

I hear ya Chiynita!!! It seems I have way to much crap going on too... One thing that helps me feel good about myself is the fact that when the sh_t hits the fan I still DON"T smoke...
You Go Girl!!!

historyteach · 04-15-2009, 06:06 PM

Oh, man...
Do I feel JUST LIKE YOU!!!

Shalom!

scaredykat · 04-16-2009, 08:50 AM

i hope your feeling better today chiynita. You defiently don't want to smoke again. I forget how many days you are. Your ahead of my husband by a few days. He's day 9 today.

I wish I never started smoking when i was a kid. But it is what it is. In a few days I'll be joining the smoke-free gang when i start week 2 of my chantix.

Take care.

KOOKS · 04-16-2009, 09:10 AM

Chynita you are an inspiration.....thank you.

04-09-2009, 02:04 PM	#1 (permalink)
Aysha Looking For Myself...Sober Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Where the heart is Posts: 10,087 Blog Entries: 26	I am so close to smoking I am FIIIIIIEEEENDING!!!! I had the worst morning ever. I didnt put my patch on until just now cause I had a CT scan and IOP today. I was starving all day. Woke up to screaming and barking. Couldnt have coffee. Didnt get home until about 3. I just put the patch on. I am hoping this craving will pass. I just want one. Just ONE!!!! __________________ Dont just count your days...Make your days count! It may not get easier, But it will get better.

04-09-2009, 02:08 PM	#2 (permalink)
suki44883 Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Somewhere Out There Posts: 9,097	No. __________________ We call them dumb animals, and so they are, for they cannot tell us how they feel, but they do not suffer less because they have no words. - Anna Sewell - So oftentimes it happens that we live our lives in chains and we never even know we have the key. - The Eagles

04-09-2009, 02:16 PM	#3 (permalink)
Astro Forum Leader Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Scottsdale, AZ, one big happy dysfunctional family! Posts: 11,835	This may be true or not for you, but most cravings pass within 3-5 minutes. Do your best to ride them out. And I have to agree with Suki. No. Congrats on your new job. You won't show up smelling like an ashtray __________________ "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty, and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming---WOW-What a ride!"

04-09-2009, 02:49 PM	#4 (permalink)
Aysha Looking For Myself...Sober Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Where the heart is Posts: 10,087 Blog Entries: 26	This craving has been lasting all day. I think the patch is kicking in. Cause the pit of my stomach isnt craving anymore. Its just my mind so it is calming. And I just tore up a dum dum..Stick and all..LOL I didnt eat the stick..just chewed the hell out of it. __________________ Dont just count your days...Make your days count! It may not get easier, But it will get better.

04-09-2009, 07:37 PM	#6 (permalink)
*greeteachday* Just Me Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: a better place Posts: 3,850	You can get past this...Don't cave now!! Rip open another dumdum...What's your favorite flavor ? __________________ Sometimes your only available transportation is a leap of faith - Margaret Shepherd

04-09-2009, 03:14 PM	#5 (permalink)
SelfSeeking Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: Northeast US Posts: 1,341 Blog Entries: 2	Don't do it. I smoked a single cigarette last night after a few smokeless days and the sore throat that was on its way out? Now it's an official sore throat sickness. Owie. Keep it up with the dumdums.

04-09-2009, 09:03 PM	#7 (permalink)
Aysha Looking For Myself...Sober Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Where the heart is Posts: 10,087 Blog Entries: 26	I made it!!! __________________ Dont just count your days...Make your days count! It may not get easier, But it will get better.

04-09-2009, 09:25 PM	#8 (permalink)
Dime Member Join Date: Mar 2009 Posts: 1,117	That's fantastic Chi, Great day for you. Good luck with the job!

04-09-2009, 11:53 PM	#9 (permalink)
KOOKS Member Join Date: Mar 2009 Location: scotland uk Posts: 290	So glad to hear you made it through chiy, good luck in your new job.

04-10-2009, 01:53 AM	#10 (permalink)
Saxony Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: England Posts: 545	Glad you made it through Chi. We just have to remember all cravings pass as long as we don't smoke, although I know it is hard to believe that at the time.

04-10-2009, 08:38 AM	#11 (permalink)
Kat67 Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Ottawa Posts: 96	Hey Chiynita, I really want to try to stop smoking but I'm scared of the with drawls. I'm going to talk to my doctor today about the patch but I thought I would come on here and ask you how you like the patch? Dose it help with cravings etc... __________________ :praying for a brighter future

04-10-2009, 10:04 AM	#12 (permalink)
Astro Forum Leader Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Scottsdale, AZ, one big happy dysfunctional family! Posts: 11,835	I know this isn't the most inspiring and positive thing to say, but I've gotta be honest, even after 4+ years I still have an occasional craving or urge. I was vacuuming and dusting the showroom this morning, came in early to do that since we had to lay off our cleaning crew a few months ago. So I'm pushing the vacuum around and this strong craving comes out of nowhere....wouldn't it be nice to have a big dip of Copenhagen snuff in my cheek right now......yyyuuummmmm. A few minutes passed and the thought totally left my mind. And thinking back on it, that would've tasted really nasty. My Dad quit smoking almost 50 years ago, and says he still has cravings. Freaky. __________________ "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty, and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming---WOW-What a ride!"

04-10-2009, 11:31 AM	#14 (permalink)
Impurrfect Social Network Moderator Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Atlanta Posts: 18,262	((Kat)) - I'm not ((Trish)), but I'm using the patch and it's help me a lot...about to put one on for the 7th day. I tried to cold turkey, last time, and was really, really irritable. Of course, that time, I also quit only to save money, too...heart just wasn't in it. I did notice, the other day, when I was away from home, it was time for a new patch and I didn't have one, I got a bit irritable. All was fine when I got home and put on a new patch...could be the patch, could be my mind telling me that..who knows? I just know it has helped me a lot. I got the generic ones from walmart...have to tape them on, as they don't stick as well, but they only cost $16...way cheaper than the cigs. Hugs and prayers! Amy __________________ "I'm not where I want to be, but thank God I'm not where I used to be" - Joyce Meyer "You got what it takes you can win, today is your day to begin. Don't give up here, don't you quit, the moment is now, this is it I know that you can then you will, get to the top of the hill. Part of the fun is the climb, you just gotta make up your mind" - Shania Twain (Tinker, Elvis, Patches and Mots - Mouth Of The South)

04-13-2009, 02:29 PM	#15 (permalink)
SeekSobriety Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Los Angeles, CA Posts: 296	Congratulations Chiynita! You took positive action by posting to this board FIRST! ! ! ! ! I am so glad you made it through without picking up a cigarette.

04-13-2009, 02:42 PM	#16 (permalink)
MrsMagoo Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Wilmington, NC Posts: 933	Good job Trish (and Amy)!!! I've tried. I'm still taking the Chantix and I'm WAY down but still smoking. I wish they would make me gag or something. Trish, don't smoke even one. If I would get up in the morning and not smoke one, I think I could go all day but that one in the morning....kinda wakes up the need. I might try not smoking one before I go to bed. I'm down to about 5 a day. Between my husband and I, we are smoking (combined), just under one pack a day. That's way down as he was at least a 2 pack a day guy and I was at a pack a day, maybe more on bad days. I don't know why I'm so scared. I guess I'm scared of failing. __________________ 'When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.'

04-13-2009, 02:43 PM	#17 (permalink)
MrsMagoo Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Wilmington, NC Posts: 933	How did the new job go? __________________ 'When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.'

04-13-2009, 02:45 PM	#18 (permalink)
Aysha Looking For Myself...Sober Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Where the heart is Posts: 10,087 Blog Entries: 26	New job is good. Thx for asking. __________________ Dont just count your days...Make your days count! It may not get easier, But it will get better.

04-15-2009, 03:14 PM	#19 (permalink)
Aysha Looking For Myself...Sober Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Where the heart is Posts: 10,087 Blog Entries: 26	I have been wanting a cig all day today. Day off. Tired as hell. Didnt do what I had to do today. Gram is sick. I think I am getting it too. Arguing with the gram over her bitchin at me all the time for things she should be telling my cousin..not me. og is driving me crazy and pissing me off with the crapping in the house and pulling the cat crap out of the box. I dont want to give her away. But I am this close. I cant handle it anymore. She chewed through her leash. I have to go to court tonight and ask for an extension on ym ticket. My license is going to be suspended after today anyway from a DMV fine I cant pay. My satellite was shut off yesterday. Who knows how long before internet and phone go down. I have to have my car insurance post marked by Fri or I am losing that too. I dont have enough for that. I want a dam cigarette. But through all that whining and bitchin..I still havent brought myself to go get one. Just one is all I want. And I havent even tried to get it. I guess I am going to want all I want..But I am not going to get it. Ok..End rant. __________________ Dont just count your days...Make your days count! It may not get easier, But it will get better.

04-15-2009, 04:01 PM	#20 (permalink)
Dime Member Join Date: Mar 2009 Posts: 1,117	Your Awesome Chiynita I laughed when I read your post because I thought about my experiences with visiting pets/cat boxes and dog poop. It was so bad I didn't dare walk bare foot in the house, especially when it was dark. I just scrambled money to pay my car insurance before it was canceled today and figured out how to pay a month at a time. My satellite TV has been gone for 9 months and the free digital converter boxes are just fine. It don't have any tickets though and I guess I will drive careful. I guess I will drive extra careful because I don't want to add the "talking to the judge" thing to my list right now. But you know what, we are sober, we don't smoke and we will be fine! We're just being qualified for a very important position that our higher power has planned for us. Such a training program, I can't wait for my promotion!!

04-15-2009, 04:44 PM	#22 (permalink)
CoDieNOmore Member Join Date: Mar 2009 Location: Livingroom Posts: 323	I hear ya Chiynita!!! It seems I have way to much crap going on too... One thing that helps me feel good about myself is the fact that when the sh_t hits the fan I still DON"T smoke... You Go Girl!!! __________________ " Sometimes you make the wrong decision.... Sometimes you make the wrong decision right " Dr. Phill

04-15-2009, 06:06 PM	#23 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	Oh, man... Do I feel JUST LIKE YOU!!! Shalom! __________________ IMAGINE

04-16-2009, 08:50 AM	#24 (permalink)
scaredykat Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Upstate, N.Y. Posts: 4,593 Blog Entries: 7	i hope your feeling better today chiynita. You defiently don't want to smoke again. I forget how many days you are. Your ahead of my husband by a few days. He's day 9 today. I wish I never started smoking when i was a kid. But it is what it is. In a few days I'll be joining the smoke-free gang when i start week 2 of my chantix. Take care. __________________ * BB quotes cited from the 1st Ed.* One Day at a Time Sobriety Date: Jan 19, 2008

04-16-2009, 09:10 AM	#25 (permalink)
KOOKS Member Join Date: Mar 2009 Location: scotland uk Posts: 290	Chynita you are an inspiration.....thank you.

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