I quit

[chippa]

Originally Posted by Possum23

How the fluck do you get a family of skunks outa the barn!

Moth balls- I had THREE of them living under my shed last summer...

Again- I hope I didn't offend, I've never been to Mother England- jes questions

I didn't think of the teeth thing, but that's hilarious- never mind a Willie Nelson Concert, I just returned from a big Agricultural Convention and you could count some folks' teeth on one hand!

Possum ice in red wine is a travesty- in fact one of the ONLY reasons I look forward to summer ending is that red wine comes back into the equation- I just don't drink it in the summer, unless it's raining or something... even then, no-

And I knew the warm beer thing was a myth- I've been to Austria once and the beer there was fantastic and I met several folks who set me straight

I get why you guys call it FOOTball- I have no idea why we call our version of it football- the problem is you have no alternative name (like soccer) so you have to call what we call football AMERICAN football-

In the Olympics and such, I wonder do they call it soccer or football?

I have American football tickets for tomorrow night btw!!!! (Go Pats!)

Duty calls I'll be back (they actually make me work here) - keep up the good work folks!

[Saxony]

Day 12 today. It's really not to bad at all now. I get thoughts rather than craves, but nothing major and they are easily dismissed. Sometimes I feel really tearfull though and really miss smoking, as sad as that sounds, it is like losing a friend in some ways.

Anyway, this will be my last post for a while, I am off on holiday for a week, when I get back hopefully I can say I have 3 weeks!

Sax

[JigOvLife]

Have a great time Sax, I hope to have rejoined the human race by then.

[HopeTo180]

Sax,
Congratulations! Yes, please keep posting! You are helping so many people! You inspire those that have done it and encourage those who have not. Keep up the good work!

[StarKist]

I quit too!

[comfortablynumb]

WTG SAX!!!

Success seems to be a matter of hanging on after others have let go...

I remember some dreams early on where I pursued people down alleyways to knock them unconscious in order to rifle through their pockets for a random cigarette....
Lucky for me, it was only a dream
Lucky for me, that passed...
KEEP on keeping on
ONE DAY at a time!!!
xoxoxoxox

CN

[Saxony]

Well I am back from my holiday and it is now 3 weeks today since I quit

I have really struggled this last week for some reason it seemed harder than the first two mentally. I just couldn't get it out of my head, I kept thinking I wanted to smoke, that I didn't want to quit anymore. Maybe it's because I didn't have the net on holiday, because when I got back yesterday and got on another site I go to, after reading for a while, I realised I do still want to keep my quit and it's pretty normal to still want to smoke, after all I have only stopped for 3 weeks, I smoked for over 20 years.

So anyway, I am feeling a bit more positive this morning.

I had my first smoking dream last night, I dreamt that I just bought a ten pack and smoked them all telling myself I would quit again in the morning, thankfully it was just a dream and I don't have to go through withdrawal again today

Sax
D21

[comfortablynumb]

What ever you are doing it's working

woohoo.....

but you're right...something we did for years (in my case over 30 yrs) is NOT going to magically be completely absent from our minds in just a short time.

I can tell you that many days go by without ever thinking about smoking, because it's no longer a part of my life.

Even when I am reminded of it, it's never a feeling of wishing I could go back.

EVEN IF there were NO health risks, I would not want the ball and chain and would not want to spend the money..

If smoking killed us the first time we did it, NO one would smoke.
Unfortunately it kills us slowly and subtly . By the time we learn of the damage it's done (as in lung cancer) often, it's TOO late...

so keep on keeping on.........and know that one day you may only look back in wonder.....wonder WHY you didn't do it sooner...



CN

[JigOvLife]

Well done Sax...keep inspiring me, had chest pains recently...it'll be time for a more concertated effort on my part soon

[Saxony]

Hi Jig, Chest pains were one of my motivators for quitting too. I think mine were anxiety based however, still it made me scared and to realise that if I was about to have a heart attack I would have done it to myself, well I didn't/don't want to ever be in that position.

Since I quit I haven't had any pains and that stupid junkie of mine trys to convince me smoking would be ok, that they were just anxiety pains and I am to young to have a heart attack. Fortunatly I am not listening, of course there is also the multiple other health risks I don't want to gamble with aswell.

So here I am on day 22, after having a couple of bad days I am feeling good again and trying to focus on the positives.

Things I like about quitting:-

I have saved £101 so far.
I can smell my shampoo.
I can taste things better.
I don't have to go outside and get cold/soaked to smoke.
I wake up feeling refreshed rather than groggy and still half asleep.
I don't have to worry about when I can get my next fix
I can actually take a deep breath, not what I thought was a deep breath


Things I don't like about quitting:-

My favorite snack in the world actually tastes like crap! I need a new snack

Sax

[chippa]

"I can actually take a deep breath, not what I thought was a deep breath"

Brilliant

[Saxony]

Day 25 today.

I made it all the way downstairs and was half way through making coffee before I thought about smoking today, so about 20 mins lol, but up until today my very first throught on waking up was smoking/quitting related, so it was nice that it wasn't the first thing on my mind for once.

During the day I can usually go about 3 or 4 hours now before I think about it, so it's all getting a little better, day by day.


Sax

[DoneInPhx]

Saxony - I love your 'things I like' post....beautiful reminder of why we're all here...

...I love being able to commit to things I want to do - ie volunteering at my kids' school - without worrying about how long I'll be there, where I'll have to go hide, and what I'll smell like.

My new favorite thing - lotions & perfumes that make me smell fabulous, or just simply smelling like ME...it's becoming an obsession, I may need to seek help.

[chippa]

Sax see it's not just me- everyone likes reading your posts-

keep up the good-

Your post sums it up so well- the cravings (I don't think) EVER go away, they get further and further apart and less and less intense as you go

then every once in a while you get slammed with one, but LIFE in general does eventually become manageable...

I just found out I have PATS TICKETS for Sunday!!!

kutgq everyone

[Saxony]

Hey all,

Well yesterday I smoked

When I started this I said to myself I would start smoking again before I started drinking. After a pretty rough couple of days I decided to throw in the towel and smoke and drink again. A friend was here that had cigarettes so I smoked. Thankfully I came to my senses and didn't drink so I still have 60 plus days sober.

Well the first cigarette was hard to smoke, my lungs protested but that didn't stop me, it burned my throat and made me feel sick, so what do I do, smoke some more!

This morning I went and bought some, amazing how just a couple can take you right back to day one, it was like I hadn't even quit.

Well after smoking for most of today, I feel like crap, my lungs hurt, my heart keeps pounding, for some reason my joints ache and I am fed up of getting wet when I go outside and smoke, so I am going to quit again tonight.

I can't believe it's going to be as hard as the first day/week again, but given how I was craving when I woke up today, I guess it is

Sax

[comfortablynumb]

Perhaps you can reflect back on what you thought you'd get from going back and whether or not you got it....
and then, was it worth it?

Hopefully you can just dust yourself off and get back on the bicycle and start peddling....

CN

[Saxony]

Hi Comfy, I am not really sure why I smoked, I think, I thought it would make me feel better, I have been quite down since I quit and I was fed up with feeling miserable. Did it work? Nope, I didn't feel any better at all, in fact I felt worse.

I think I overdosed or something, it actually feels like I have a minor hangover today, I feel sick and have a headache and generally feel blurrrgh. I sopose they could just be withdrawal syptoms again

When I woke up this morning I had to drag myself out of bed rather than waking up refreshed, I can't believe how bad I felt, did I really used to wake up like that all the time, I vaugly think I did.

Anyways, since I have proved to myself smoking dosn't do anything for me I have quit again.

Sax
Day 1

[Saxony]

Originally Posted by chippa

I just found out I have PATS TICKETS for Sunday!!!

kutgq everyone

It's like your talking a whole nother language there Chippa!




Pats Tickets?? I am guessing these are football tickets?


kutgq?? keep up the good quit??

[chippa]

It IS another language!

Sorry- Pats=Patriots!

and I was on the 50 yard line FRONT row, Patriots side- awesome to see everyone up close

Our QB got injured in the first quarter and is out for the season-

we won, but we beat basically the lousiest team in the NFL

tailgating beforehand was awesome though- it was a beautiful day, I brought some venison and and sausages and pasta salad and we walked around just checking out the scene- such an event-68000 psychos all getting riled up for the first game of the regular season

Sax, sorry to hear you slipped- that which does not kill me and all that-

Everything is an opportunity to learn, every time you quit, you become a better quitter

Oh and just a side note, I became an uncle again over the weekend, my sister gave birth to a 7 lb 13 oz baby

Sydney Hunter welcome aboard!

[DoneInPhx]

Hey - anybody had fatigue from the lozenges? I know that sleep disturbances are a side effect of nicotine w/drwl, but we're using the lozenges and my husband is convinced that they put him to sleep. He's also very emotional...well, okay..more so that usual. I've had both of those when trying the cold turkey thing, but nothing like that this time....

[comfortablynumb]

Originally Posted by Saxony

Hi Comfy, I am not really sure why I smoked, I think, I thought it would make me feel better, I have been quite down since I quit and I was fed up with feeling miserable. Did it work? Nope, I didn't feel any better at all, in fact I felt worse.

I think I overdosed or something, it actually feels like I have a minor hangover today, I feel sick and have a headache and generally feel blurrrgh. I sopose they could just be withdrawal syptoms again

When I woke up this morning I had to drag myself out of bed rather than waking up refreshed, I can't believe how bad I felt, did I really used to wake up like that all the time, I vaugly think I did.

Anyways, since I have proved to myself smoking dosn't do anything for me I have quit again.

Sax
Day 1

May I never forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith...

one day at a time............
you'll get there if you can just NOT take the first (puff--drink)

[chippa]

Done I know they say that fatigue is a symptom of nicotine withdrawal, but I wonder if it's just a result of your body saying "screw this" because if the emotional physical and psychological stress of quitting smoking-

I know I slept a lot and was glad because any hour I slept was an hour I wasn't sweating bullets trying not to smoke...

Sax, keep us posted my man- your journey is of interest

I may have asked you already, but are you a Michael Bisping fan?

[DoneInPhx]

Sax - is this day 4? I hope all is going well for you!!

Chippa - I don't know what's going on since we're using the lozenges (technically speaking, we've not dealt with the nicotine addiction yet)...it's like lack-of-cig induced depression.

I totally agree with the sleeping, I've done that (please let me sleep so I don't have to deal with this!!) but he is sure that he actually becomes sleepy as soon as he pops one of the commit tablets....I don't know, between that and the general blues I'm worried that he's going to go back to smoking to feel better....hmm, where have I heard that before??

[chippa]

Originally Posted by DoneInPhx

go back to smoking to feel better....hmm, where have I heard that before??

I still hear it in my head everyday-

I actually still dream almost EVERY night that I relapse back to smoking- I cannot believe it has gone on this long- at this point it is practically comical, like it will never end- it doesn't bother me that much anymore, sometimes on my way to work I try to remember it like a 'where's waldo' book

as far as the lozendes, I know I'd rather sleep than smoke right now- medication in general is so weird, it affects people in different ways, some people are allergic to this, others to that, if it's working for you guys, that's a victory-