March 1st!! Crunchtime!!

[Jane63]

I thought hubby and I might have to wait until this Saturday to start the Chantix {no cash on hand till Friday nights paycheck! LOL!} but I called him at work yesterday and told him I wanted to get it last night instead and start TODAY in order to keep with "the plan".

So we went and got the perscriptions and now each have one of those "cute" little starter boxes of our own! {BTW...Could they have made it any harder to get that damn box open?? Geez!}

I was reading the info insert last night and was struck by a sudden panic attack! I am not sure why it came on other than the fact that I am just not a happy camper about all this and still unsure what I am getting myself into!

I have so many emotions running through me today that it is hard to focus on just one thought at a time. Why am I so angry about this? Why am I afraid? Why aren't I excited at the aspect of starting a new chapter {yet again!} in my life? Why can't I be happy about this?
Why is the dog starring at me like I'm a nutcase? {opps...sorry! LOL!}

Ok...well, I take my first pill {Chantix} at noon after I get some decent food in my belly. Then I plan to get rid of those ashtrays {except for 1 or 2} and ciggy dispenser that I sooo did not do the other day like I said I would! ;-(
I think that will give me some empowerment and hopfully my head will begin to clear at some point today!
Jane

[PurpleReign]

Originally Posted by Jane63

I thought hubby and I might have to wait until this Saturday to start the Chantix {no cash on hand till Friday nights paycheck! LOL!} but I called him at work yesterday and told him I wanted to get it last night instead and start TODAY in order to keep with "the plan".

So we went and got the perscriptions and now each have one of those "cute" little starter boxes of our own! {BTW...Could they have made it any harder to get that damn box open?? Geez!}

I was reading the info insert last night and was struck by a sudden panic attack! I am not sure why it came on other than the fact that I am just not a happy camper about all this and still unsure what I am getting myself into!

I have so many emotions running through me today that it is hard to focus on just one thought at a time. Why am I so angry about this? Why am I afraid? Why aren't I excited at the aspect of starting a new chapter {yet again!} in my life? Why can't I be happy about this?
Why is the dog starring at me like I'm a nutcase? {opps...sorry! LOL!}

Ok...well, I take my first pill {Chantix} at noon after I get some decent food in my belly. Then I plan to get rid of those ashtrays {except for 1 or 2} and ciggy dispenser that I sooo did not do the other day like I said I would! ;-(
I think that will give me some empowerment and hopfully my head will begin to clear at some point today!
Jane

Jane,
May you and your hubby be the success story in the book my pops is leaving on the table.

You should be very proud, best of luck!

PR

[Salsa]

Hi Jane

Chantix is really an unbelievable drug. I think you will be very surprised. I had the same anxieties and didn't feel "ready" at all. Surprise, surprise....I ended up quitting a day early because I had no desire to smoke. I'm on day 5 now of no smokes and while I have had some nausea (take the meds with food....helps a lot!) I really am amazed at how well it's gone. Don't stress yourself out thinking of a certain day that you MUST quit....let the medicine work and you'll find yourself not smoking near as much, slowly tapering down to nothing! Day three (of quitting) was the worst day for me, but all in all I'm doing well. I've tried other methods in the past and failed! I truly feel this time I will make it.....I think many of us will and wish everyone the best of luck.

[Jane63]

Thank you PR! I will try not to let you or any of the other 20-or so people that are holding me accountable down this time around!! ;-)

Salsa...Thank you for that and I am already feeling more positive tonight about all of this than I have in months of debating with myself and planning it all out in my head!!

I did eat and take the Chantix with a whole bottle of water at noon today. I felt alittle "floaty" about a half hour after I took it but it subsided after I got busy working around here. I haven't smoked as many cigs today as I normally do either! :-)

Headed to bed now so I can wake up fresh and start this all over again tomorrow...and hopefully smoke even LESS!!
G'Nite,
Jane

[Salsa]

Hey Jane.....how's it going on the Chantix??? Just thought I would check in....wishing you the best

[Jane63]

Thanks for asking about me Salsa!
Today is the 4th day on the Chantix and the day we take the second pill at night. So far no really bad side effects other than a "floaty" feeling at first {it goes away after about 15-min.} and some...umm...gas. {*insert embarrassed face!*}
I have slowed way down on the smoking but still not doing as good as I had hoped. {or as good as hubby is doing...he has more willpower, I think}Some "desire" is still there for me but I am going to be more tough and fight it today.
I guess I was looking for a "miracle pill" but I need to look within myself for that "miracle" more and not depend solely on the pill. {duh!}

Jane

[Jane63]

OK...I suck at this!! ;-(
Hubby seems to be doing just fine and could probably quit anytime now! I know everyone is different but why does this seem to be so hard for me?

One of my main traits of the habit is that I am more likely to leave the cig in the ashtray than actually smoke all of it...like while I'm on here, doing dishes, laundry, etc, etc, etc.
I am having trouble with that part...and even on day 5 the cigs still are semi-desirable to me!

UgGG!! {*frying pan over the head!*}
Jane

[Dawn10]

LJ,
I know you can do this....think of all you have accomplished in the past 2 1/2 years. And yeah, you do have lots of folks holding you accountable, but in the end, it is you who will be accountable to you!!
Hang tight sweetie!

Dawn

[jlo34]

Jane,
Women usually do have a harder time than men. Women tend to become addicted to substances more easily then men.

Keep up with it...don't compare your recovery to your hubby's. Know that YOU are doing the very best YOU can. Your body will react the way it is suppose to and when it is suppose to. Be patient....keep it up. We're all here to cheer you on. I know you can do it, Jane. You'll be so proud of yourself!!! Don't give up before the miracle happens....

Blessings,
Jen

[Salsa]

Hiya Jane! You can do this! I actually take my evening dose around 3-4 in the afternoon (take first dose early)...it doesn't seem to affect my sleep as much, plus gives me the extra boost to make it until bedtime. It has worked for me. The pills themselves will not make you quit, but will help you a lot! You have to work a bit at this, but I can tell you it's nothing like cold turkey, or for me any other way of quitting I've tried. Straws really helped me...and remember when you have an urge it won't last long. Use a straw and breathe deep, go for a walk, do anything but smoke! It's truly amazing how much better you will feel. I never realized how much I wasn't breathing...LOL....my lungs feel so much bigger I'm on day 8 of not smoking and can honestly say the meds have helped me so much. The urges are fleeting, almost rare too.....I have small triggers (I never smoked in my car or house so that helps) but the urge lasts maybe 60 seconds. I'll do anything I can to keep myself from taking another puff......I don't want to have to start over. Smoking the rest of my life is not an option for me!

Best of luck Jane.....keep up the strong fight...you CAN do it

[Jane63]

{{Dawn}}!! Thank you for showing up with words of encouragement and truth! It really means ALOT!!! :-)

Thank you Jen!
I knew hubby would have an easier time of this because he works outside the home {unlike myself}, smokes less than me and doesn't have the same habits as I do. {he lights a cig and smokes it all the way through...while I am a "lay it in the ashtray" type smoker}
I don't plan on giving up just yet! There is still alot of fight left in me!! ;-)

Salsa! Wow! You are doing GREAT!!
Yeah, I went into this the wrong way thinking that the Chantix alone would do the trick! I don't know how I could have been so stupid! {wishful thinking, I guess??} But since I took my second 2-day dose last night I did notice less of a desire so maybe it is just taking awhile longer to work for me for some unknown reason?
I think I will try taking the second dose alittle earlier than 8pm tonight and see how that works. I am also getting me a STRAW to carry around today! {LOL} My tongue is actually sore from sucking on candies so the switch will be good!

I am hanging in there!! Thanks so much for the words of encouragement!!!!
Jane