ten months sober today,
hi, i'm new to this forum and just wanted to introduce myself.
i'm ten months sober today. not feeling the love right now, i've heard that the ninth month is the hardest in the first year and i have to say i would agree with that. i'm determined to make a year, but these past few weeks have been really tough.
i'm a 17 year alcholic, started when i was fourteen and just drank my life into oblivion. finally couldn't take it anymore this year after two hospital stays. the first, my heart almost stopped and the second to detox. after the detox, i wound up spending a lovely night and part of the next afternoon in the local drunk tank. not the highlight of my life!!
so i checked into rehab, and here i am ten months later. sober and for the most part enjoying it, but there is always that little voice in my head saying,, do it, drink, nothing bad will happen!! hopefully this voice will fade in time.
i'm not interested in aa, tried it out and was not for me. am currently reading the book rational recovery and seeing how that one works.
hope to have some support and interesting discussion in this group!