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Hey Red,
I try to start each day with energy, but fall off as the day goes on, I still need to fix my normal everyday car tomorrow. But I do have a different vehicle in my shop that I'm doing a cylinder head on. My son isn't much for working on cars tho I invite him regularly. Twins.....wow! That would wear me out for sure especially at 2.5 yrs old.
Great job staying strong and focused. Your kids will always benefit! And so will you! You don't want to miss their growing up years!
I try to start each day with energy, but fall off as the day goes on, I still need to fix my normal everyday car tomorrow. But I do have a different vehicle in my shop that I'm doing a cylinder head on. My son isn't much for working on cars tho I invite him regularly. Twins.....wow! That would wear me out for sure especially at 2.5 yrs old.
Great job staying strong and focused. Your kids will always benefit! And so will you! You don't want to miss their growing up years!
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Day 7... I fell apart on day 7 last week. I started feeling angry and depressed, which pended up in permission somehow and another day 1. Seems everyday is difficult, the weekends are just a different kind of hard compared to a weekday. I will work to keep my head in the right place. I can already hear my AV echoing in the background. I have plenty to do today that's not a problem. I wish I had a good reset method for my anxieties. Deep breaths will have to do. Colorado is normally very sunny, but once in awhile it rains for a few days in the spring. We are on the third day of rain so being sun dependent doesn't help the moods. I thought I would wake up rip ready to go, but nope. Not feeling overly depressed, just blah....with a slight headache of course. I guess I get up and do something, pouting isn't going to make it a better day.
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How about escaping in your music? How about posting some of those reggae grooves you spoke about? I've created a lil' Music Exchange and need someone to post the first piece. It can be anything.
Just click on the link below and post away I would LOVE to hear your stuff!
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-exchange.html
Just click on the link below and post away I would LOVE to hear your stuff!
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-exchange.html
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I would love to sit and play some tunes. But I have to fix vehicles. The sun came out so I went out to the flower beds. Started cleaning them out, it helps to see the new growth poking threw. My AV has been screaming in my ear all his rationale the last couple hours. You don't have a problem, man it would taste good, you need to relax.....it even has responses for playing the tape forward. Your hangover won't be bad, just drink lots of water, just keep it to one bottle of wine. It leaves out the shame I'll feel tomorrow or the painful look my son will give me. So I'm here......try to regain the upper hand again. At least the sun came out...
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I haven't been able to work on painting watercolor for a couple years. I have to be calm internally to work with paints. I've been trying to get back to it. I got frustrated at one point and threw most of it out. I couldn't get enough silence to work. I'm terrible at it anyway, but I hoped to improve.
I'm glad the sun came out for ya!
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Okay....I think the worst has passed...I hope. I hate drama! Deep breath.....thank you all for checking in on me. I needed it this afternoon. I hope the evening doesn't have another moment. Not sure why that happens.....
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Thanks Lulu! Day 8 today. I hope is happens without all the internal stress of yesterday. It's been years since I went 8 days. I'm glad I've made this far. But that isn't permission, just a quick breath. I try to stay focused and busy. I know I get obsessive bout clean. I laughed yesterday when I caught myself blowing out the cracks in the concrete with an air hose. Which reminds me....I missed one.
I hope you are staying strong and feeling more energetic. I'm going to start today on the treadmill. We'll see how it goes from there.
I hope you are staying strong and feeling more energetic. I'm going to start today on the treadmill. We'll see how it goes from there.
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Hey Red! Thanks for the kind words yesterday. I'm not a drama queen normally, but I felt like one for acouple hours yesterday. Your words were helpful. Just having a voice outside of that internal spin was a good thing. Thanks. I hope your boys are keeping you busy! I can only imagine. I'm glad you've chosen to work on sobriety now so that they will always know mom as sober. I can't say that for my two teens. The last 3-5 yrs have been far from ideal. But this week I gained some good things with the kids. I went to two of my son's baseball games, watched two Rockies games including last night with him, played cards and enjoyed laughing to tears with my daughter. And made no stupid regrets. But I still need to fix cars....lol. Oh well just a thing. Thanks again Red, I hope your Sunday is awesome!
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Checking in......so far today has been much more user friendly than yesterday. Lots of projecting and cleaning, keeping busy and focused on good things. I'm hoping my mind is finding thought that are more interesting than wine. Seems to be true for the moment. Glad you all are here! Blessings
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