Stewy84

Hey guys,

I feel like drinking, I'm 2.5 years sober, I'm just about to leave my home I share with my girlfriend as things have been rough for a long time, my friend died last month and my 2 uncles in November. Its been a tricky time.

I've been around people drinking today and it's awoken something in me.

Please help me get through the next few hours if anyone can relate?

Caramel

I'm sorry things are tough for you at present and sorry for your bereavements.
I hope you won't drink, that you stay authentic and in touch with your feelings, and power on beyond this difficult time.
We're here for you

Caramel

And, well-done on 2.5 years!

Steely

Yes, I can relate, big time, and moreso, it never works. Ever.

I resisted a couple of days ago and I can't tell you how good I feel about that decision today.

You will feel stronger tomorrow.

Cornbread

When I relapsed a few years back I opened myself to another level of hell that I never knew was possible.

One thing I do is play out the entire situation to the end. How will this affect you? What are the ramifications of all of this?

Also, Step 1-3 is incredibly powerful in times like this.

carlingford

Hi Strawy, I hear your pain but drinking will not cure it, actually it will make it worse !! I thought I could drink at Christmas and just ended back at square 1, please don't do it, it will pass in a little time !!

Anna

Stewy, I'm sorry that you're struggling. I'm kind of glad to hear you're leaving your living situation with your girlfriend, because I know that's been a problem for you for a long time. I hope you will find some peace now.

thomas11

Hang in there Stewy.....two and half years is a long time. Sorry you are going through some pain, but you know that drinking will not make it better. Only worse. Can you remove yourself from the situation if need be? Don't drink.

Grymt

You've made the right decision to post here. This is what people must do when recognising a risk. Reach out. Confirm a contract to not drink. The next step is to not drink. Don't for any external or internal reasons ever pick up the first drink. It's a win or lose situation. Heaven or hell. Every time you come to the choice choose to not pick up and keep posting, reaching out, feel your feelings and let them go. Once you're through this your sobriety will be much stronger. All this difficulty, pain, and unpleasant sensations are opportunities. Use this difficulty to your advantage. Work through it.

Dee74

You did exactly the right thing posting Stewy
I'm sorry for your recent losses.

The house and gf thing has been coming for a long time tho - I think, rather than an ending, this may be a new beginning for you Stewy - a good one.

Why screw that up?

D

Mattq2

You've done so well stewy, don't go back my friend. You know where it leads and it's not worth it.

least

I hope you don't drink, no matter what happens. Drinking will only make things worse, never better.

2.5 yrs is fantastic! Don't throw it away.

Delizadee

SO many great responses here Stewy, I couldn't have put it any better than what Dee said.

2.5 years is fantastic- think of how awesome you will feel when the grief abates some and you have remained sober throughout.
Drinking will not make any of this feel better, and you know that.

I'd suggest sticking around here and around friends and family who are not drinking at this moment- and far away from those who are.

I am so sorry for all your pain right now.

Stewy84

I'm sorry , I've been drinking, I'm pretty certain that when I wake up for work tomorrow I'll completely regret it. Sorry that I've wasted all your time and effort, 2.5 years down the drain in a couple of hours geez what a guy.

Those who have followed me for a while will know I've had relationship problems for some time and it's finally come to a head today. I'm disappointed in myself.. I'll have to start again tomorrow

Stewy84

Yep.......can sense the disappointment guys

ScottFromWI

Why not start now and dump out the rest stewy? Only bad things will happen if you keep drinking.

Dee74

Disappoinment would be a wasted emotion here Stewy - I figure you're plenty disappointed enough

I'd much rather give you good advice that clip you round the ear

You don't need to crash and burn - dump whats left , drink some water and start again as you mean to go on tomorrow.

D

Stewy84

I've wasted 2.5 years guys.....

All that hard work gone. I'm sad about my girlfriend and splitting up, we were not the right fit but she is not a bad person

Dee74

Nonsense. you haven't lost anything you've learned or accomplished.

I'm not going to join the pity party stew - its just your addiction softening you up for more despair and drinking.

Cut it off now Stewy. It's not a road you want to go down again.

D

IN2Q

I just started reading this, and I am not disappointed in you, I haven't made it more than 7 days in the last year, you have done near 1000 days. you are my hero!

It is no reason to

Soooo tomorrow you wake up like this and accept that a mistake was made, but your still here and you know you can do this again, and I will be glad to cheer you on!