Dee74

Hi guys

I just wanted to share this...not for hugs and sympathy at all - but to let people know it's ok to talk about the not so good stuff, no matter how much recovery time you have.

I've been depressed for several weeks - perfect storm...
holiday blues...no music...

& it's been a massive heatwave here which really saps my energy...

& I use an anti depressant for nerve pain relief and I went on generic meds which weren't working as well...

& I haven't slept well for several weeks and using sleep aids more regularly...

then a few days ago I wrecked my mobility scooters sun canopy - it came off second best to a tree...

been that route a hundred times...no problem but it had to happen now....

I knew intellectually it was first world problems...

but that doesn't really cut it sometimes when you're deep in the blues.

The one good thing is that drinking didn't enter the equation as a possible solution.

so...Instead I made a Dr's appointment, got the right meds,

checked out replacement cost for the canopy and looking into insurance claims now...

got a sturdy wide brimmed sun hat and 50+ sunscreen til then...

and I got a couple of gigs to get myself out of the doldrums...
thankfully I'm sleeping better now too.

There's always solutions - outside the bottle

Forward we go...side by side

D

tomsteve

i can relate,dee. seems when im down the worlds cavin in, but nothing a drink will help.

soo, can ya translate this from aussie to american

- it came off second best to a tree...

lost me here.

Maudcat

One foot in front of the other, Dee. Or maybe one wheel in front of the other?
Glad you are moving forward and taking steps to rise up.
Here when you need us.

SoberLeigh

Not absolutely sure but I think it means that the canopy collided in some fashion with a tree - the tree won and the canopy lost.

JackDsMissus

All that going on and you're still here everyday for us. You're awesome Dee

SoberLeigh

Onward together, dear Dee.

Lean on us any time.

We care about you very, very much.

Dee74

My scooter comes with a sun canopy - like an old horse and buggy -


the canopy got entangled in a branch.

D

bemyself

Oh, dear Dee - thank you for letting us know how you've been.

I too know that perfect storm kind of scenario - as do quite a few of us, I reckon.

And yes, massive ongoing heatwaves (like you guys - i believe you're up north-ish?, NSW, SA, parts of VIC....), can drain most people, mad dogs n Englishmen - and Aussie sun freaks - excepted. Until they get a bout of heat illness or sunstroke.

Great to hear you've a few gigs coming up again, getting some sleep, a replacement for the scooter's umbrella, and of course: above all - you don't drink. Unlike some like me who've succumbed again, as you know. And of course, the obvious part is: even though depression by itself can render us feeling incapable for a while, the fact you've stayed sober has meant you were able to 'stiffen the sinews, and summon up the blood' (House of Cards, UK version) to make those efforts to help yourself.

All power to you, dear friend. Makin' some music again soon, eh?

LadyBlue0527

Thank you for sharing that Dee. It sounds like things are on the mend? We all have rough patches, nothing that drinking will ever fix. Sometimes it's more than one thing at a time. Those are the hardest.

I feel privileged to be on this path with you. Lord knows you've certainly pulled me back on when I've veered off

Glad things are turning around

bemyself

Oh God - the horse n buggy analogy will bring the wits out. Like a reprise of the Mod Be Rollin' thread :)

Delilah1

Hi Dee,

I'm sorry you have all of that going on. If you hadn't shared that none of us would have known because you are always so supportive and positive with everyone on here.

I hope insurance will help replace the broken top.

Hope things starting turning back around quickly!

❤️Delilah

bexxed

You're so cool, Dee.

Wishing you the best for all of this.

Thanks.

bemyself

As the music gives you so much joy, do you mind me asking what you play?? I vaguely recall bass or drums???

AnvilheadII

dee, thank you for sharing the "rough times" - and how you are gettting thru them. we can never come to believe that simply "because" we are now sober, life will unfurl in front of us with a magic carpet, rainbows and prancing unicorns.

sometimes stuff just sux. sometimes we DO feel picked on. sometimes we just look to the heavens and say......REALLY?

recovery tells us that no matter what, we WILL suit up and show up tomorrow. we WILL believe that this is a solution. and that we HAVE been given the strength and courage we need to get thru whatever comes next.

Notimetoloose

Expecting 40° here today Dee, that sunblock and hat are going to come in handy for all of us.
I am sorry to hear about your meds and scooter and I am glad you are on the mend.
Take care of yourself Dee.

least

Dee, you can always share your thoughts with us. I'm glad you weren't hurt and the scooter can be fixed.

I'm sorry your meds weren't working right. Hope it's all sorted out soon.

Big hugs to you, from me and the fur kids.

Anna

Dee, I'm sorry you've been struggling, but I am so glad that you posted this. Members often comment that they feel it's not okay to post about the difficult times. But, of course it is. And, unfortunately for you many things came together at once, but you worked your way through and are moving on. I know that getting back to the music will help you a lot. Btw, I had a similar problem with a generic medication. I had assumed it would be identical to the name brand medication, but that is not always the case.

biminiblue

I blame it all on the holidays. Every year I'm just glad when it is January and I realize I've survived it again. As long as I live I don't think I'll ever be a holiday lover. I did manage to put up (and take down) a tree this year.

It was two feet tall. Not a Herculean effort.

I hope you are on the mend. I always remember Robby when I start getting melancholy. That "undertow" he talked about threatens me sometimes, too. I reckon I wouldn't appreciate sobriety and the good things if I didn't have some bad times, too. Thankfully my blues don't last long and I'm much more able to snap out of things quickly now. It's always lurking, though - just under the surface. Just an AV of life. I tell it, "No. Not today, bad thoughts."

Not going to drink over it. Nope. The good times are much more the norm now.

least

heartcore

Well, it sounds like a perfect storm! Hang in there!

No matter what kaleidoscope of troubles you ever face - during a bad day or week or month - you can always hold the awareness that you are precious & necessary & meaningful in the recovery of a universe of people, across the world.

You are a powerful part of my recovery & I know I'm not alone in that sentiment. If I lived near you, I'd happily follow you around holding a sun umbrella over your head for days, in hope of returning even a small bucket of the goodness you have lavished on the world...