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Lilalkie · 10-03-2004, 09:50 PM

Bummer. I drank last night. I don't know what I was thinking. I guess my alcoholic mind won when it said, "It's Saturday. Take a break from sobriety and have some beer." And so I did. I bought a six-pack, but only drank four. But of course I couldn't let "precious booze" go to waste, so I finished the rest tonight. But I'm more mad at myself than anything. Thankfully, I don't want any more beer and have no desire to get drunk. I'm planting my rear end back in the AA meetings tomorrow night. Tomorrow will be day one. Does today count if I'm not drunk at all though? Eh, I'll just call tomorrow day one. I'm so disappointed in myself. :banghead:

**best** · 10-03-2004, 10:20 PM

Quote:

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Phil.4:13

AA meetings, the steps AND ask for that strength when you feel weak.

Now dust off and start tomorrow morning with a smile. You can do it.

CAPPA · 10-03-2004, 10:22 PM

Lilalke,

Sorry you drank, you must remember that you are poweless over alcohol until you admit that you do not have control you will continue to research "drink", so my advice, don't consume alcohol, the result will be the same ALWAYS. When you spend to much time between your ears that voice will convience you to drink, the longer you go without alcohol "POISON" in your system the more that voice fades. Call your sponser when you get in that situation again. Take it one day at a time, do not look to far ahead in the future.

I will pray for you

findingout · 10-04-2004, 01:30 AM

Lilalke,

You must try, try and try. You'll succeed at last. You can get this if you want it more than anything and do the necessary things to get it. You were certainly correct when you said it was your alcoholic mind telling you to "take a break from sobriety." There is no such thing and the your new recovering alcohlic mind knows this is true. Here's one of my silly non-AA recovery quotes for you:

Miyagi : [sighs] Daniel-san, must talk. Man walk on road. Walk left side, safe. Walk right side, safe. Walk down middle, sooner or later, get squished
[makes squish gesture]
Miyagi : just like grape. Same here. You karate do "yes," or karate do "no." You karate do "guess so,"
[makes squish gesture]
Miyagi : just like grape. Understand?

Miyagi, "The Karate Kid"

Jah Bless

cj. · 10-04-2004, 05:02 AM

Lilalkie:

Please don't place any guilt upon yourself for having a temporary setback. It happens!!

Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and continue your fight knowing that we are all here for you.
You ARE worth it!

cj

lulu70 · 10-04-2004, 05:15 AM

Hey, hon'! Try not to beat yourself up too much. You are on the right track getting right back in to recovery. Many people go back out and don't return for a very long time. Next time that little voice tells you it's okay to drink, fight it by calling another alcoholic, posting here, or going to a meeting. You CAN do this. You are in my prayers.

Hugs--

ARIES · 10-04-2004, 05:52 AM

Lil..I'm very sorry it did'nt work out so well last weekend
but I must say that it's very good you did'nt drank all the six pack in one night and that you did'nt went out to buy another few..Keep comming and try a meeting ..I wish you strenght..hugs from Stefanie

ChrisMan · 10-04-2004, 07:59 AM

Be gentle with yourself.

It sounds like the oppposite of what "should" be done, but when we beat up on ourselves we can make things worse. When we are gentle with ourselves we give ourselves the nurturing we need -- and then we are less likely to use again.

**51anna** · 10-04-2004, 08:49 AM

Be kind to yourself Lil and you'll be fine. Get back on track and hang around here and keep posting.

Love, Anna

2dayzmuse · 10-04-2004, 09:09 AM

Keep coming back. It beats the alternative. :banghead:

KelKel · 10-04-2004, 11:26 AM

So you had a slip....
learn what you can from it and get past it.... let it go.
getting right back in the saddle is what is important and it sounds like that is what you are doing.

Chy · 10-04-2004, 12:02 PM

Hic-Cups are curable, so long as you reailze you can never take a break from sobriety. I'm glad you were one of the lucky ones to make it back! *hugs*

Sandy Marie · 10-04-2004, 03:10 PM

Hey Lil,
Glad you re-committed to sobriety. You can do it!

Lilalkie · 10-04-2004, 08:37 PM

Yea! I did it! I didn't drink tonight, although I consumed four cups of coffee to compensate and now I'm a bit jittery, lol! Thanks for the support and encouragement. When I took the first sip of that beer on Saturday night, I immediately thought, "What the heck am I doing?" and although my recovering brain said, "Get the beer out of the house. Give it to a non-alcoholic friend to drink!" I ignored it and said, "Why waste my money?" But I am very thankful that my slip-up didn't turn into a six-month relapse like last time. And the good news is, I got a call today from someone who wants to hire me, so now I have a job to keep me out of the house and away from drinking. I'm glad I'm back. Yea for me!

KelKel · 10-04-2004, 08:43 PM

Right On !!!

CAPPA · 10-04-2004, 09:50 PM

I proud of you see you can do it one night at a time, keep going to the AA meetings, live in the solution not the problem.

ChrisMan · 10-05-2004, 05:27 AM

Yay for Lil!

lulu70 · 10-05-2004, 05:43 AM

Congratulations on the job!!!! That is great.

10-03-2004, 09:50 PM	#1 (permalink)
Lilalkie Member Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Akron, Ohio Posts: 94	Grrrr... Bummer. I drank last night. I don't know what I was thinking. I guess my alcoholic mind won when it said, "It's Saturday. Take a break from sobriety and have some beer." And so I did. I bought a six-pack, but only drank four. But of course I couldn't let "precious booze" go to waste, so I finished the rest tonight. But I'm more mad at myself than anything. Thankfully, I don't want any more beer and have no desire to get drunk. I'm planting my rear end back in the AA meetings tomorrow night. Tomorrow will be day one. Does today count if I'm not drunk at all though? Eh, I'll just call tomorrow day one. I'm so disappointed in myself. :banghead:
	__________________ You're probably an alcoholic if you think that spilling beer is alcohol abuse!

10-04-2004, 01:30 AM	#4 (permalink)
findingout Not the center of the Universe Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Orchard Lake, Michigan Posts: 744	Lilalke, You must try, try and try. You'll succeed at last. You can get this if you want it more than anything and do the necessary things to get it. You were certainly correct when you said it was your alcoholic mind telling you to "take a break from sobriety." There is no such thing and the your new recovering alcohlic mind knows this is true. Here's one of my silly non-AA recovery quotes for you: Miyagi : [sighs] Daniel-san, must talk. Man walk on road. Walk left side, safe. Walk right side, safe. Walk down middle, sooner or later, get squished [makes squish gesture] Miyagi : just like grape. Same here. You karate do "yes," or karate do "no." You karate do "guess so," [makes squish gesture] Miyagi : just like grape. Understand? Miyagi, "The Karate Kid" Jah Bless
	__________________ Yes, I am an alcoholic. But that's not all that I am...

10-04-2004, 05:15 AM	#6 (permalink)
lulu70 We all need each other. Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: The road of happy destiny. Posts: 2,221	Hey, hon'! Try not to beat yourself up too much. You are on the right track getting right back in to recovery. Many people go back out and don't return for a very long time. Next time that little voice tells you it's okay to drink, fight it by calling another alcoholic, posting here, or going to a meeting. You CAN do this. You are in my prayers. Hugs--
	__________________ "You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.....do the thing you think you cannot do." ~Eleanor Roosevelt

10-04-2004, 05:52 AM	#7 (permalink)
ARIES I choose to live Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Antwerp (Belgium) Posts: 384	Lil..I'm very sorry it did'nt work out so well last weekend but I must say that it's very good you did'nt drank all the six pack in one night and that you did'nt went out to buy another few..Keep comming and try a meeting ..I wish you strenght..hugs from Stefanie
	__________________ There was New York Jake,the butcher boy who was always getting tight And every time that he'd get full he was spoiling for a fight But Jake rampaged against a knife in the hands of old Bob Stein And over Jake they held a wake in the days of '49 (Bob Dylan days of '49)

10-04-2004, 07:59 AM	#8 (permalink)
ChrisMan Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Boston, MA Posts: 398	Be gentle with yourself. It sounds like the oppposite of what "should" be done, but when we beat up on ourselves we can make things worse. When we are gentle with ourselves we give ourselves the nurturing we need -- and then we are less likely to use again.
	__________________ "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." -- Philo

10-03-2004, 10:22 PM	#3 (permalink)
CAPPA Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: CORDOVA, TN Posts: 31	Lilalke, Sorry you drank, you must remember that you are poweless over alcohol until you admit that you do not have control you will continue to research "drink", so my advice, don't consume alcohol, the result will be the same ALWAYS. When you spend to much time between your ears that voice will convience you to drink, the longer you go without alcohol "POISON" in your system the more that voice fades. Call your sponser when you get in that situation again. Take it one day at a time, do not look to far ahead in the future. I will pray for you

10-04-2004, 05:02 AM	#5 (permalink)
cj. Mending Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Atlantic Canada Posts: 300	Lilalkie: Please don't place any guilt upon yourself for having a temporary setback. It happens!! Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and continue your fight knowing that we are all here for you. You ARE worth it! cj

10-04-2004, 08:49 AM	#9 (permalink)
51anna Forum Leader Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 9,817	Be kind to yourself Lil and you'll be fine. Get back on track and hang around here and keep posting. Love, Anna
	__________________ Anna "I don't know what the future is holding in store I don't know where Im going, Im not sure where Ive been Theres a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I don't need to see the end." John Denver

10-04-2004, 09:09 AM	#10 (permalink)
2dayzmuse Paused Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Washington Posts: 5,085	Keep coming back. It beats the alternative. :banghead:

10-04-2004, 11:26 AM	#11 (permalink)
KelKel Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: The Mohave Desert Posts: 2,313	So you had a slip.... learn what you can from it and get past it.... let it go. getting right back in the saddle is what is important and it sounds like that is what you are doing.

10-04-2004, 12:02 PM	#12 (permalink)
Chy Member Join Date: May 2003 Location: El Paso, Tx Posts: 5,890	Hic-Cups are curable, so long as you reailze you can never take a break from sobriety. I'm glad you were one of the lucky ones to make it back! hugs

10-04-2004, 03:10 PM	#13 (permalink)
Sandy Marie Castaway Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Texas Posts: 787	Hey Lil, Glad you re-committed to sobriety. You can do it!
	__________________ I want to be sober when my ship comes in.

10-04-2004, 08:37 PM	#14 (permalink)
Lilalkie Member Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Akron, Ohio Posts: 94	Yea! I did it! I didn't drink tonight, although I consumed four cups of coffee to compensate and now I'm a bit jittery, lol! Thanks for the support and encouragement. When I took the first sip of that beer on Saturday night, I immediately thought, "What the heck am I doing?" and although my recovering brain said, "Get the beer out of the house. Give it to a non-alcoholic friend to drink!" I ignored it and said, "Why waste my money?" But I am very thankful that my slip-up didn't turn into a six-month relapse like last time. And the good news is, I got a call today from someone who wants to hire me, so now I have a job to keep me out of the house and away from drinking. I'm glad I'm back. Yea for me!
	__________________ You're probably an alcoholic if you think that spilling beer is alcohol abuse!

10-04-2004, 08:43 PM	#15 (permalink)
KelKel Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: The Mohave Desert Posts: 2,313	Right On !!!

10-04-2004, 09:50 PM	#16 (permalink)
CAPPA Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: CORDOVA, TN Posts: 31	I proud of you see you can do it one night at a time, keep going to the AA meetings, live in the solution not the problem.

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10-05-2004, 05:27 AM	#17 (permalink)
ChrisMan Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Boston, MA Posts: 398	Yay for Lil!
	__________________ "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." -- Philo

10-05-2004, 05:43 AM	#18 (permalink)
lulu70 We all need each other. Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: The road of happy destiny. Posts: 2,221	Congratulations on the job!!!! That is great.
	__________________ "You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.....do the thing you think you cannot do." ~Eleanor Roosevelt

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