OnMyWay7

This trip has been so hard for some reason. It's my last night in Germany and I want a drink so badly. I've avoided it but I'm sitting here in my room really being tempted by the minibar and a small bottle of wine in there.

All the normal AV stuff "just one drink" "no one will know" etc.

It's KILLING me. It's been going on for like 2 hours this time.

jryan19982

Are you with anyone in Germany? Can you get outside and walk around?

Dharma33

OnMyWay.....

I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling, and so glad you reached out before drinking.

I can understand the minibar being difficult to fight against.

You could call the front desk, and ask to send someone up to remove everything.

SoberLeigh

Are you able to ask the hotel staff to remove the contents of the mini-bar?

OnMyWay7

Right now I'm just sticking here reading posts and replies. I really don't want to drink - I really want to be happy not drinking - that's what I really want.

Itchy

How long have you been sober Onmyway? I was stationed in Germany for 7 years and can relate to the minibar. Why not just call down and have them remove the alcohol and bring up more sodas?

I sure would not want to go through detox and then PAWS all over again. It is time to get out and take a walk. Germany is alcohol oriented, granted, but they have some great bakeries with wonderful snacks. And their fruit tarts and less sweet desserts are to die for. Coffee is strong there and they have Sprudel water too.

Being happy not drinking takes time, and if you have no other hobbies or interests because of drinking, it takes a bit of effort too. I have no desire to drink at all. I am not deprived, I survived alcoholism.

dwtbd

"No one else would know" but you would , what a squirmy little liar can't even tell a straight lie, squash it

Any strudels around?

NestWasEmpty

Hand in there OnMyWay just think about wake up tomorrow another day Sober & not having regrets or feeling like S**** . Far as the mini bar alcohol you paid for it with the room ? You can pour that Poison out !! No sense in fighting the AV if you don't have to - Right

OnMyWay7

I'm a bit over 8 months sober - and I feel funny asking them to come up and take it away. Every time I order cranberry and tonic they always ask "what alcohol" and when I say none - they're like "none??" I don't like feeling damaged.

Reading posts about how others "just had one" and went back full time drinking helps also.

sleepie

Hi OnMyWay, I am very impressed that you are not drinking in Germany of all places... I think if you can get through this you can do anything.
Glad you posted, keep us updated- looking forward to your victory post out of Germany!

SoberLeigh

Don't feel damaged; feel proud, OnMyWay, very proud.

Soberwolf

You done great onmyway

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

OnMyWay7

Things are so weird sometimes. I started packing - i'm going home tomorrow and I go into the bed drawer and I find "The Teaching of Buddha" in German and English... So I'm like what the heck - I start reading it- so this is my plan for tonight. Finish packing get into bed and read this book. Always wanted to know about Buddha.

Thanks everyone for your replies. I haven't had many really bad days but I've had a few ones this trip and feeling a bit sorry for myself doesn't help.

Thanks

SoberLeigh

sounds like a very good plan, OnMyWay.

saoutchik

Hey OnMyWay, well done for 8 months and for resisting tonight. It is past12:30 am so hopefully you are either asleep or close to it. You're an inspiring person OnMyWay

Dee74

I'm glad you got through it OMW
Great stuff

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Anna

There you go, you'll have an enjoyable evening reading.

Safe trip home!

Itchy

Buddha and mindfulness. We are all about mindfulness here. Good alternative.

Post and let us know how you find the book.

PasserbyDave

Everyone provided some seriously insightful comments here. This forum is great. Good for you OnmyWay for getting through this. Posting here looks like it helped you defeat that very STroNg AV in your head, but it helps me too, because this kind of temptation can happen to any of us anytime and your experience serves as a good good reminder.

OnMyWay7

Hi everyone - successful night - in some ways I'm surprised I really had started talking myself into "just one" but by the time I got into bed with the Buddah book I was tired and only had to read for about 15 minutes and then fell asleep. Not sure what would have happened if I didn't have this place to go to.

Thanks Again