I am sorry
I am sorry
Please allow me to apologize for my sad sack post last night. That was the "drinking" me. I'm sorry. I feel like I know a great bunch of you. So it pains me to let you guys down, and let myself down. It's like, if you guys were my "sponsors", you would have moved on a long time ago to an addict that would stick with the program. Since my Sister Debbie passed, I have lost my mind. Every thing is so different, my world, my family, myself. I don't care about the same things anymore. Three months and two weeks. I don't want to go to grief counseling. I don't want to. Apparently I'd rather just sit here and cry.
Some day I'm going to have to pull my head out of my ass. And get my **** together. Seems so daunting ... Monumental...
Maybe today, I won't have that drink that I so desperately want.
Thanks for hanging with me. I know I'm not easy...
Some day I'm going to have to pull my head out of my ass. And get my **** together. Seems so daunting ... Monumental...
Maybe today, I won't have that drink that I so desperately want.
Thanks for hanging with me. I know I'm not easy...
(((Raider))) Don't be sorry, you are in a lot of pain. I understand. I lost my mom, who was my best friend, in a car accident 28 years ago and I still have my "hard days" after all of these years. It is hard when one is hit with such a tragic loss with no warning. I hope you decide to get some grief counseling. I sure wish I would have.
So moving on and moving forward..what's next for you Raider? Do you have an action plan?
Right now you remind me of someone who was itching badly and decided to take a mud bath in quicksand. How long before it completely swallows you?
Right now you remind me of someone who was itching badly and decided to take a mud bath in quicksand. How long before it completely swallows you?
((((Raider)))). I did not want to go to grief counseling either. Drinking was so much easier and I could do that alone and wallow. In a moment of clarity I realized I was hurting others as much as I was hurting myself.
Please go, you deserve better. your family and friends deserve better and they need you too.
Love from Lenina
Please go, you deserve better. your family and friends deserve better and they need you too.
Love from Lenina
I am so very sorry for the loss of your sister. I have a sister whom I am very close with and I can't even imagine what it would be like to lose her. Don't be sorry, we all falter once in a while. I can relate to the TEMPORARY relief drinking can sometimes provide from grief. I lost a child in my family whom I was extremely close to cancer and felt very much entitled to drink after that and did for a while. It most certainly made my depression worse and it clearly did not bring him back. I know you know this. I honestly am so sorry about your loss and don't want you to cause yourself any additional pain and suffering from drinking. I see a grief counselor and have found it to be helpful. Nothing is going to ever make a huge loss like yours okay. It just becomes a new normal. Again, I'm sorry and here for you.
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