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Old 01-14-2015, 11:30 AM
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Drinking seems like an option right now

This depression **** sucks, it's totally ruining my life and the people around me are losing all patience with me.

5 weeks on this stupid ******* anti depressant and it's not done a thing to help

Anxiety in all situations now, eyes have been blurry for weeks. WEEKS ON END.

Sick of getting up being in the same predicament as the previous day.

My daughter must be wondering what the hell is up with her dad.

I've had it, I can't stand being like this, I can't work, sat at home on my own all day feeling diabolical and pretty much zero improvement since before Christmas

I may as well be drunk
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Old 01-14-2015, 11:37 AM
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I am in the exact same spot. 5 weeks on anti-depressant and all.

I don't have a fix. But there is one thing that I know for sure will not help.

One thing that will put me back to day one/square one and having to endure this whole thing all over again. All of the enduring I've done for the last few weeks will have gone to waste.

Yeah.

Tough it through with me - I'm right here Stewy. We can do this.
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Old 01-14-2015, 11:37 AM
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Stewy, call your dr and make an appointment as soon as possible. If that doesn't work, go to an ER and explain your situation. There is hope, don't give up.
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Old 01-14-2015, 11:39 AM
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Your only going to have to sober up again it aint worth it stewy

Can you got to A&E and speak to them there rather than drink

it aint worth the pain Stewy

A&E will help you

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Old 01-14-2015, 11:42 AM
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Hi.
I hope you can seek some competent medical help before giving up as the return success rate is dismal.
It’s been said for many years that alcoholism never gets better when we are drinking ALWAYS worse.

Please explore other recourses/tests for more help. Usually drinking is like an iceberg, most of it is covered underneath which we need to explore.

BE WELL
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Old 01-14-2015, 11:42 AM
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Stewy, I am sorry things are still so difficult. I was hoping that today would be your day.

The ER sounds like a good idea. You should not have to suffer like this.
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Old 01-14-2015, 11:47 AM
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Stewy.... Don't do it! You've come to far sir...
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Old 01-14-2015, 11:47 AM
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If your hair catches fire, if a semi-truck runs through your house, if your fee-fees (feelings) aren't enjoyable... DO NOT ****ing DRINK!

If you do drink, you'll have only proven to yourself that you can't make it through this situation sober. If you stay sober, you gain valuable experience in staying sober through difficult times that are surely to recur.

I learned that mindset in AA, where my home group's moto is DON'T DRINK! That phrase seemed glib and idiotic to me on 1st glance. What it means to me now is that I do whatever I have to do to not drink... call my sponsor, go to a meeting, call a friend, call central services, find a meeting right ****ing now, mop floors at a detox, call my doctor, drop to my knees and pray in a public bathroom, punch a cop (no, don't, but you'll wind up in jail before you pick up a drink!).

Call your doctor, go to an ER, go to a meeting (if you attend meetings), call a friend... watch reruns of The Office... whatever. Just DO NOT DRINK, NO MATTER WHAT!
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Old 01-14-2015, 11:53 AM
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Please don't undo the work done so far by drinking today. It's the worst option. Please consider getting some immediate medical and professional help if your depression is unbearable.
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Old 01-14-2015, 12:19 PM
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There is zero improvement ABSOLUTE ZERO still in an anxious state and haven't even got started on getting back into normality.

I can't do this anymore, it's not ok, it's a real mess this. I want my identity back, the 30 year old dad, boyfriend and guitar player, NOT THIS ******* IMPOSTER
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Old 01-14-2015, 12:20 PM
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Since each one of us is made up differently
inside, then meds affect each of us differently
too. Where one med works for one it may
not work the same for another.

I was sober a good long time before
I finally addressed my chemical imbalance.
In fact if I hadn't seen a commercial
on tv about chemical imbalnces within
the body I would never have known
what was happening inside me other
than learning to remain sober each day.

Anyway, it took me a good yr before I
found the right meds to use for my anxiety.
Each one I tried had different side effects
that wasn't agreeing with my own body.

It took time to take one med and allow
it to get into my system, then get out
of it before trying another to see if it agreed
with me.

I worked closely with my physician being
honest with them and letting them know
how I was doing until the right med was
found and agreed with me.

You can do the same to achieve a healthier,
happier quality of life and sobriety.
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Old 01-14-2015, 12:21 PM
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Please give the ER a try, Stewy. Whatever you do, don't drink.
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Old 01-14-2015, 12:29 PM
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How many of us need to drive over to Stewy's place , duct tape him and drag him off to a meeting???
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Old 01-14-2015, 12:38 PM
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I really sympathize Stewy. Really.

I drank on top of those feelings. I knew that drinking would make it worse, but I did it anyway. What I didn't realize was how much worse it would be. Like falling into an infinite void that sucked up my self-hatred for fuel. I couldn't even get numb. Horror show stuff. Bad enough to remember -- I can't ever get drunk again.

Talk to your doctor. Mine gave me something for the anxiety which was really useful in the early weeks and sometimes still in bad situations.
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Drinking is an option but exercise is not. WOW!
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Old 01-14-2015, 12:41 PM
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Originally Posted by Nofearnobeer View Post
How many of us need to drive over to Stewy's place , duct tape him and drag him off to a meeting???
I'll ride with you!

C'mon Stewy....hang in there. AT times things get worse before they are better.

Stay the course.....

(((hugs))))
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Old 01-14-2015, 12:53 PM
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Originally Posted by Nofearnobeer View Post
How many of us need to drive over to Stewy's place , duct tape him and drag him off to a meeting???

Or the ER. Come on, Stewy. Help is out there.
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Old 01-14-2015, 01:08 PM
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Chanting: STEWY , STEWY , STEWY , STEWY , STEWY , STEWY , STEWY , STEWY!

Co'Mon Stewy!

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Old 01-14-2015, 01:51 PM
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Feeling for you stewy. I remember having awful depression and anxiety. It really is debilitating and I remember feeling like I was losing myself and going mad. It was like the world and myself were in slow motion. Went on one type of antidepressant but they just gave me nightmares/insomnia and dry eyes. I switched to sertraline and it worked a treat. Go back to the docs and have a chat. Your answers not in the bottle.
Whatever you do DO NOT DRINK!!!! These feelings will pass. You will get better. Hang on in there
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Old 01-14-2015, 02:22 PM
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Stewy if you go to your local A&E they will help
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