trading 1 bad habit 4 another

[rainbow274u]

you know what scares me the most is getting off meth and then start drinking to much<<<,this addiction thing is hard :dead2:
what to do????i need help

[Robrt31]

i really wish i knew im pretty much in the same boat with you

[Moontime]

I traded an active drug addiction for an active spiritual recovery journey. I am free from meth, alcohol, crack, heroin all these symptoms of my disease. What I did was found NA in my area and went to a meeting a day and didn't pickup no matter what. I know that desperation to want something different, I lived it for so long. Today, I have a desire to stay clean, and haven't picked up in almost a year (7 more days!!! Whoo-hoo!!)

[lulu70]

I know you probably already know this, Rainbow, but once an addict, always an addict and alcohol is as much a drug as all the others are. I know I could not have come as far as I have without working a program of recovery. It is not easy, but it is far better than the life I was leading as a druggie/drunk. Are you attending meetings? They are a Godsend.

Hang in there, and keep posting!!

[rainbow274u]

no i'm not in any program besides this one.
i'm a loser i used today(i am so sad)
i hate drugs why do i do them???
i want my good clean life back i miss it so bad.
i need Jesus more now than ever

[butch]

im sorry. its all hard and i can tell you hurt. i cant even put it all into words. it'll be ok . I love you

Hi Rainbow,
Maybe it's time to follow Moontime and Lulu's lead and get into a recovery support group. It's not easy starting a new strategy...so many details to figure out...but take it one step at a time and take deep breaths inbetween.
I'm sure you can dialogue with SR and get started. Don't get stuck in a rut after you've come this far. It's just a speedbump and then you're back on your way. Good luck and let us know how you're doing. :heart:

[Moontime]

I agree with Peace. Once I was sick and tired knowing my way wasn't working, I tried something different. I went to meetings, I reached out. Keep Coming Back! I love this site, but I needed the face to face meetings to get me grounded with a foundation.

[Timebuster]

Rainbow

First your not a loser you’re a human being consumed in addiction.
We are addicts and we are seeking recovery. We have to surrender to this disease and you and me have to go to any length to get there. Feeling hopeless, Self loathing the emptiness and fear are the self destructive patterns we only know. Our live have become totally unmanageable and these has to change. A glimpse of reality has awoken you and something in you know its time. Enough is enough. Recovery is hard work but not as hard as the life you been living. Its time to let go. We have to stop being trapped in the illusion of what if, if only and just one more time. These is not working anymore. It’s the same results over and over. We have to stop being prisoners of our own minds. We can beat this but we cant do it alone our track record proves that. Rainbow you’re an addict just like me and you have Choices. If you want this bad enough then go to any length to get it. There are plenty of support groups that you can go to. The rooms of NA is my choice. The only person that knows the pain that am going through is another addict and there I seek my recovery.

God Bless
Timebuster

[Dan]

I was a cocaine junkie from 1987 to 1990.
I stopped cold. Changed cities. Figured I was King of the Hill.
I decided a dozen beers of fridays was cool. After all, I had beaten cocaine.
Didn't consider myself an addict. Didn't want to hear about it. Didn't need help.
13 years later, this chronic alcoholic ended up in a bathtub with a bottle of vodka, a bag of dope and a slashed wrist.
Alcohol is a drug.
Period.
Welcome to SoberRecovery Rainbow. This community is many things miraculous. But a recovery program... Nope.
I hope you look into getting together with other recovering addicts face to face.
They have found a way to stay clean, and will gladly share their experience with you.

www.na.org

Hi Rainbow,
All of us are gathered here to tell you that you can't beat this addiction alone. You are looking for wholeness in your life in the wrong way. You will become whole again when you reach out to others. Find a support group and then come back and teach to us what you are learning. Then you will be on the road to becoming whole again.

[Robrt31]

tell them you are a sex addict thats how to get some real help in this place

[MootPoint]

I "beat" crack in early 2001, only to relapse in 2002. I wound up on a ventilator from alcohol poisening April 12, 2003.

Addiction is addiction is addiction.

You need help from other addicts. ONe addict can't do it alone. I tried, and the vent is where I wound up.

Don't trade meth for the bottle. Trade meth for NA. Check out that link that Dan gave you. Take care of yourself!