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First time here
Hello all, today I decided to take control of my life and stop drinking. I can finally admit I don't control my drinking, it controls me. I'm so tired of the battle. I don't want to be so sick in my soul anymore. The guilt, anxiety and general feelings of zero self-worth. When I drink, there is no off switch. I have to be done with it.
I'm looking forward to reading posts and learning from the members.
I'm looking forward to reading posts and learning from the members.
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Hello and welcome.
I have no shut off switch, either. Once I started there was no telling when it would end.
I share with you those feelings of guilt, remorse and shame along with the horrible anxiety that came after drinking.
I had to, after many, many attempts, take control of drinking. And that was by not drinking at all.
I tried and failed so many times. Even with solemn vows, pouring it out and trying to control it. It was all to no avail until I accepted the fact that I was beat. Alcohol won.
And I was a bad drunk. A serious drinker. Tomorrow will be three years ten months since alcohol crossed my lips if don't drink today. And that's all I can do, not drink today. I won't think about tomorrow until it gets here.
What keeps me sober is always remembering my drinking days. I wasn't even living any more, I was merely existing. It was a fate I wouldn't wish on any one.
Keep fresh in your mind how you feel now, friend, and remember it the next time you want a drink and realize you never have to feel that way again.
Best to you and I hope to read more from you. You can do it.
I have no shut off switch, either. Once I started there was no telling when it would end.
I share with you those feelings of guilt, remorse and shame along with the horrible anxiety that came after drinking.
I had to, after many, many attempts, take control of drinking. And that was by not drinking at all.
I tried and failed so many times. Even with solemn vows, pouring it out and trying to control it. It was all to no avail until I accepted the fact that I was beat. Alcohol won.
And I was a bad drunk. A serious drinker. Tomorrow will be three years ten months since alcohol crossed my lips if don't drink today. And that's all I can do, not drink today. I won't think about tomorrow until it gets here.
What keeps me sober is always remembering my drinking days. I wasn't even living any more, I was merely existing. It was a fate I wouldn't wish on any one.
Keep fresh in your mind how you feel now, friend, and remember it the next time you want a drink and realize you never have to feel that way again.
Best to you and I hope to read more from you. You can do it.
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I don't want to be so sick in my soul anymore.
I don't have any advice, but I just wanted to welcome you. I can really identify with your post, and I hope you stay and continue to take advantage of everything this forum has to offer! We're here to support you.
I don't have any advice, but I just wanted to welcome you. I can really identify with your post, and I hope you stay and continue to take advantage of everything this forum has to offer! We're here to support you.
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Originally Posted by Chifan7 
Hello all, today I decided to take control of my life and stop drinking. I can finally admit I don't control my drinking, it controls me. I'm so tired of the battle. I don't want to be so sick in my soul anymore. The guilt, anxiety and general feelings of zero self-worth. When I drink, there is no off switch. I have to be done with it.
I'm looking forward to reading posts and learning from the members.
I'm looking forward to reading posts and learning from the members.
Hi and welcome.
Many here know well that feeling of despair and so many “I don’t knows.” Some quit drinking and don’t look back or bemoan the fact it was so much a part of their life and can’t continue without it.
Most here just cannot drink in safety and need to accept it along with being honest with themselves about their own drinking.
Part of the plan is to not drink one day at a time and make changes to accomplish this. This site is a good place for encouragement and suggestions if the forums are read and absorbed.
AA is helping millions world wide. Many programs work IF we work them and don’t slack off, which is too common once we feel better.
The words KEEP COMING were a big part of my getting sober.
BE WELL
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Join Date: Oct 2014
Location: Key Largo, Florida
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Excellent Choice Who ever thought drinking would be so tiring . One is to many 2 not enough for me. Be strong you will enjoy the new sober life. Its a lot easier then the drinking life. Day 11 for me Im loving it and feel good about me , life and my future. My only regret is I took so long to make the choice, But I finally made it.
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