Common Anxieties That I Use To Have
Common Anxieties That I Use To Have
I wanted to share one of the more common anxieties that I use to have when I drank. This was pretty much all of the time if the circumstances were there, and I was just curious how common this is.
For example:
When I would attend a small dinner party, or some other small get together, I’d often (always) get a bit anxious that there won't be enough alcohol. Even if I had already tuned-up before I arrived.
If it was a group of 2-3 couples for example, and I learned that the host only purchased a 12-pack of beer for the evening, that would actually disturb me the entire night, even if I already had a decent amount of alcohol already in me. Just the fact that there’s only a modest limit of beer left would run through my mind the entire time, and sort of put a damper on evening. I’d actually get the desire to leave and go home where my booze was plentiful. (Just another booze annoyance that I don't miss.)
Is this a common trait?
For example:
When I would attend a small dinner party, or some other small get together, I’d often (always) get a bit anxious that there won't be enough alcohol. Even if I had already tuned-up before I arrived.
If it was a group of 2-3 couples for example, and I learned that the host only purchased a 12-pack of beer for the evening, that would actually disturb me the entire night, even if I already had a decent amount of alcohol already in me. Just the fact that there’s only a modest limit of beer left would run through my mind the entire time, and sort of put a damper on evening. I’d actually get the desire to leave and go home where my booze was plentiful. (Just another booze annoyance that I don't miss.)
Is this a common trait?
I would always monitor the booze situation when I went to other peoples' houses. If it wasn't much of a drinking occasion, I would be counting down the minutes until I could get home to really get my drink on.
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I would raid the hosts fridge when no one was looking and hide three to four beers in my backpack, and then keep drinking their stash.
Also annoying no matter where I went; the library, family dinner, hiking or rock climbing I needed beer or severe anxiety or depression would set it.
I am certain that many restaurant or library janitors were shocked to find dozens of tall cans in trash cans or shoved above light fixtures, where ever I could stash them..
I also drank anywhere from 10 to 15 beers at work daily and am amazed that no one noticed.. But they would ask me if I was alright when I was out of money and booze like something wasn't right lol..
Backwards way to live straight up
Also annoying no matter where I went; the library, family dinner, hiking or rock climbing I needed beer or severe anxiety or depression would set it.
I am certain that many restaurant or library janitors were shocked to find dozens of tall cans in trash cans or shoved above light fixtures, where ever I could stash them..
I also drank anywhere from 10 to 15 beers at work daily and am amazed that no one noticed.. But they would ask me if I was alright when I was out of money and booze like something wasn't right lol..
Backwards way to live straight up
I used to have this same issue! So to be on the safe side, I'd usually bring a small bottle in my purse to sneak and drink from in the bathroom... >.< I cringe at the thought because more often than not, this made for horrifically embarrassing morning-after memories (or lack thereof.)
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Thanks for the replies. I see that is a fairly common trait.
This forum is really the only resource that I've participated in since I've quit drinking. I knew there were common denominators with alcoholics, but I really did not realize just how common or how many.
As I read through this site, I see people with MANY of the same exact routines and traits that I had too, and I was curious about this one as well. I see I was not alone with these feelings of anxiety either, and over such a small thing too. I think that just speaks to the power of alcohol if you're (were) a problem drinker, like me. Scary stuff!
Thanks again for the replies.
...but is there any other reason why you ask?
As I read through this site, I see people with MANY of the same exact routines and traits that I had too, and I was curious about this one as well. I see I was not alone with these feelings of anxiety either, and over such a small thing too. I think that just speaks to the power of alcohol if you're (were) a problem drinker, like me. Scary stuff!
Thanks again for the replies.
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When I got sober, there were times when I'd still be irritated that the host/hostess/destination (in my estimation) didn't stock enough booze for the people who were drinking.
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Yeah, if I was drinking on a certain night and if there wasn't at least 12 beer that I had available to me, then I would be all out of sorts. I wouldn't start drinking until I had at least 12 beer - preferably more - available.
Yes, we do have this in common. Could not believe the host/hostess didn't have enough alcohol available. Also I still notice when people leave a half glass of booze on the table and leave...What's up with that. Stinkin' Thinkin'
I have not experienced that since I've been sober. I just feel sorry for the alcoholics who are still suffering but never upset with the host.
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I can totally relate, used to happen to me all the time. When you were leaving a party did you ever get strange looks because you were taking with you the booze you brought "for the host"? I never realized how strange it was to leave a nice dinner party with half of my twelve pack or a half-bottle of wine that I carried in with me. I guess normal people just leave that behind? I needed it for the rest of the night... So glad I never have to do that again.
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