letitgo

Made 90 and 40 but back to day one. Ocd thoughts of relapse became too powerful. Constantly thinking about that next drink. I have good tools but could not overcome my mental obsession. I recognize drinking out of boredom and mental dependence. I am not discouraged and ready to start over. Feel like I just needed to get the urge out. Forward and upward.

PurpleKnight

Go at things again, but remember that throughts are not actions, you get to choose whether to act on them, ignore them, or maybe try to reach out for support before doing anything, there's plenty of people here on SR that can give you a second opinion on what your mind is trying to convince you of!!

You can do this!!

Nonsensical

Welcome back!

You just fed your addiction, so it is unlikely to leave you alone. What will you do the next time you feel like you just need to get the urge out?

justinJustQuit

I don't know about you, but when I get the urge and intense cravings, I think about detox and how terrible that was.


I think about the trip to the ER from the panic and massively high blood pressure.

I go to a meeting or I get on here and talk about it. It really helps a ton.

2muchpain

When I get those cravings, I figure it's just my mind playing tricks on me, and try to relax because I know it will pass, and it always does. Old habits are hard to break, and they will occasionally pop up from time to time. I'm not saying its easy; I've come close many times to drop by the liquor store, but remembering the living nightmare I went through not long ago, and the tough detox I had to endure, helped me to get through those times. Good luck.