back to square ONE. time: 10:24am - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

anathaine · 03-22-2013, 01:37 AM

Hi
So I am rebooting myself, we are highly sophisticated machines and so taking all these chemicals is like repeatedly throwing your hard drive against the wall and then pouring lard over it and still expecting it to work.
So. 1. I am clean except for prescribes anti depressants
2. Took one mg of alzam for withdrawal. I don't feel guilty about that.
3.Going to take vit B
4. Going to NA tonight (this is very difficult as I suffer from Social Anxiety but I must go I must want to go so I will go right? Ok. Ill try not to obsess over it the whole day.
5. Pray like I'm about to die violently.
Gone back to my annoying Agnostic phase but I am rather going to discuss it on my Blog.

I'm just glad there IS a step one. Imagine u screwed up and used and have to walk back to square one and it's not there.? Is that game over?
Thx for reading

mecanix · 03-22-2013, 01:57 AM

Keep on with it ,
Bestwishes, M

anathaine · 03-22-2013, 02:04 AM

Thank u so much for responding. There are no answers anyway!
It means A LOT to me that you commented coz I'm in a very powerless space, but the ppl on here give me strength. (And I was just thinking aloud!)

Panache · 03-22-2013, 02:08 AM

Own that Step one! You can do it

Best of luck with your meeting.

mecanix · 03-22-2013, 02:31 AM

Hi anathaine,
thanks for your reply

Sounds like you are making the right decisions to get the help you need ,

SR is sometimes a bit quite when our American friends are asleep

Bestwishes, M

soberclover · 03-22-2013, 03:32 AM

I like your idea of a NA meeting..........NA helped save my life many moons ago. I'm glad you posted and shared your thoughts/experience.....it does help the rest of us in cyberworld!

bi11fish · 03-22-2013, 03:34 AM

We are not sophisticated machines or we would not keep doing the stupid sh** we do. We are very complicated individuals with all the human failings!

misspond · 03-22-2013, 06:06 AM

Good to read your post Anathaine - let us know how your meeting goes and keep posting x

***Anna*** · 03-22-2013, 06:14 AM

I hope your day goes well.

03-22-2013, 01:37 AM	#1 (permalink)
anathaine Member Join Date: Mar 2013 Location: cape town Posts: 59 Blog Entries: 6	back to square ONE. time: 10:24am Hi So I am rebooting myself, we are highly sophisticated machines and so taking all these chemicals is like repeatedly throwing your hard drive against the wall and then pouring lard over it and still expecting it to work. So. 1. I am clean except for prescribes anti depressants 2. Took one mg of alzam for withdrawal. I don't feel guilty about that. 3.Going to take vit B 4. Going to NA tonight (this is very difficult as I suffer from Social Anxiety but I must go I must want to go so I will go right? Ok. Ill try not to obsess over it the whole day. 5. Pray like I'm about to die violently. Gone back to my annoying Agnostic phase but I am rather going to discuss it on my Blog. I'm just glad there IS a step one. Imagine u screwed up and used and have to walk back to square one and it's not there.? Is that game over? Thx for reading

03-22-2013, 01:57 AM	#2 (permalink)
mecanix Member Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: uk Posts: 1,392 Blog Entries: 8	Keep on with it , Bestwishes, M __________________ Ups and downs still happen, it's how we deal with them that counts. gave up 3rd sept 2011. I post because i have some experience , not because i have any answers for you .

03-22-2013, 02:04 AM	#3 (permalink)
anathaine Member Join Date: Mar 2013 Location: cape town Posts: 59 Blog Entries: 6	appreciated greatly Thank u so much for responding. There are no answers anyway! It means A LOT to me that you commented coz I'm in a very powerless space, but the ppl on here give me strength. (And I was just thinking aloud!)

03-22-2013, 02:08 AM	#4 (permalink)
Panache Member Join Date: Mar 2013 Posts: 660	Own that Step one! You can do it Best of luck with your meeting. __________________ "When you strike at a king, you must kill him" - Ralph Waldo Emerson

03-22-2013, 02:31 AM	#5 (permalink)
mecanix Member Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: uk Posts: 1,392 Blog Entries: 8	Hi anathaine, thanks for your reply Sounds like you are making the right decisions to get the help you need , SR is sometimes a bit quite when our American friends are asleep Bestwishes, M __________________ Ups and downs still happen, it's how we deal with them that counts. gave up 3rd sept 2011. I post because i have some experience , not because i have any answers for you .

03-22-2013, 03:32 AM	#6 (permalink)
soberclover Member Join Date: Jan 2013 Location: Vermont Posts: 537	I like your idea of a NA meeting..........NA helped save my life many moons ago. I'm glad you posted and shared your thoughts/experience.....it does help the rest of us in cyberworld!

03-22-2013, 03:34 AM	#7 (permalink)
bi11fish Member Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: Pine Grove, PA Posts: 101	We are not sophisticated machines or we would not keep doing the stupid sh** we do. We are very complicated individuals with all the human failings!

03-22-2013, 06:06 AM	#8 (permalink)
misspond Member Join Date: Mar 2013 Location: UK Posts: 114 Blog Entries: 16	Good to read your post Anathaine - let us know how your meeting goes and keep posting x

03-22-2013, 06:14 AM	#9 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 27,841	I hope your day goes well. __________________ Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Marianne Willianson

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