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Change4Better · 02-09-2013, 10:18 AM

I feel horrible today. Only venturing out of bed to eject the gatorade i can't keep down. Can't even call this my day 1 because I drank into the wee hours of the morning last night. Feeling scared, frustrated, sick, ashamed...all the bad emotions that are the side effects of another epic blackout binge. I'm going to start again, day 1 tomorrow, but jeez if only hangovers had fast forward buttons. Ugh. Starting meetings on Monday, that is if I don't feel terrible still.

mecanix · 02-09-2013, 10:30 AM

Great to see you C4b ,

Keep on making the right decisions .

Bestwishes, M

vegibean · 02-09-2013, 10:37 AM

Ugh, sounds like it was a bad one.

Feel better soon, and hope you can get back on your feet soon.

It's funny, because Friday would normally be a day where I'd want to drink but really, after a long week, I'm happy coming home and just relaxing, and I enjoy feeling awesome the next day.

Not to say I'm better, if you see my post on the board, it's when my head is swimming in much stuff that I've picked up over the last couple of weeks. I feel for ya.

ReadyAtLast · 02-09-2013, 10:37 AM

welcome back change,hope you feel better soon

SoberBella1 · 02-09-2013, 10:42 AM

Thank you for your post C4B. The voice in my head is telling me it is ok to drink today. I am trying to ignore it but your post helped me to realize I do not want to deal with the
hangover you are going through. Please pick yourself up & start again & thank you for helping me today.

**Dee74** · 02-09-2013, 12:05 PM

welcome back C4B

D

***Anna*** · 02-09-2013, 12:11 PM

I remember feeling the same way. Just know that you never have to go through this again.

Change4Better · 02-09-2013, 03:35 PM

Woke up a couple of hours ago with an awesome feeling... hunger! lol I think the worst is over. In the past, I have been assuming that such a horrible experience as this is/was would be enough fuel to stop me from drinking. You know, the lazy approach to getting sober. Totally NOT working for me!!

What I am going to do differently:
- Go to meetings, especially Friday nights. Maybe twice those nights.
- After this wk (when the nightsweats stop), start an exercise program
- Rediscover at least ONE hobby. Or pick up a new one. Anything to fill my time and my mind. Never more apparent than in my drinking life how dangerous my idle hands can be. *shudder*

Thanks for everyone's support on this site. I didn't hesitate for a moment to air my misery here, I knew I would find support and no one would kick me while I was down. *hugs*

***Hevyn*** · 02-09-2013, 03:37 PM

Hi Change. So glad to see you! I'm glad the worst is over. You never have to go back to that horrible place again.

Coldfusion · 02-09-2013, 03:40 PM

Change, it's good to see someone going at this with a plan (meetings, etc). Your chances of success are above average!

bigsombrero · 02-09-2013, 03:45 PM

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Originally Posted by Change4Better

What I am going to do differently:
- Go to meetings, especially Friday nights. Maybe twice those nights.
- After this wk (when the nightsweats stop), start an exercise program
- Rediscover at least ONE hobby. Or pick up a new one. Anything to fill my time and my mind. Never more apparent than in my drinking life how dangerous my idle hands can be. *shudder*

Those are pretty lofty goals there. Do you worry that maybe you are setting your expectations too high? You are planning ahead for the whole week already - in my experience I needed daily, sometimes hourly goals just to make it through the early goings. For me, keeping my thoughts and goals realistic and in-the-moment was most helpful early on. Good luck.

02-09-2013, 10:18 AM	#1 (permalink)
Change4Better Member Join Date: Sep 2012 Posts: 88	Starting again I feel horrible today. Only venturing out of bed to eject the gatorade i can't keep down. Can't even call this my day 1 because I drank into the wee hours of the morning last night. Feeling scared, frustrated, sick, ashamed...all the bad emotions that are the side effects of another epic blackout binge. I'm going to start again, day 1 tomorrow, but jeez if only hangovers had fast forward buttons. Ugh. Starting meetings on Monday, that is if I don't feel terrible still.

02-09-2013, 10:30 AM	#2 (permalink)
mecanix Member Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: uk Posts: 1,390 Blog Entries: 8	Great to see you C4b , Keep on making the right decisions . Bestwishes, M __________________ Ups and downs still happen, it's how we deal with them that counts. gave up 3rd sept 2011. I post because i have some experience , not because i have any answers for you .

02-09-2013, 10:37 AM	#3 (permalink)
vegibean Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: SE and then South some more Posts: 2,649	Ugh, sounds like it was a bad one. Feel better soon, and hope you can get back on your feet soon. It's funny, because Friday would normally be a day where I'd want to drink but really, after a long week, I'm happy coming home and just relaxing, and I enjoy feeling awesome the next day. Not to say I'm better, if you see my post on the board, it's when my head is swimming in much stuff that I've picked up over the last couple of weeks. I feel for ya. __________________ "When you're green, you grow, when you're ripe, you rot. Don't stop learning." ~ Unknown

02-09-2013, 12:05 PM	#6 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 65,608	welcome back C4B D __________________

02-09-2013, 12:11 PM	#7 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 27,831	I remember feeling the same way. Just know that you never have to go through this again. __________________ Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Marianne Willianson

02-09-2013, 10:37 AM	#4 (permalink)
ReadyAtLast Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Posts: 1,026	welcome back change,hope you feel better soon

02-09-2013, 10:42 AM	#5 (permalink)
SoberBella1 Member Join Date: Nov 2011 Posts: 32	Thank you for your post C4B. The voice in my head is telling me it is ok to drink today. I am trying to ignore it but your post helped me to realize I do not want to deal with the hangover you are going through. Please pick yourself up & start again & thank you for helping me today.

02-09-2013, 03:35 PM	#8 (permalink)
Change4Better Member Join Date: Sep 2012 Posts: 88	Woke up a couple of hours ago with an awesome feeling... hunger! lol I think the worst is over. In the past, I have been assuming that such a horrible experience as this is/was would be enough fuel to stop me from drinking. You know, the lazy approach to getting sober. Totally NOT working for me!! What I am going to do differently: - Go to meetings, especially Friday nights. Maybe twice those nights. - After this wk (when the nightsweats stop), start an exercise program - Rediscover at least ONE hobby. Or pick up a new one. Anything to fill my time and my mind. Never more apparent than in my drinking life how dangerous my idle hands can be. shudder Thanks for everyone's support on this site. I didn't hesitate for a moment to air my misery here, I knew I would find support and no one would kick me while I was down. hugs

02-09-2013, 03:37 PM	#9 (permalink)
*Hevyn* Learning to live again Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Upstate New York Posts: 11,133	Hi Change. So glad to see you! I'm glad the worst is over. You never have to go back to that horrible place again. __________________ You are so much more than the worst thing you've ever done. - Fr. Gregory Boyle, Homeboy Industries Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it well and serenely, and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. - Emerson

02-09-2013, 03:40 PM	#10 (permalink)
Coldfusion Sobriety is Traditional Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: Northwest Washington Posts: 1,597	Change, it's good to see someone going at this with a plan (meetings, etc). Your chances of success are above average! __________________ When I accept the whole range of gifts from my creator, I am ready for the school of life. --Anne Wilson Schaef

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