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sunriseshell · 12-04-2012, 10:49 PM

My birthday present to myself is to make a commitment and stick with it.
I am done with alcohol! I have been wanting to quit for a while. I am more of a binge drinker than everyday but this last year I was laid off from work and found myself drinking more. I know alcohol is everywhere, but the beach culture and tourist destination makes it so hard to ditch. I am going to do it this time!
Please help support me. I am want this so bad and tired of feeling crappy. The hangovers have been getting worse and worse. Not being able to sleep it off and mental confusion. Anyone else get that?
Aloha!

Sapling · 12-04-2012, 10:56 PM

Welcome to SR...You'll find support here....Have you looked into any recovery plans?...If not...Do some reading here...Ask some questions....It takes some effort...But it can be done. Glad you are here and good for you on making a life changing decision.

Scolova · 12-04-2012, 11:13 PM

Welcome sunriseshell, most of us are here on SR because we once felt that daily agony of alcohol withdraw, caught in the cycle of addiction. You can do it. You do not have to live that way anymore. If you are feeling really bad, see a doctor and let them know you are detoxing, it can be dangerous.
Best Wishes

IndaMiricale · 12-04-2012, 11:19 PM

Glad you found us.. And welcome aboard.

Giving up the booze has just been beyond words.

So keep posting and reading , lots of great support here..

mahalo nui loa..

Good love , Inda

sunriseshell · 12-05-2012, 12:26 AM

Thank-you everyone! I found the chat room tonight and feel better!
I started crying when I got on and there are some awesome people on here.
Really want to do this!

sunriseshell · 12-05-2012, 03:15 PM

So now that i decided to put myself first, I can see that i have to end this co-d back and forth relationship. He is an addict - hard drugs off and on. He did rehab but now I realize the pattern is every 2-3 months relapse and does the 'feel bad for me' thing. He slept in a park, got his car towed, walked for hours, hurt his back and complaining. I am so over it and have a few ties that I have to clear up asap to do the final 'break off'. He works at the house I manage doing carpentry so there is a money thing and work thing tied in. I realized today that i like to hide things - like my alcohol and weed issues and my bad relationship and don't want people to know what I am struggling with. He has gotten to the point where it is so obvious he is a mess that I can't hide from it. And I know this is only the co-d part. I can't believe I have let this train wreck go on for so many years....want to change and have him out of my life for good!

hypochondriac · 12-05-2012, 03:25 PM

Welcome to SR sunriseshell

***Hevyn*** · 12-05-2012, 03:31 PM

Pleased to meet you, sunriseshell. You sound determined. A better life is waiting for you.

dragon12 · 12-05-2012, 03:33 PM

Sunrisehell,
Good luck on your journey!

cat1961 · 12-05-2012, 03:43 PM

Hey sunriseshell (btw - I luv your name!)

I'm glad you found your way here and want to make a decision to give up drinking and the "other half". Someone on hard drugs is certainly not a good influence for someone wanting to give up the booze.

I wish you luck with everything and have a great sober birthday!

Keep reading and writing here!

sunriseshell · 12-05-2012, 04:02 PM

Thanks Cat. He is passed out sleeping now. I should be glad I am leaving to go to big island. was supposed to leave today but was so hungover yesterday and my bday is tomorrow. Instead of totally getting upset with myself. I am just happy that it all 'clicked' and now I can spend a quiet bday tomorrow and rest and relax and head out on Friday!
yes, I realized as I was talking to the x and saying 'you should have done this'. I stopped and said I need to stop saying what you should do, you do what you want anyways....I need to truly focus on me.
I went to see my family in Oct. and when I got back gave him the cold shoulder but he managed to start staying at my place again. Probably because of the weed. He has it and I don't and I have had an addiction to that and then here we are in Dec. back doing the dance again. He disappeared for 4 days last week and I realized he isn't going to stop doing that and I can't go on with it anymore and talking doesn't work!

sunriseshell · 12-05-2012, 04:03 PM

Talking to him anyways....
I must be sick to be with someone like him...and hung up on it.
He is a great guy who has been overcome with meth relapses and weed and sometimes alcohol and who knows what....
anyways, time to focus on me! Looking forward to feeling better!!!!!! At least better than yesterday but still look not so hot!

Delilah1 · 12-05-2012, 10:37 PM

Welcome Sunriseshell!! You will find great people on SR, and you are giving yourself an incredible birthday present!

Alex41 · 12-06-2012, 02:43 AM

Day one for me too today. I'm sat in the doctors surgery waiting to see if he will give me a detox. Gonna need some support but thank fully I know where to come.

sunriseshell · 12-06-2012, 02:46 AM

Hi Alex,
What is a detox? Does that include meds or rehab?
I am on Day 2 now, actually because it is after midnight!
This site saved my life yesterday. I had a super bad hangover after a random party
night and I couldn't sleep. Chatted in the chat room for a long time and got support.
My birthday is tomorrow - oops today!
One day at a time right!
Blessings!

Alex41 · 12-14-2012, 03:43 PM

Sorry sunriseshell. Sorry iTs taken a while to reply but it has been a battle over the last week. The national health service in Britain ain't easy Went to my docs last week and my next referral wasn't till 10th Jan. I had to kick some ass and quote the terms of the Nhs before I got two appointments yesterday and now have my home detox planned for Monday. I have to stay with my MOm which is a bit weird but work are a great support and dont mind me having the week off. I can't wait. How are things going with you? x

12-04-2012, 10:49 PM	#1 (permalink)
sunriseshell Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: Honolulu, Hawaii Posts: 35	1st day My birthday present to myself is to make a commitment and stick with it. I am done with alcohol! I have been wanting to quit for a while. I am more of a binge drinker than everyday but this last year I was laid off from work and found myself drinking more. I know alcohol is everywhere, but the beach culture and tourist destination makes it so hard to ditch. I am going to do it this time! Please help support me. I am want this so bad and tired of feeling crappy. The hangovers have been getting worse and worse. Not being able to sleep it off and mental confusion. Anyone else get that? Aloha!

12-04-2012, 11:13 PM	#3 (permalink)
Scolova dude in recovery Join Date: Jan 2011 Location: Gulf Coast, TX Posts: 1,506 Blog Entries: 2	Welcome sunriseshell, most of us are here on SR because we once felt that daily agony of alcohol withdraw, caught in the cycle of addiction. You can do it. You do not have to live that way anymore. If you are feeling really bad, see a doctor and let them know you are detoxing, it can be dangerous. Best Wishes __________________ ScotA "I've never seen anyone drink themselves smart, successful or happy. Most end up broke, bitter and alone. <anonymous>

12-04-2012, 11:19 PM	#4 (permalink)
IndaMiricale Powerless over Alcohol Join Date: May 2011 Location: Trudging the Road to Happy Destiny! Posts: 4,020	Glad you found us.. And welcome aboard. Giving up the booze has just been beyond words. So keep posting and reading , lots of great support here.. mahalo nui loa.. Good love , Inda __________________ "The only real thing in life are dreams, which nature cant touch with decay." Bob Dylan "Each day,somewhere in the world ,recovery begins when one alcoholic talks with another alcoholic , sharing experience,strength and hope."

12-05-2012, 03:15 PM	#6 (permalink)
sunriseshell Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: Honolulu, Hawaii Posts: 35	Co-d X boyfriend just showed up So now that i decided to put myself first, I can see that i have to end this co-d back and forth relationship. He is an addict - hard drugs off and on. He did rehab but now I realize the pattern is every 2-3 months relapse and does the 'feel bad for me' thing. He slept in a park, got his car towed, walked for hours, hurt his back and complaining. I am so over it and have a few ties that I have to clear up asap to do the final 'break off'. He works at the house I manage doing carpentry so there is a money thing and work thing tied in. I realized today that i like to hide things - like my alcohol and weed issues and my bad relationship and don't want people to know what I am struggling with. He has gotten to the point where it is so obvious he is a mess that I can't hide from it. And I know this is only the co-d part. I can't believe I have let this train wreck go on for so many years....want to change and have him out of my life for good!

12-05-2012, 03:25 PM	#7 (permalink)
hypochondriac Member Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: UK Posts: 4,274	Welcome to SR sunriseshell __________________ “The future you have tomorrow, won't be the same future you had yesterday.” ― Chuck Palahniuk, Rant

12-04-2012, 10:56 PM	#2 (permalink)
Sapling AA Member Join Date: Dec 2011 Location: Between Meetings Posts: 9,004	Welcome to SR...You'll find support here....Have you looked into any recovery plans?...If not...Do some reading here...Ask some questions....It takes some effort...But it can be done. Glad you are here and good for you on making a life changing decision.

12-05-2012, 12:26 AM	#5 (permalink)
sunriseshell Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: Honolulu, Hawaii Posts: 35	Thank-you everyone! I found the chat room tonight and feel better! I started crying when I got on and there are some awesome people on here. Really want to do this!

12-05-2012, 03:31 PM	#8 (permalink)
*Hevyn* Learning to live again Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Upstate New York Posts: 11,118	Pleased to meet you, sunriseshell. You sound determined. A better life is waiting for you. __________________ You are so much more than the worst thing you've ever done. - Fr. Gregory Boyle, Homeboy Industries Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it well and serenely, and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. - Emerson

12-05-2012, 03:33 PM	#9 (permalink)
dragon12 Member Join Date: Dec 2011 Posts: 206	Sunrisehell, Good luck on your journey!

12-05-2012, 03:43 PM	#10 (permalink)
cat1961 Member Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: Florida Posts: 605	Hey sunriseshell (btw - I luv your name!) I'm glad you found your way here and want to make a decision to give up drinking and the "other half". Someone on hard drugs is certainly not a good influence for someone wanting to give up the booze. I wish you luck with everything and have a great sober birthday! Keep reading and writing here! __________________ Sobriety Date: March 25, 2013 "Nothing good comes from drinking......" ~ Pictures posted on my profile with the shell ornaments ~

12-05-2012, 04:02 PM	#11 (permalink)
sunriseshell Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: Honolulu, Hawaii Posts: 35	Thanks Cat. He is passed out sleeping now. I should be glad I am leaving to go to big island. was supposed to leave today but was so hungover yesterday and my bday is tomorrow. Instead of totally getting upset with myself. I am just happy that it all 'clicked' and now I can spend a quiet bday tomorrow and rest and relax and head out on Friday! yes, I realized as I was talking to the x and saying 'you should have done this'. I stopped and said I need to stop saying what you should do, you do what you want anyways....I need to truly focus on me. I went to see my family in Oct. and when I got back gave him the cold shoulder but he managed to start staying at my place again. Probably because of the weed. He has it and I don't and I have had an addiction to that and then here we are in Dec. back doing the dance again. He disappeared for 4 days last week and I realized he isn't going to stop doing that and I can't go on with it anymore and talking doesn't work!

12-05-2012, 04:03 PM	#12 (permalink)
sunriseshell Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: Honolulu, Hawaii Posts: 35	Talking to him anyways.... I must be sick to be with someone like him...and hung up on it. He is a great guy who has been overcome with meth relapses and weed and sometimes alcohol and who knows what.... anyways, time to focus on me! Looking forward to feeling better!!!!!! At least better than yesterday but still look not so hot!

12-05-2012, 10:37 PM	#13 (permalink)
Delilah1 Member Join Date: Mar 2012 Location: San Diego Posts: 1,700	Welcome Sunriseshell!! You will find great people on SR, and you are giving yourself an incredible birthday present! __________________ Delilah “It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end.” ― Ernest Hemingway

12-06-2012, 02:43 AM	#14 (permalink)
Alex41 Member Join Date: Oct 2012 Location: Birmingham Posts: 31	Day one for me too today. I'm sat in the doctors surgery waiting to see if he will give me a detox. Gonna need some support but thank fully I know where to come.

12-06-2012, 02:46 AM	#15 (permalink)
sunriseshell Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: Honolulu, Hawaii Posts: 35	Hi Alex, What is a detox? Does that include meds or rehab? I am on Day 2 now, actually because it is after midnight! This site saved my life yesterday. I had a super bad hangover after a random party night and I couldn't sleep. Chatted in the chat room for a long time and got support. My birthday is tomorrow - oops today! One day at a time right! Blessings!

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12-14-2012, 03:43 PM	#16 (permalink)
Alex41 Member Join Date: Oct 2012 Location: Birmingham Posts: 31	Sorry sunriseshell. Sorry iTs taken a while to reply but it has been a battle over the last week. The national health service in Britain ain't easy Went to my docs last week and my next referral wasn't till 10th Jan. I had to kick some ass and quote the terms of the Nhs before I got two appointments yesterday and now have my home detox planned for Monday. I have to stay with my MOm which is a bit weird but work are a great support and dont mind me having the week off. I can't wait. How are things going with you? x