MycoolFitz

And realize I am still trying to learn what normal is. I may be retired but have plenty of work to do. I guess for me I guess recovery is a life time career.

Windancer

It may well be a lifetime career for all of us, Fitz. I liked your Buddhist post btw. It goes along with my belief system very nicely, so thanks for that

Thepatman

It's almost like learning how to walk again from scratch. Fitz, behing retired provides you with time, I'm a single dad so today was not easy. My son is 6, so I'm taking some me time, posting here. I feel out of wind and overwelmed. But I'm sober ;-)

MycoolFitz

And I am hoping for the best for you. I told my judge give me the chance and I'll go straight from this courtroom to treatment. And I did though I relapsed later and went back into treament. Least I new the system and staff.

Windancer

I wish I could do something like that but with the harsher laws I dont think that will happen. I am freakin' terrified. I sent in so much paperwork too proving what im doing to help myself...Im booked to go into an inpatient program in Dec and they know that and it didnt seem to make a difference.

Thepatman

Thanks Fitz. I know and am grateful I am still somewhat young to do this. Hope you health issues sort out. I feel for you everytime I see one of your post.

If you feel like it, lookup the benefits of weat grass juice. It's properties are extremelly regenerative and healing.

Blessings

MycoolFitz

I will a special meditation maybe it will catch the wind. Hang in there.

Thepatman

Windancer, that Avatar totally rocks. Sorry Out of subject here ;-)

Windancer

Thanks. I love horses and own 4. I train horses professionally (or i did before i got too deep in my addiction).
Sorry to hijack your thread, Fitz.

MycoolFitz

I just hang on by a thread anyway.

Windancer

You should become a writer Fitz. You have a wonderful witty way with words.

Thepatman

Totally! I be one to buy first copy.

MycoolFitz

Actually I had a book accepted for publication but then froze up before I finished it, relapsed erased it from my computer.

laurie6781

Just remember Recovery is a Journey, not a destination.

Windancer, your horses can do a lot to help you through your anxieties. Horses and dogs have helped me many times throughout my recovery, oh and a few sheep and goats. I always prefer to be with my animals than with humans. I have always been that way. In recovery I finally accepted that not only did I walk to a different drummer, but that it was A-OK that I did.

Love and hugs,

MycoolFitz

I do not have so much as a Goldfish anymore but they are hard to snuggle and are not such good listeners and dificult to take on a walk.

Windancer

Laurie, I agree. i dont know where Id be without my horses. I adore them. I should post some pics in my profile. I specialize in behaviour issues in horses using natural horsemanship methods. I work with many rescues that are destined for slaughter otherwise.

Fitz, too bad you deleted that! You should start writing again!

MycoolFitz

I do, on SR and it the most important writing I do, at least for me. My dad was an artist and before he died he destroyed his works. Guess it runs in the family ythough I have a few of his water colors and copies of some of his books. He was a cartoonist with quite a sense of humor.

Windancer

My mom is a writer. I love writing too. Poetry, and I bet I could write a great novel. I loved writing as a child as well.