First time EVER hitting 31 days!!!
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First time EVER hitting 31 days!!!
In the 5 years I have been a heroin addict I have never made it to 30 days nevermind 31!! I always caved after 1 or 2 weeks.
In the past, I would get to two weeks then I would tell myself I was doing good and "deserved" one "fun" day. The difference this time was I got to two weeks and thought to myself, "I deserve a lifetime of sobriety and happiness" and now I've made it to a month and and refuse to look back!
Having a recovery plan really makes a difference, and I wish I had put the effort into my recovery that I had put into my using a long time ago. I am struggling with finding my new identity. I no longer am defined by my drug use. I no longer have heroin to hide behind and although it is scary and I need to face life head on..I am finally ready for it.
I'm 22 years old and SO grateful for this site and everyone's stories because I really thought that I was untouchable. Sure I would withdraw when I stopped using but I always told myself "I'm young, I deserve to have fun, I need to live in the moment, all my friends do it, life is boring without the chase for the drugs and the high of drugs" and everyone here has opened my eyes.
I owe a lot to everyone here and can't say thank you enough. I know that this journey will continue to be hard but I also know from those on here that even the worst days are worth it in the end.
Hope everyone is having a good day
Maylie
In the past, I would get to two weeks then I would tell myself I was doing good and "deserved" one "fun" day. The difference this time was I got to two weeks and thought to myself, "I deserve a lifetime of sobriety and happiness" and now I've made it to a month and and refuse to look back!
Having a recovery plan really makes a difference, and I wish I had put the effort into my recovery that I had put into my using a long time ago. I am struggling with finding my new identity. I no longer am defined by my drug use. I no longer have heroin to hide behind and although it is scary and I need to face life head on..I am finally ready for it.
I'm 22 years old and SO grateful for this site and everyone's stories because I really thought that I was untouchable. Sure I would withdraw when I stopped using but I always told myself "I'm young, I deserve to have fun, I need to live in the moment, all my friends do it, life is boring without the chase for the drugs and the high of drugs" and everyone here has opened my eyes.
I owe a lot to everyone here and can't say thank you enough. I know that this journey will continue to be hard but I also know from those on here that even the worst days are worth it in the end.
Hope everyone is having a good day
Maylie
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Maylie congrats, I'm 27 myself and at the end of my drinking/drugging career heroin was my DOC. I don't need to tell you that it's an unsustainable lifestyle and evil and dangerous, etc. It's hard learning how to live without drugs but as you can see with 31 days, things do get better and life becomes less 'on-edge' with very high-ups and very low-downs. Are you going to NA? Do you have other addicts to help support you? Because relapse is a very serious threat with heroin and it is cunning, baffling, and powerful. You need to change people, places, and things, make sure you don't have any access to it. This is life or death, heroin wants to kill you. Sure it feels good and is fun, it wants to whisper in your ear "your only 22 you can quit later, just one more time." Lots of people have listened to that lie gone out and OD'd and had their lives cut short.
Remember, you may have another relapse in you, but you might not have another recovery in you. This is especially true with heroin.
Remember, you may have another relapse in you, but you might not have another recovery in you. This is especially true with heroin.
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Delilah congrats on 31 days too! Isn't it crazy how fast the years go by I almost couldn't believe it when I realized all my attempts to get sober spanned over 5 years! I'm proud of us for making it this far and I know we can do it if we keep up our current recovery plans!
Youngandclean I go to NA and also spend a lot of time meditating and working on my spiritual side, have a therapist and a doctor to consult for depression and anxiety medicine as part of my recovery program. My family is 100% behind me so I have them to call, plus here, plus NA, and some friends from law school that I know aren't in the drug scene. I moved 12 hours from my home town and broke contact with EVERYONE that I used to hang out with. For awhile I knew 2 people here that did drugs but I broke my lease and moved apartment complexs so I could have a real chance at recovery. Oh and I changed my phone number lol. I finally didn't set myself up for failure this time.
Youngandclean I go to NA and also spend a lot of time meditating and working on my spiritual side, have a therapist and a doctor to consult for depression and anxiety medicine as part of my recovery program. My family is 100% behind me so I have them to call, plus here, plus NA, and some friends from law school that I know aren't in the drug scene. I moved 12 hours from my home town and broke contact with EVERYONE that I used to hang out with. For awhile I knew 2 people here that did drugs but I broke my lease and moved apartment complexs so I could have a real chance at recovery. Oh and I changed my phone number lol. I finally didn't set myself up for failure this time.
Congratulations, Maylie!!
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Everyone's comments really just solidify in my mind that I am doing the right thing
Whenever I have a craving I try to come on here and remind myself why no matter
what happens or how I am feeling it is REALLY important to stay on the wagon.
Whenever I have a craving I try to come on here and remind myself why no matter
what happens or how I am feeling it is REALLY important to stay on the wagon.
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