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Razzle · 08-11-2012, 10:33 AM

I am new to admitting that I have an addiction and am in therapy but I need to hear from people who also struggle with addictions. Mine does not involve substances. After a long time abstinate and I get really down for some reason I know my addiction will perk me up and then I think I can get away with it.

So I start small and within a few days I an really it again. Before I start I think I can get away with it – who cares – it really does not have any consequences!!!

So then I am in it and I feel so much better – I have an anxiety disorder and early on when I am acting on the addiction it helps the anxiety. I feel like I am getting away with it and wahoo I am on a roll.

THEN after a few days of weeks the self flagellation starts – is God going to get me – will it make my anxiety worse – I am bad – to hell with it I will do it no matter what.....then I crash with severe
anxiety and physical symptoms.

Can anyone relate to this

2granddaughters · 08-11-2012, 11:16 AM

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Originally Posted by Razzle

I am new to admitting that I have an addiction and am in therapy but I need to hear from people who also struggle with addictions. Mine does not involve substances. After a long time abstinate and I get really down for some reason I know my addiction will perk me up and then I think I can get away with it.

So I start small and within a few days I an really it again. Before I start I think I can get away with it – who cares – it really does not have any consequences!!!

So then I am in it and I feel so much better – I have an anxiety disorder and early on when I am acting on the addiction it helps the anxiety. I feel like I am getting away with it and wahoo I am on a roll.

THEN after a few days of weeks the self flagellation starts – is God going to get me – will it make my anxiety worse – I am bad – to hell with it I will do it no matter what.....then I crash with severe
anxiety and physical symptoms.

Can anyone relate to this

You sound like an average alky to me... what does your therapist say about the merry-go-round you are on ?

All the best.

Bob R

AngelwithWings · 08-11-2012, 11:39 AM

I'm amazed about how well you managed to word this post.

It's not even reportable. :-)

Razzle · 08-11-2012, 12:24 PM

What is reportable mean Angel

08-11-2012, 10:33 AM	#1 (permalink)
Razzle Member Join Date: Aug 2012 Location: Portland, Oregon USA Posts: 12	Getting Away With It - Then Anxiety I am new to admitting that I have an addiction and am in therapy but I need to hear from people who also struggle with addictions. Mine does not involve substances. After a long time abstinate and I get really down for some reason I know my addiction will perk me up and then I think I can get away with it. So I start small and within a few days I an really it again. Before I start I think I can get away with it – who cares – it really does not have any consequences!!! So then I am in it and I feel so much better – I have an anxiety disorder and early on when I am acting on the addiction it helps the anxiety. I feel like I am getting away with it and wahoo I am on a roll. THEN after a few days of weeks the self flagellation starts – is God going to get me – will it make my anxiety worse – I am bad – to hell with it I will do it no matter what.....then I crash with severe anxiety and physical symptoms. Can anyone relate to this

08-11-2012, 11:39 AM	#3 (permalink)
AngelwithWings Mmmember Join Date: Nov 2011 Location: State o' Peace Posts: 279 Blog Entries: 2	I'm amazed about how well you managed to word this post. It's not even reportable. :-) __________________ Strong people keep moving forward anyway, no matter what they're going to find.

08-11-2012, 12:24 PM	#4 (permalink)
Razzle Member Join Date: Aug 2012 Location: Portland, Oregon USA Posts: 12	What is reportable mean Angel

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